this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed !


















note to editor :


the 22nd to 30th of may 2012 audio clips are in fact in the 30th of july folder !
















mitigates/militates are a pair

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militates/mitigates are a pair

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mitigates/militates are a pair

;


o


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militates/mitigates are a pair

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o


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what is this  blog  really about?


what are we doing here?


or


is


there


no


we


and


it's


just


insane


universes nattering


across


to


each


other?


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what is this  blog  really about?


what are we doing here?


or


is


it


just


insane


universes nattering


across


to


each


other?
















what is this  blog  really about?


what are we doing here?


or


is


it



just

insane

universes nattering

across

to

each

other?
















“ teaching ”   militates   against the sort of understanding it is about !

:


o


)


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why do i feel that love is basically an illusion  ; o )


eileen  asks


why do u really think that?


my  reply


because we are each universes to ourselves : o )


eileen  replies


ok try going without the illusion of my love then


see wot happens


my  reply


i said basically, not entirely : o)
















why do i feel that love is basically an illusion  ; o )


because we are each universes to ourselves : o )


reply  to
















ah, the valued anonymous  (ed.  hardcore zen blog)  writes:


“ i have a relative who is extremely insensitive to other's feelings. she is quick to give out insults and criticism regardless of how it affects others. however, if anyone else offers even the slightest criticism towards her, she breaks down and begins to cry and moan about how they've hurt her feelings. she is oblivious to this discrepancy ”


in other words she is female aspergers syndrome just like you are male aspergers syndrome, well probably autistic in fact like you, myself and brad warner and the remainder of the morons who post here !


it's not zen but autism and autistic spectrum that explains things,


sadly


over


well


in


fact!
















reply to catherine noyce


i love the voynich manuscript, it's a great work of art and brilliant paradigm for religion !


that  link  you put up is one of the few sensible comments on it on the web, no doubt you have seen the more schizophrenic interpretations !


i have researched it quite abit and imo it transcends forgery


it was i think, a joint effort by john dee and edward kelly (both deeply in debt at the time) and  assisted  i think by their womenfolk, then sold to the holy roman emperor rudolf II of bohemia, a bibliophile who only ever partly paid for it!


the earlier carbon dating of the parchment (but not the writing which is not dateable using current technology) simply means they were able to get hold of an old unused one which i don't think would have been abnormal for those times and would have helped create the appearance of authenticity needed for their sophisticated con to be successful! :o)


it is actually a unique and very special work of art, that is something crafted to look meaningful, but has no meaning !


i spent years in zen and it always puzzled me why it only ever half appeared to make sense, there were occasional kernels of insight generally shrouded in the most awful rubbish and then i finally twigged that these people didn't actually understand what they were saying, but had been trained to create voynich, that is rubbish or nonsense with the appearance of being deeper!


very very occasionally you come across the record of an authentic life in zen/ch'an and a reasonably sensible translation


poor translations are themselves intrinsically voynich and in the religious arena, i i have to say that unfortunately they are the norm !


zen is in addition bedevilled by it's reliance on dogen who, himself was a very interesting blend of voynich and authenticity !


so when you come to something like advaita or zen, you are up against thousands of years of sophistication in the creation of voynich, leavened with the occasional flashes of authenticity, tho when i look at advaita i am hard presssed to find any, i have seen one short literal translation of  nagarjuna  which made sense but that's about it !


UG krishnamurti is another good example of this very difficult to discern blend of the inauthentic and authentic


the basic problem is that the subject matter is intially obscure to our "normality conditioned minds" so we take this obscurity to be the "what it is", but my experience is it does open up in quite sensible and understandable ways and teachers are simply obscure or wrong or nonsensical because they have never transited to any real depth of understanding or appreciation of what this is about


modern life gives very little solitude and this in my experience again is a/the key element and actually teaching with it's constant exposure to people militates against this need for solitude!


so you end up with the usual story for teachers, poor health, broke, stupid and wrong !


i hope this makes sense of my  comment  to you  : o )
















it's unbelievable that brad warner and mike cross have finally shown themselves sensitive to something


mike cross to my criticism of his shobogenzo translation with nishijima  ( he called me a  “ twat ”  )


brad warner to my excommunication post and shall we say the offensive  “ personal hygiene ”  posts most recently on warners blog by anonymouses  (he's not passed any posts in the last day or two)


what alot of crap zen is that these  “accredited”  heavies take so much in the way of criticism and in brad's case insult to make them take any notice !


in brad's case the comments section has been costing him book and audio sales through alienating the usual morons which make up the vast majority of potential buyers


____________________



brad warner has in fact replied to this  post  of mine, and my reply to him is immediately below


brad, good on you for posting that and replying !


there is something to what i was saying, the next step is to start thinking about that and not flick it off with "was i  (ed.  brad)  ever excommunicated ” 


in fact you accepted dharma transmission from nishijima and so are claiming transmission which i revoke


i have also revoked genpo and jundo to be fair : o )


i guess at this point i am so involved i am starting to feel insane  : o )
















the world trade towers, it took the son of a property developer, to destroy them!


osma bin laden's father was also a native of yemen and they have an unusual mini sky scaper style of native  building  there !


yemen is very photogenic and well worth a google image search  : o )
















religions always get caught upin voynich side streets and advaita and non-duality are religions and so is zen !
















religions always get caught upin voynich side streets and advaita is a religion !
















is the  natural state  in fact a mistaken perception of ultimate reality?


a voynich side street that advaita has got stuck in?
















why


does


zazen


make


people


stupid?


is


because


it


seems


to


an


answer ?


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i'm not breeding with anyone


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o


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)


:


o


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cat stevens, katherine mansfield, eihei dogen a commonality ?


yeah they all had tuberculosis and that crimped them !!!!!!!!!!!!!!


keats as well i guess, but he died very young !  : o (
















faithful females who choose good providers are the key


to the evolutionary shift to modern family


there's something


to


this


:


o


)


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eileen writes :


moon in a dew drop sounds good


very visually appealing



my reply :


well weirdly half assed


that's the problem with dogen


the image lacks


maybe apoor translation, but dogen is sorta there and sorta not
















future decisions bother me, they always seem diffferent shades of wrong  ; o )
















it is a great relief to realize that in this undivided happening, there is no perfection apart from the imperfection, that the light and the dark arise together like the crest and trough of the wave, that they cannot be pulled apart, and to appreciate the holiness of everything, exactly as it is, warts and all.


some voynich above from joan tollifson and my   reasonably mellifluous re-alignment  below  : o )


in this divided happening, there is perfection apart from the imperfection, the light and dark arise together like the crest and trough of a wave and fall apart...............
















oh well doesn't matter,

i mean it matters


   but i can't do anything about it : o )
















oh well doesn't matter, i mean it matters but i can't do anything about it : o )
















excellent pics and video of the andromeda galaxy  colliding  with the milky way


4 billion years in the future and the expanding sun has already fried the earth at this point!


those pictures are actually what our night sky will look like as andromeda approaches and intersects the milky way !
















it never ceases to amaze me, things i think i have quite a good grip on , years later i can see i was/am well off target  : o )
















a benefit of the net is full freedom of expression,   however  it is not always beneficial to use this freedom to the full  : o )
















a benefit of the net is full freedom of expression, but it is not always beneficial to use this freedom to the full  : o )
















my problem with posting in the hardcore zen blog is basically i post in good faith and it's not received in good faith


it's very damaging to ones self to be in a situation like that


what works is just to read it and not post on it at all !  :o )
















beware of subsidizing everybody else with your life which is abit of a sick space to be in as i know from my own ongoing experience!!!!
















brad you are a fake as a zen teacher (not that 99.99% of the rest aren't ) and i as the only ch'an/zen patriarch alive today and therefore most senior zen person am specifically sacking you out of zen, that's entirely out of zen, not even as an acolyte


  excommunicated  in a word!


i do feel this is in your best interest and you are better to take another direction in your life even at this late stage, i don't suppose you will, sense or realism about life doesn't seem to be your strong point !


anyway i am not going to unsack you, but you have an opportunity to show you are not a complete cotcase by not deleting this post like you did this koan i posted !!!!!!!!!!!


of course you are a F A K E like the rest so i will be surprised to S E E I T


basically you are just subsidizing everybody else with your life which is abit of a sick space to be in as i know from my own ongoing experience!!!!


the trick is to get something out of it for yourself, but you lack the smarts or ability to do that, so it's better you are out of the toxic cesspit of zen !


i suppose to be fair i have also excommunicated jundo and genpo !
















ha hah ha, brad warner couldn't handle my koan and deleted it from his hardcore zen blog


he's an absolute idiot, you can make comment about him having a smelly penis and he leaves that up, but he deleted that koan i wrote, no wonder he's in the shit !


what a F A K E !

















men


are


all


the


same

displaying


to


women


and


ending


indentured


to


alife


of


servitude !
















all men are letching perverts, the only thing that changes as they get older is they get sadder and more pathetic !
















  better changed and right  than wrong down the same road  : o )



tbu 30th may #12 mp3
















there you are a modern koan !


----------------



great master brad warner put a dinosaur toy on eBay and the bid was won by rainbowrex.


brad had made a mistake with underestimating the postage cost and asked rainbowrex to pay the increased charge !


rainbow rex was abusive and brad broke the deal


who was right


brad or rainbow rex?


verse


anonymous heckles


from


inside


the


boundaries


free
and


untrampled


brad


walks


free !


  comment 


some anonymouses gave brad a hard time for reneging on the deal in the comments section of the hardcore zen blog, but brad finked out and deleted those comments !


all



abit


ambiguous


in


the

modern


way


:


o


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)


:


o


)


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i quite like the phrase born contrary to nature, it conveys something !


the beal is the best translation  there  imho  : o )


keep ranting, i think everyone who has been in zen and then gets out (which one never does entirely) spends the rest of their lives recovering
















reply to "anonymous",  (ed. hardcore zen scab commenter)


the principle of the oxherding story is the same right across zen and any religion, that's writing some nonsense, then have everyone goo and gaa how profound it is over many centuries, so all you need is to ascribe sense to nonsense and you are home and hosed !


in earlier times you could even get martyred over sight variations in meaning ascribed to the nonsense


just remember if you talk sense no-one wants to know and if you talk nonsense they all want to know cause they all can be little priests with their own intepretation !
















"anonymous"  ox herding will suit you down to the ground


it's a paradigm for retards


basically


you


masturbate


on


the


back


of


an


ox !
















mark (ed. foote), i don't think your "fix" for early waking was useful, i've had so much experience with these flawed reports of recovery from a health problem, maybe he keep the light off and didn't disrupt the circadian rhythm and got some improvement, but really you have to supplement!


sleep is a very hardwired brain function and my write up is  here  and we will have to disagree


i notice on your web page and your general approach is to divorce any personal exposure from what you write, it's one of brad warner's strengths and to his advantage that he presents himself pretty much as he is and is not afraid to allow criticism, tho he could pay more attention..............


course it's much easier if you are single like brad, but even so, you hide too much and it's curtailing your further development


so there's  this  on the web, we have a common interest but my approach is physiological !
















yeah rainbowrex is a total ebay pro !


there's a pic of him and his wife , you are a single man brad and from experience i can tell you, the basic equation is couples are very good grabbing machines, that's what they are evolutionarily designed to do and there's nothing benign about it !


single men are very vulnerable in ways they have difficulty perceiving !


so


are


single


women


or


have


senseless


husbands !
















writing helps the thinking develop productively for sure !
















mysterion, the reality is you need dai-kensho as child


it's rare, but happens, and is pretty penal because it is life abating


suzanne foxton is the only genuine dia-kensho experience i have come across on the web, in life, toni packer


they both must have had the requisite childhood experience and some ability to think clearly on the subject!


training is a waste of time, the ox is way too formed so to speak


no-one here (ed. hardcore zen blog) has the requisite childhood experience, you just want to be less ambitious and let things develop productively


just be realistic about the limitations and actually that is pretty enlightened !


"enlightenment"  if you want to use that word is not some desirable space of happiness and joy, but you have been shot through the head and survived


you are always wounded and i always say the only justice is to live and be healthy !


______________________



suzanne foxton must have been very depressed and ready to throw in the towel, however she had been seeing a good therapist and i think she naturally had allways been thinking about questions relating to life, plus probably some lsd use when younger plus alcoholism, so being wrecked and disillusioned with life so to speak


anyway she was washing some dishes and looking at a kitchen knife she must have very very seriously thought of cutting her wrists (tho she doesn't actually say that part, maybe the knife was associated with cutting, i noticed in a video she was pulling long sleeves down over her wrists)


she had walked away from living and hope


and then infinity appeared


it's very distinct and changes one's whole approach, tho her weakness is she has somewhat misinterpreted her experience,


too much tv and video and not enough quality reading


it's just interesting cause there's so much crap around


every zen buddshit and advaita nit claiming genuine experience when they are masturbating in the car park


there's no context to such an experience, it has no comparison


for you, me or her


she's insane but not brillant


she's as thick as abrick really, but a slow steady thinker and does observe


can't say i'm the brightest and am certainly insane  : o )
















mysterion, the reality is you need dia-kensho as child


it's rare, but happens, and is pretty penal because it is life abating


training is a waste of time, the ox is way too formed so to speak


no-one here has the requisite childhood expereince, you just want to be less ambitous and let things develop productively


just be realistic about the limitations and actually that is pretty enlightened !
















mark foote, you rely on the wordy nonsense of others and take that for your certainty


but all it's about is buddha/god/infinity/the absolute K N O W N AS I T S E L F and in life


you will have your own words then and certainty in the face of a hostile and disbelieving world


human collectives are exactly in the opposite direction to this truth !
















anonymous (ed. hardcore zen blog) writes...


Andrew, how can you help me?


Best Wishes,

Mr. Corpse


------------


my reply


look if zazen works so well, why do you have to hide behind "anonymous"


i say smelly rancid mice because that's what you guys all are, all pretend wankers


afraid to identify themselves on this pathetic board


afraid of the FBI? or being exposed as the grey drab colourless nonentities you are?


where are the zen adepts of old who could actually reply in a coherent fashion that demonstrated facility and not these present day fakes who can only mumble the most dreadful rubbish about zazen??


a lot of you guys just excuse your complete lack of any facility or understanding with "grunt" just do zazen, well you can do that but it's not the old ch'an of the adepts !
















i think the book of kells is some sort of paradigm for a wasted life, tho this  pic   is good !  (5th down)
















"Just sit with that thoughts about me and Label them. Really feel that physically with your Body, Listen to it!"


what you get is just the brain churning and digging itself in a deeper rut


there's validity to solitude and reading the pearls that world literature has to offer, but there's no validity to zazen !


can you see the book of kells as zazen? it was a big mistake for the authors !!!
















- hardcore zen blog razz -


c'mon let the non corpses stand up ! it's just like being in a graveyard


can you write without spitting out maggots you zombies : o)


dogen had it right about the yellow springs !


don't you feel even a little ashamed to spend so much time getting it so wrong?
















lol a fake joko ghost !!!!!!!!!  ( ed. a reply to some zombie on the hardcore zen blog writing under the nick joko )


speaking of ghosts


she's really in the brad warner, lou nordstrom class


sincere, honest and almost completely mistaken !


she's a living corpse and always was


there's just something really dead about her!


that's why you believe in her i guess, matches your own deadness

















people just want instant answers they can use and not have to engage in any real process of working out how it is
















life's a mess start to finish


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life's a mess start to finish


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o


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i don't find everyday life very wonderous because it's not


stick


that


up


your


arse


you


zen


and


advaita




  SHITS !
















i don't find everyday life very wonderous because it's not


stick


that


up


your


arse


you


zen


and


advaita




SHITS !
















my last words


fuck off ! can't you leave some-one alone?


:


o


)


(
















hmm, no medications but the  compendium  and blood donation


they work, i have stopped seeing thick black wavy bars across my vision when i wake up the morning which was very worrying  : o )


the thick wavy lines may have been due to to much iron in the retina !
















dr. oz writes...


andrew, a.k.a. 7thzenpatriarch, said...


i had a vision in which the sixth patriarch authorised me to teach ! so i'm the seventh patriarch


i forgot, are you epileptic or schizophrenic?


delusions of grandeur are NOT your strong point. delusions of adequacy are not your strong point either.


stop listening to the voices.


take your medications.



my reply



dr. oz i am   epileptic & schizophrenic


very insightful!


fundamental to what i say is the primacy of vision over voices, don't believe the voices but believe the visions ! : o )


the sixth patriarch appeared directly to me , i don't know that's grandeur, but given the crap around he must have been thrilled that someone genuine came to exist : o )
















-  hardcore zen blog  -


anon#108:  sure, 'inconsistency', as brad said, is a feature of dogen's writing. so perhaps he disparaged and made use


another anonymous poster:  but that view doesn't make any sense... one does not make use of things you *truly* disparage



my reply:


what about marriage?
















although dogen had some reservations about the five ranks, it was not because he did not find them true. he simply did not want them to become a formula—a mere intellectualization or abstraction (ed. another crap artist posting on the hardcore zen blog !)


all you little hermit crabs pulling the holy and flawed shell of dogen over yourselves : o )


pathetic stinking mice who drown when they go below the tide  : o )
















the japanese, such and intelligent and stupid race, born to cut everyone else's throats and their own


 hiroshima and fukushima are a pair !


and


dogen


and


world


war


II


why


do


i

say


that ?


:


o


(


)
















joko (ed. beck), your husband committed suicide and really seeing the crap you write, i don't blame him!


she's one toxic woman, a different cast on  the sincere ones , murderously stupid !
















good  movie, haven't watched it all, i caught the themes in the wikipedia  plot  summary and it's too engrossing !!!!


very thematic, life death, love and ghosts!


ghosts are a good way, or at least a common one of looking at the reality and unreality of the imaginary and real and totality !

















i think the honest and sincere ones (ed. zen teachers) are the biggest suckers of all cause they are still wrong which is the case for brad warner and lou nordstrom


i don't think genpo is honest or sincere, but he's making money and enjoying life with all the floosies thrown in free, tho he's old enough to start tiring of that i think ; o )


he's sane there's some point to what he's doing but brad and lou they are crazy stupid without a point except our edification and entertainment about what not to do!


brad if you think you're up to it, try replying to this as a real person and not some guy who has to know what zen is and be real about the fact everything has failed !


i'm not saying i haven't failed btw : o )



___________________


brad, why not do a sock monkey skit with genpo telling you what a failure you are and how much money he is making and how much fun he is having


can you laugh at that?


maybe he can say that he enjoys ripping hardcore zen for material to help him con the suckers


maybe you could crawl away on the floor defeated with a flash to you standing by a road offering to wash car windows?


it can be done really funny and that should help it go viral with your audience !


just don't be afraid to really lash into genpo and debase youself !


with luck he might sue for libel, that's extra publicity and in your state of finances what can he do?


_________________



you have to do something funny, yet really breaks a few bones and gets people uspet that drives you into front page zen news


if you want to see the way it's falling at the moment with jundo somehow having bought sweeping zen..........


_________________



something slightly surreal, like sock monkey/genpo between nina's breasts !
















what i like about the gudo nishjima/mike cross translation of dogen is occasionally he/they come through, not very often but occasionally you can actually see what dogen wrote unlike the rest of the translated rubbish around !


mike cross really has a good eye for what this is about, except it's unconcious and he writes it over with what he thinks zen is about !


why translators of religious texts feel obliged to overwrite the original sense with subtle distortions of their own views i don't know, but that's what occurs in 99.99% of these translations !


now dogen really at the stage he was writing most of the shobogenzo really didn't understand what he is talking about and the following shows it !


i don't think you lot are going to understand at all, but i write to educate myself : o )/ ; o )


  shobogenzo  volume 3, chapter 43, section 52 (page 42)


zen master etetsu of sekimonzan in the great kingdom of song is a venerable patriarch in the order on ryōzan.


in the story, a monk asks him, “what is the jewel in the mountain?”


the point of this question is, for example, the same as in asking “what is buddha?” it is like asking “what is the truth?”


the master says, “flowers in space unfold on the ground. even if we buy throughout the country, there is no gate.”


that's a good reply but shows dogen's weakness as a chronic plagiarizer ( tho he is attributing in this case) and always lacking his own expression and when he does trip into something himself it's always hamfisted and clumsy !


asking what the jewel in the mountain is is not the same as asking “what is buddha” and “what is truth” and dogen at this stage wasn't seeing it !


well zen is plagiarism, the step into one's own creativity is beyond the acolytes !


that is the flower unfolding on the ground !
















brad warner, you are in a fix, zen's not delivering too you, writing's not delivering to you and music's not delivering too you


i think you are naturally talented but you have been spread in too many directions to ever be effective !


of course this is zen in its truest sense but so is dogen's getting TB from his journey in china, one can live the truth of failure and disease but it's not actually essential and why do it if you don't have to?


it probably is actually essential, but i think the trick is to keep away from the extremes of being totally broke and chronically ill !
















if  you  read what you have written it is full of the contradiction that “no self ” is a form of self !


you just make “no self ” another form of self


and that's actually dogen's mistake too, tho towards the end of his life he started to get it right


zazen is just a group passivation technique to keep unruly monks under control and that's all it is !


it's a pity dogen didn't live longer and corrected his mistakes instead of leaving the toxic wasteland of malfeasance he has !



my later reply to him


as i said you have created another form of self you are calling “no self ”, you can repeat any amount of voynich but it doesn't change things !


those words are not even your own, but someone else's crap, probably even the usual bad dogen translations !


you can pretend to yourself you have an understanding, millions do and this has always been the way


continue to self hypnotize yourself with zazen!


yeah you are an “eye which cannot see itself ” for sure !


we have no true being, we are born and die


just drop the clichés and write what you think and in your own words and you will be well ahead of any of these zen and neo advaita twits on the net who just regurgitate rubbish and thing they have done something real !


can you write like a human who is a real person and not a robot?

















the net is a fundamentally new form of publishing that books can't touch !
















the point is not to decrease mental suffering at all, but make sense of things and mindfullness is the   usual spiritual self hypnotic insanity  !




my


later


reply:



it's cogency not "awareness" that matters


i have been aware of many things but it's only later in life that i could get any cogency about them


the "eastern philosophies" also tell you there's no self but you constantly speak in terms of what's right for that self !


by hypnotic insanity i mean precisely what  you  are doing, internal inconsistences that would rive apart what you say if you weren't enmeshed in the dogma of "mindfullness !"
















what is wrong with dogen is he makes an object of  dharma truth, something that is approached for instance by seated meditation


that lack of ability to approach in a direct way is fundamental and why soto is so screwed, people just self hypnotizing with zazen basically
















now if you thought my  last  reply was spaced out this one is even better, it's addressed to you bernard tho i am not suzanne and hopefully you will take it (reply immediately below) in a positive spirit and not be offended !


best yet, reply in non conformity!
















it's not that one dissolves into emptiness  but that the  absence of oneself reveals what is always there


and


what


is

there


more


beautful


than mist


on


astill


lake


and


the rising sun with it's golden yellow light


...............


so


from

a


practical


point


of


view


what


is


the


absence


of


oneself


some

freaked



out


state


of


nullity


well


it


can


be

that


but


still


daily it is the constant examination of assumptions and recognition of our overwriting of reality


i


suppose


i


am


like


you


saying


how


it


is


except


i


am


correct


and


you

are


not


but


you


have


no


interest


in


going


forward


the


exposition


of


your


limited


view


satisfies


you !


lol


i


will


have


to


stop


fucking


writing !


:


o


)


(
















young women have all the hormonal arrogance of knowing the species needs them to breed to continue!


it's absolute and brutal, not least to themselves ;o)
















well things drift on and we slowly die, that’s about all it amounts to isn’t it?


i keep expecting it to be different but it never is ; o )


















written earlier:


it took me years to understand dogen was psycho ! he's half baked and this of course is his appeal since the half baked can mean anything and will always be incomprehensible !


the giant con game that ZEN IS SO GOOD AT !


a later


reply:


yeah, he's a very extreme mixture of getting it right and wrong and of course towards the end of his life he really starts to make sense if you take the trouble to retranslate the usual bad translations yourself
















that's really the first step, if you don't understand something ask! so many teachers lack the essential humility to ask what they don't understand, they are just on some stupid ego trip of pretending to know what they are clueless about !


ok.


in your question you state there's right and wrong according to your conditioned mind, but really everything just is as it is.


now that is a cliché, just a learned rote response they pack out all the time as part of the standard advaita drivel


look to your own experience, is everything just as it is and is there right and wrong?



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i notice this  guy  who thought he knew so much has clammed up like they all do


know the secrets of the universe, but the moment they start to look bad they disappear


his nick is apeacefulspecies full of crap even in the nick



eileen comments:


yeah often a good first sign i've found


flakey id flaky thinker



my reply


yeah, broadcast it loud and clear
















yeah, a really good point is about needing someone who is loyal to bounce ideas off, getting   vectored   is such a trap of the hermit life !
















the advaita paradigm is bullshit equals truth !  do you think that truth is so mentally impoverished that it can't spare a few words to write originally if you are in touch with it?


pasting endless clichés shows which camp you are in, falsity on the other hand is entirely poor in originality
















arguing isn't pointless and there's right and wrong and packing out clichés is W R O N G
















anything


you


say


from


the


i


viewpoint is


meaningless


:


o


)


(
















you


live


blind


so


why


should


i


live


blind?



mp3 tbu #9 23rd may
















you


live


blind


why


should


i


live


blind?
















just the usual know nothing think they know it all!


basic to the human condition!


what makes them breed


splat their genes everywhere !
















the food  you  eat can't support health or thinking well and some sort of circadian rythym is essential


but the real problem is is  shallowness , there are natural questions that hermitage permits looking at like what is god or what is infinity


forget the computer games and start to move in a new direction, i was struck by how much like you i live, check out my black stream poem  video  for a different perspective
















my reply to a you tube  comment


it's not a contradiction to teach truth, it's just that people including teachers are like you, they think they know it when they don't !


if you just play you will start rambling about silence............


you really are adverse to the notion that there is some process to discovery and something to be discovered that is a lifetime's hard work


let's just flick off clichés eh?



my later comment


people just want instant answers they can use and not have to engage in any real process of working out how it is
















you're a dreamer


stuck


in


make-believe


  reality !
















if


any


one


wants


to


know


what


zen


or


religion


or


advaita


or buddhism


or


islam


is


really


like


it's


like


this


and  this


:


o


)


yeah


caught


in


a


tar


 pit !
















the


female


aim


is


to


keep


the


male


in

a


not


quite


incessant


state

of


upset


:


o


)


(



mp3 tbu no.7 23rd may
















the


female


aim


is


to


keep


the


male


in

a


not


quite


incessant


state

of


upset !



mp3 tbu no.7 23rd may
















if you read what was  written ,  it has an internal consistency that is abstract
















everything seems sensible until you run out of health  : o )

















everything


seems


sensible


until


you


run


out


of


health !


:


o


)
















there


is


a


resolution


there


is


no


resolution


at


all


:


o


)


(



mp3 tbu 22nd mat no.2
















there


is


a


resolution


there


is


no


resolution


at


all


:


o


)
















there


is


a


resolution


there


is


no


resolution


at


all



mp3 tbu 22nd mat no.1
















i have had a bit of a think about this  exchange  and we are both talking past each other, which is regrettably how life is  99.99%  of the time i guess!


that's how we go through life which is sorta interesting when you think about it


it's not an easily resolvable divide!


or


even


resolvable


at


all !



i would


say


it's


so


unresolvable


it


is


like


the


unwritten


substrate


of


life !
















i have had a bit of a think about this exchange and we are both talking past each other, which is regrettably how life is  99.99%  of the time i guess!


that's how we go through life which is sorta interesting when you think about it


it's not an easily resolvable divide!



or


even


resolvable


at


all !
















sometimes


it


just


pays


to


look


at


yourself


making


a


mistake  !
















sometimes


it


just


pays


to


look


at


yourself


making


a


mistake !
















how ridiculous that one can spend one's life believing and doing this sort of  crap
















the rather sweet kay ryan at her best


turtle
















rather  sobering  and apparently it's got worse since about 1992


life will teach me to laugh through tears


(1:10:27/01)  ‑  but really it's better to watch the whole thing and just come across that!


i'm really recommending this, not in terms of remedying the russian prison system, but in terms of what a defeated life shows


if you can't see yourself in this then you need to do some thinking !


you have to watch the whole thing, well worthwhile as i say !
















my  reply  to


yeah, life's abit odd really when you look at it ; o )


my


further


reply


people being entirely male or female is abit of a myth, we are all different blends


you may be blended with more male need for direct activity and perhaps less female manipulative social skill so you sorta feel blocked and perhaps are discriminated against a bit because you don't fit


if you read my writings you will get the drift !


society is a murderous machine, but i don't think that's a sentiment you share !
















 sir henry neville's best


 the tempest act 4, scene 1




prospero



our revels now are ended.


these our actors


as i foretold you, were all spirits, and


are melted into air, into thin air :


and like the baseless fabric of this vision


the cloud-capp'd tow'rs, the gorgeous palaces


the solemn temples, the great globe itself


yea, all which it inherit, shall dissolve


and, like this insubstantial pageant faded


leave not a rack behind.


we are such stuff


as dreams are made on; and our little life


is rounded with a sleep.

















why donna  summers  died of lung cancer at 63 was a confluence of causes, being a vigorous person with high growth factors, a history of smoking, darkish skin needing much more sun for vitamin D and anti-cancer factors than she would have got living in high latitudes for most of her life, and asbestos from the 9/11 twin towers collapse, plus, i think, biofilmic  -  somewhat   an old soul  !


when she first sang as a child she was considered to have a voice old beyond her years
















the


female


philosophy


is


get


the


male


then


get


the


male


to


do


it !


:


o


)


(
















there


is


no


such


thing


as


death !


death


is


simply


the


absence


of


self


it


can


happen


while


we


are


alive !


:


o


)


(
















if


you


can't


self


correct


you


won't


correct !


heaven


can


wait


and


indeed


it


does !





ed. reply  to
















if


you


can't


self


correct


you


won't


correct !


heaven


can


wait


and


indeed


it


does !





ed. reply  to
















the appetite of the morons for voynich is endless


back


and


forth


pulling


themselves


the


endless


masturbation


of


shoring


up


their


self


esteem


making sense of crap as


per


the


human


usual !
















tozan's five ranks are mixed up garbage !


and


that


was


before


the


pseudo


translators


got


hold


of


it !


:


o


)


(
















there's no person in infinity


everything


flows


from


it


and


to


it !
















the legend of buddha is totally fictional, he just cannot have existed in that social way



in


fact


he


falls


short


whereas basho didn't


basho


lived


for


that


union


with


infinity


buddha


didn't


and


in


fact


got


sidetracked


on


abstract


blather !
















to the  lighthouse,  one of the most extraordinary works of english literature


the   cast , woolf's parents and siblings?


more  photos
















mike cross  writes :


the truth of the sun and the earth, and of the moon before aśvaghoṣa and dogen got their dirty poets' paws on it.



my reply :


  good poetry   is the  truth of the sun


don't disrespect your own efforts in translation!




mike cross replies


i never heard of anybody getting a tan, or vitamin d, from a poem.




my reply



the sun shines  radiant  on  my bare skin


warming, with microscopic action


on


cholesterol


pre vitamin


D


races


through


my


veins


coursing health


and


beneficially changing gene expression


change


at


my


deepest


level !




that's not just description, but the actuality of my life because that's what i do and what happens to me!


buddha is not some remote event that happens to us but the identity and synchronicity of vision with ourselves!


the buddha-carita is that identity, why do you think you are translating it
















reply  to


my koan for mike port


why does he remove from his blog comments that he can't deal with?


there's no such thing as a zen master, there's zen idiots for sure, both dogen and bassui make big mistakes in what they write


you just can't take the usually very poor translations of these people and step forward on that, you have to go backwards past yourself


given what buddha is, is it any problem to deliver the original content that you need to understand to you?


i write straight from buddha, does it resonate or do the vibrations seem precipitously unsettling to you?


i'm with kahlil gibran on this one.............


would that i were a dry well, and that the people tossed stones into me, for that would be easier than to be a spring of flowing water that the thirsty pass by, and from which they avoid drinking.


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the herd goes in one direction, what zen is really about goes in the opposite


the herd being a breeding machine, completely ignores that the worthwhile zen masters of old were celibate


how many years of solitude do you need to understand this matter?


the


u


n


p


a


l


a


t


a


b


l


e



t


r


u


t


h

















my comment of a lisa cairns flakey  video


there is no contentment and wholeness or completion in life AT ALL!


there seems to be no shortage of idiots lapping up advaita rubbish !



lol, an advaita idiot replied so what is there?



my reply


this is the usual advaita non-contextualized nonsense, try saying something meaningfull and not voynich !


i'm not going to hold my breath waiting for a reply again, these vapourware flakes seem to evaporate when things get even slightly rough for them : o )