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this is just a brief call and i would like to thank you for your support
well i haven't given you any support and i am in disagreement with your approach
: o )
but still the same advaita mistake, this confusion of the now or seeming or awareness as being of the infinite
in fact this understanding that there is some tangible “infinite” is what it is all about and this takes time : o )
don't put yourself in a situation of being judged by your inferiors, i do that all the time, the terminal condition of “competent depressives” : o (
this is of course beyond you lot : o )
this is the real letting go of the self, not the spaced out blather of zen and advaita and the arrant nonsense of christianity
i was thinking that advaita, zen and religion generally were like melville's experience of jerusalem
all the gloss of a lot of history and the associations and stories in the bible, but the reality is an unattractive arid city with alot of stone, muggers and petty thieves ; o)
“Mr. Melville has survived his reputation,” one critic wrote in 1851 of the “imposing” novel, with its diatribes, tangents, and verbosity. “If he had been contented with writing one or two books, he might have been famous, but his vanity has destroyed all his chances for immortality, or even of a good name with his own generation.”
the big huge problem is you have to go along lines that hurt, and straight away that sorts the sheep from the goats
none of those posters on the new hczb can do that, indeed, think it abit sick
but actually brad who has some insight can, tho not enough to be useful to him : o )
all that prattle about buddha, but it hurts too much to investigate wether he was really an actual historical person and not some building of cardboard pasted together over the ages : o )
advaita is a fiction that depends on censorship : o (
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r u mad?
wasn't, but really
why are people in it? tolle is in for the money which makes sense, renz is in it for sexual opportunity or used to be, that promiscuous travelling life style, the vast majority are in it because they are schizophrenic and autistic queens bees !
in actual fact i think the mirrors that teaching creates for teachers is so distorting and full of hubris that “ he needs must not see himself ” in the famous words of sir henry neville : o )
my helen keller links
she wasn't simply blind, but had that super visual intensity of autism : o )
sir henry neville is very autistic too, and suzanne foxton and her family and me and ...............
yeah the neurobiological paradigm leaves advaita in the dust
the autistic and developmentally disabled puppets swaying in life's cruel breezes : o )
have intense stare
i was very young but picked up the cast ur eyes down in their presence very quick
mum didn't even need to emphasis they give off an aggressive aura
“ i have to be polite ”
but it's too damaging to be on there and posting without being able to call their shit aggressively : o )
unless i can do that i aquiesce and become part of their toxicity, aggressive abusive keeps me sane
perhaps i do need the conflict, i don't know
anyway i think brad understood this issue of when you aquiesce to bullshit, you become part of it which was why he is always so reluctant to moderate
i know, they don't, it's that simple
they are fucked in the head for sure
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i feel basically she is talking rubbish and wonder where these supporters come from and then i thought, well this is the new jehovah's witnesses
i am going through this in a zen board at the moment, you just sorta stand in front of them stupified, they are so wilfully ignorant : o )
and the fact your brain , like brad's doesn't work properly : o )
brains need ferritin too, the pools of iron in the body are not that interchangeable and you have to eat liver to get ferritin : o )
yeah i take 1000 iu of vit D daily, use a homebuilt uvb lamp and get high solar noon sun on the skin in summer
my cardiovascular health is very good and so is my brain : o )
only an idiot would think doctors know anything about nutrition or health : o )
you may claim to be a buddhist but like christians what you really worship is medicine for its ability to bring you back from your own dietary stupidity : o )
i love medicine, the way it half kills the suckers with chemo, hiroshima-like doses from CAT scans, brain damage from open heart surgery (which is what has happened in your case), making entire generations schizpohrenic and autistic with vaccines and lack of sun on the skin
so these very high protein, very high iron diets don't suit us either !
the specific carbohydrate and bioflm carbohydrate diets are not low carb diets, but selective of carbs that don't feed bad biofilm or gut flora !
the bcd diet is complex and i know you guys are incapable of the level of work it requires, you like this sort of thing like you like zen, easy bullshit is wanted and real discerning work that gets results, well.................
speaking of easy bullshit, brad warner's new blog has degenerated pretty quickly the moment i stopped posting hasn't it?
actually, i think to brad's credit he's not capable of moderating it, he understands the problems, but jayce renner is your usual ignorant as pigshit but self assured buddhist twit and he's got the control of that site : o )
eliminate sugar and honey
with the odd excpetion store brough fruit juices are toxic
really, grains should be eliminated
people are not universally going to listen to you : o )
veg pizza's that sort of thing, and not particularly informed on the veg/fruit side
brad warner is going to come out a zombie which is what happened to him last time : o )
nice spot, but like prison, slow execution by a very toxic diet
unleavened bread is the worse, no denaturing of the wheat proteins ! : o )
i have voluminous writings on the subject
i would be a dead duck if i hadn't done this
i think this is basically what i have learnt from the hczb, everyone is running in circles or falling down some toxic hill and it's that the brains are failing due to diet, micronutrient deficiencies and age
people are not meant to be like what is showing here, malfunctional beyond belief : o )
brad warner is a paradigm for here, schizophrenically rigid, starting to get into the area of failing health, just a liability to those that know him, yet he is an able person : o (
america is an unbelieveably medicalized culture, you are all damaged from too many vaccines and bad scheduling of them and excess medical interventions and lack needed things like sun on the skin which is discouraged and have poor quality food
that said, i do notice americans place more weight on superfical politeness and australians are rougher in manner and more straightforward
put down the clichés, leave the buddhism in the garbage and step into what is hopefully a fresh you
the stench of your rotting flesh will abate : o )
i have never met such a bunch of obstructing and self obstructing half wits
even at work : o )
mind to mind transmission is what zen is about, that happened with me and the sixth partriarch so that's the most senior appointment and i am boss
i'm not a messiah cause it's abit dangerous and who cares about saving the world, but the fact is i am the most senior zen/chan person alive and if you can't understand that direct link outside time then..............
yah well that's me : o )
YOU (ed. comic brains)
why not step into your heritage : o )
yuanwu keqin (commentator of the blue cliff record and writer of zen letters) was not enlightened, but xuedou zhongxian the original collator/author of the koan's was, you you have to parse a bit reading the blue cliff record!
i would guess most of the people posting on this board (ed.hczb) have very little idea that there is an authentic zen literaure, their ideas about it having been derived from popular culture and psuedo stuff like moondog : o )
future generations can look forward to “sayings of the seventh partiarch” of course, no doubt thoroughly distorted and misinterpreted by the usual know nothing editors and commentators : o )
so actually attempts to steer oneself along or onto it are futile
there is only one steering star and that's infinity, projecting your ideas is just that, projecting and unless you are sensitive to what infinity or buddha is, it's futile and you will end up here (ed. hczb) blathering nonsense for ever : o )
actually i do have some sort of sense of path looking back over my time here, sorta of a maturing and latter days “enlightenment”, just tediously slow and perhaps not more difficult than any other disaster area i have been involved with : o )
back to watching sniper videos : o )
i am amazed, i designed my own muzzle brake and it looks very like the one on the mcmillan tac-50
an interesting perspective on sniping
heterosexuals can be as severely or even more gender blurred than homosexuals, look and you will see : o )
why not walk out of the failed buddhist conceptual box you have built around yourself?
khru, i think zen is selective for better intelligence, vipassana and tibetan are cretinous
tho i would also say that zen is also selective for poor emotional intelligence and extreme rigidity : o )
most religions, they don't bother what they believe, just some fluff one goes along with : o )
being over identified with being one sex : o)
just blend in and go with the flow i say : o )
death threats are actually not much fun, but once you have had one it's abit ho hum after that : o )
i know how it sux being such a nonentity that no-one wants to kill you, get over it : o )
you are a person who would benefit by reading the cleary bros translation of the blue cliff record, zen is all about schizoid and autism, you and i being both of course !
the trick with schiziod is to move beyond it, there's no trick to autism except survival and taking what it offers : o)
enlightenment is the complete understanding that we are shadows and infinity is all : o )
my remark about you being zoned out on wheat products abit close to home?
is zen about being more or less of a hypocrite?
what is the role of personal consistency in enlightenment?
the blue cliff record is really the basic zen text after the platform sutra, the cleary brothers translation is way the best imo
the cleary brothers translation of the blue cliff record is very good, you are all so interested in zen, why not read up abit instead of conscripting musicians like moondog as a reference!
to stand on the blue cliff, what is that ? find out !
the thing about bipolar is the mood shift is a pump, i think all genius has some degree of bipolar, but the only really effective med is high dose lithium which is a killer of the thyroid and general health
on my health web pages i have a write up about using very very tiny dose lithium carbonate in drinking water and low dose lithium aspartate and strontium can be useful as well.................
it's the expression itself that's interesting to me
i don't write for anybody, i am just happy if it has the weight of the infinite in it
i also publish it, like i use this blog material i write for my homilies and poems pages, but in a way it's not necessary others read it
the point of this blog and the people on it, their extreme make believe and estrangement from what it's about is it's an extreme that generates a very functional dissonance
it's not a dialogue, it's a storyboard, but the story is true............
wether people pick up on it or not i have no expectations and actually that would work not that well for me if people became less estranged, you in fact are about as close as it can get to be effective, you are actually at an optimal distance for effectiveness so i hope that doesn't change and i don't think it will
it's really fundamental to this "alignment" that being "offended, annoyed, upset and tuned out" be used in productive ways, like recognising in this case that valid criticisms are being made and needing to step down from a senseless and pointless self esteem bound up is the supposed mastery of some rediculous zen or advaita type vocabulary
but as i say these people are not capable of it and it's better that way : o )
they are totally opaque and it's like talking to walruses : o )
nothing would shock me more than comic brains saying, “i can see what you are on about,” fortunately it can't happen : o )
as to where wonderland is and when it occurs, you get an intuition about it
yeah there are dangers, i don't necessarily recommend it at all having had some very close scrapes : o )
in these spaces you enter the timeless......................
then why are you babbling back?
well you think it babble
an every day worlder i guess, the majesty and beauty and awe of it all escapes you
it's not that it's babble back but what i write is that magical polished space and surface
so it speaks to all except the estranged
the scoffers of the everyday sit on the sideline, yelling abuse and disbelief
so my babble/writing is rooted in that identity and that's why it appears
my further reply
the quality of my writing and intensity of effort are in a way out of place on this blog, (ed.hczb) except that really i have no intention of convincing anyone of anything, amd what could it possibly matter, but that it's like a storyboard and i use what i write on my website
it's of a totally different order from just about anything i have ever heard, sadly his later recordings lack due to his age and alcoholism
there are no proper recordings of him in his prime. he was only recorded later when he hadn't owned a piano or practised properly in 40 years and he was usually very drunk.
he had ten wives before his death, one of whom tried to murder him and one of whom was the mother of a previous wife ”
moondog/louis hardin “why spend the dark night with you”, unfortunately i was unable to find the music without the dancing : o )
it looks to me like a pretty slick machine to take cash from middle aged women
why are the most stupid, vacuous and talentless people involved in “the spiritual scene” ?
teachers who can't cope with criticism, indeed so proactive in avoiding it it's not funny, and students who are some amalgam of emotional retardation, stupidity and cowardice?
balanced view guru candice o'denver persuading the disciples not to have children to keep the money for for the balanced view pot : o ), but actually i can see her point, a good 50% of today's women shouldn't breed, GO CANDICE : o )
is he who has a tongue to tell that must remain unspoken.”
is more than a token
i quite like his music, he was a real composer producing something, you can't even front up who you are?
yeah i am an autistic loser but buddha helps me when i don't turn away, happened so many times, my turning it makes me cry : o (
no i don't get lonely cause i am the moon : o)
being rightside up is not rigidly excluding but being open and moving with the flow, very tai chi moving hands in fact ; o )
we are all offended, but can we move beyond that ?
i love these nicks : o )
jesus joko beck was a toxic bitch, really mean minded women in the maezumi lineage : o )
they/he are missing the essential insight
however you lot won't be told will you : o )
yeah or succeed
why you lot are so benighted, is you run in the opposite direction to first base which is you cannot accept your own ignorance
i never had that issue when i started in zen, it was always questions that have taken decades to sort out
you disbelieve there is any resolution or zen is in fact about something totally unexpected
it's just not in your world view that such a thing can happen...................
that world view is your being locked-up...............
your views are like star trek, cadillacs and corporate dog bodies put in outer space : o )
ted you are a boring old fart and would you please keep moving in the opposite direction to first base : o)
seriously, you are so dull and grey there must be something wrong with your life? mismatched partner perhaps?
fred what did you have for breakfast : o )
comic brains, you have hurt me, new age indeed! : o )
actually i wonder if things have sort of divided, you all really have clearly stated that you have an adequate understanding, you are not claiming perfection, but some ability to sort right from wrong whereas i am saying you are actually impaired in that ability and you have to go back much further to some regrounding of a sense of what it's about and way better discrimination
being able to handle this level of deconstruction or dissociation means that neurologically you are deconstructed and/or dissociated, maybe more dissociated than deconstructed, you in the arts at all?
what i mean by stupid is getting zen wrong when it could just as easily be got right, it's crazy stupid weird, but life is like that isn't it?
this is going to sound arrogant, but it is experience, that really i am some sort of freak genius and so far ahead that “constructive dialogue” usually has nothing to offer me the gap is so wide, tho actually these posts of ours are a constructive dialogue and making me think !
but you being able to handle what is being written in a reasonable fashion is unusual !
despite saying what i have said about genius, i do take your point about “locked-in, self-referential snap-shots of insight” and again experience teaches a fundamental equality between us, others have insights and approaches i learn from and certainly it is always instructive to see more generous behavior in others than we are personally capable of !
the tangible reality of infinity or buddha or the absolute is a tangible reality in our lives and it just stinks that zen has gotten so far off tracks and filled with creeps who can't speak without defecating out of their mouths
rigid, anti-creative, suppressing of dissident, what marks zen is a zombie hell and not the the voice and vision of the sages that history occasionally throws up : o )
the only reason you would want to not call these shits on it is if you don't see it
where the autistic spectrum (which you are also way on btw, you come across too clearly in posts to be neurotypical) comes in is that it gives some relief from social constructs of reality, that is socially received truths about how reality is supposed to be which are always malformed and misguided
yeah you are right about “deconstructive game ” forming my own ideas, it's really an exploration of reality, this is where the autism comes in, not having a neurological model of how people and social reality are i have to form one by experiment and experience, this board is good for that because the people are so stupid and extreme, sort of an ultra neurotypical that is so badly done, even i can see through it : o )
i had to laugh at brad warners complaint about not being able to or interested in running a zen center, these little streaks of how autistic he really is flash through. you can actually pick it with him, he's not inclinded to take the socially transmitted version of reality, tho he has had made the mistake of picking up on buddhism to his detriment
you can see this by the way he scripts, just cludging stock phrases together, but sometimes he achieves something unique and through his life he became more able to express himself originally
all the inversions and doubling and then negating what he writes are in fact a clever giving of something sincere and original of one bound into the scripting of religious clichés
the endless people in zen vainly caught between being silently illuminated and unable to front up any real life presence ( maybe that wouldn't be silently illuminated then?)
masks, more masks and an endless stupidity about risk
frogs, mice and emaciated diseased lions
i think this process modifies the real self as well in a more productive and functional way