this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed !


















you are too attached to the outward forms and have no sense of the inward meaning !
















at


the


first


hour


of


the


moth



:


o


)



mp3
















at


the


first


hour


of


the


moth



mp3
















in


continual


and


eternal


dalliance


being


swept


away



mp3
















in


continual


dalliance


being


swept


away



mp3
















meaningless woman witch vision advaita view terminus
view on advaita people obtrude anticipating problems v2
anticipating problem v1
















acting

the


teachers


are


a


bit


bizarre !



mp3
















tonight


it


was


really


a


right


decision


not


to


mow


the


lawn


plenty


of


insight


in


the


absence


of


that


   activity !
















tonight


it


was


really


a


right


decision


not


to


mow


the


lawn


plenty


of


insight


in


the


absence


of


that


activity !



mp3
















the


spiritual


path


a


transparent


look


at


ourselves



mp3
















the


spiritual


path


a


transparent


look


at


ourselves
















the


spiritual


path


a


transparent


look


at


ourselves !
















the


so-


called


spiritual


path



a


relatively


transparent


look


at


ourselves



it


needs


to


be


completely


transparent



i


don't


know


how


you


achieve


that !



mp3
















the


so-


called


spiritual


path



a


relatively


transparent


look


at


ourselves



it


needs


to


be


completely


transparent



i


don't


know


how


you


do


that !



mp3
















humans


a


species


diseased


by

social


copying !



mp3
















a


bit


crusty


the


dutch


or


psychotic


or


autistic !



mp3
















a


bit


crusty


the


dutch


or


psychotic !



mp3
















male


lust


is


a


fairly


simple


behavior


insemination


and


the


perpetuation


of


themselves !
















holidays are there


if


we'd


just


take


them !



mp3
















i


think


we


are


always


looking


for


some


image


of


ourselves !


:


o


)


(



mp3
















some


or


even


all/most


women


are


not


female


at


all


they


are

a


bizzare/amplified


combination


of


gender


blurring


which


gives


rise


to


apparently


female !




(ed. it's actually about gender itself, might be abit of an illusion)
















people


sit


on


this


immense


voidness


of


expecting


people


to


run


after


them


and


make


things


happen !


of

course


it


is


void !!!!


:


o


)


(



mp3
















people


sit


on


this


immense


voidness


of


expecting


people


to


run


after


them


and


make


things


happen !


:


o


)


(



mp3
















aging


do


we


have


to


wear


out


so


badly?



mp3
















the


different


universe


of


women


communicating


to


that


stars


and


rags



mp3




ed. well women are a different universe to men, so  “communicating to that”


the  stars and rags  are like the extremes of the mutal communication  : o ) (
















what i notice is that people have very little idea of what solitude is and actually it's easy enough to get !


my advice on taking  retreats


all that endless verbal masturbating on the zen and advaita blogs, a day by themselves and they wouldn't be so loquacious


the answer these days is to take retreat time on your own cognizance and use the web for reading and in terms of questions this  site  is available, i'm not being immodest, but in all honesty i can't recommend anyone else except toni packer who is not available !
















reply to zafu frog who has deleted all my previous comments !


why can't you cope with my replies?  buddha would have dished me up and eaten me with crayfish : o )


the truth is zazen is making you more limited and narrowing your horizons !



reply again after he deleted the above !



but isn't what you have just written thought?


you are not ignoring your own thoughts, but saying those are right and mine are wrong !


the skill is in sorting out what is true or so and what is wrong, zazen just entrenches our own thoughts, says they are right when mostly , like everything else they are wrong !


just try leaving this up for a couple of days and see how you feel about it then !


who is greater , basho or dogen ?



deleted again !
















males


are


confronted


with


their


relationship


dilemma


they


were


successfully


raised


because


their


mothers


displayed


the


traits


that


they


so


abhor !



mp3
















i


don't


think


men


understand


how


strong


jealousy


is


with


women


they


can


and


will


kill


for


it !



mp3
















yes


there


is


something


peculiar


about


language


what


exactly


it


is


i


don't


know


maybe


it's


the


way


it


mirrors


the


world !



mp3
















part

of


being


an


audience


is


the


need


to


be


an


audience


that


is


pack


the


critical


facilities


away


and


just


listen



mp3
















part

of


being


an


audience


is


the


need


to


be


an


audience


that


is


packing


the


critical


facilities


away



and


just


listening



mp3
















dogen


is


a trap


for


the


non-


discerning !



mp3
















when


you


get


it


right


advaita


with


their


flakey


airy-fairyness


will


spit


you


out !



mp3
















quarks


and


non


quarks


and


non



non


quarks!



:


o


)


(



mp3
















humans


all


our


aptitude


is

for


plagiarizing


and


none


for


our


own


thinking !


:


o


(
















i


don't


think


zazen


hits


the


right


spot


at


  all !
















have you ever seen ducks surf before?


unbelievable , i just saw a couple of hen mallards with the bright green flash in the wing fly down onto a small wave and surf !


this was at the goat island reserve, late afternoon on january, saturday the 13th
















if


you


want


to


do


a


retreat


get


away


by


yourself


for


half


a


day


or

a


day


somewhere


visual like


the


beach


or


sea


somehow


or


a


walk


or


bush


nature


anyway !
















that's


what


infinity


is


just


this


silent


staring
















that's


what


infinity


is


just


this


silent


staring ?
















i'm


not


going


to


write


10


bloody


homilies

a


day


for


the


rest


of


my


life?
















i'm


not


going


to


write


10


bloody


homilies

a


day


for


the


rest


of


my


life?
















the


relaxed


demeanour


of


one


who


is


childless


:


o


)


(



( ed. i made this observation after a relaxed and pleasant day at the goat island reserve just west of ulverstone, a beautiful summers day with the coast and sea at it's best, beautiful clear waters like a tropical island and a couple were struggling with two young children dressing or undressing them in the car park !
i wish i could be full of regret, but i'm not  : o )
















if


you


have


a


lot


of


money


you


have

a


certain


degree


of


command


of


the


world


it's


not


infinity


it's


not


heaven


and


it's


not


hell


and


that's


about


it !
















a


lot


of


human


evolution


is


about


the


female


taming


the


male


of


course


the


male


can


tame


the


female


too


or


can


he/they


i


don't


think


so !


:


o


)


(
















murasaki's


the


tale


of


genji


the


mills



and


boon


precursor


i don't


like


it


empty


she


said


and


empty


it


is !


sei


shonagon


is


way


better


and


more

cultured !



murasaki's


diary


is


more bitingly


realistic


tho


and


a


much


better

document !
















you are extremely abnormal, if you think normal fits you are going to be wrecked !
be more in touch with that blurred male female identity and get some real thinking in !
















the


blindness


of


men

to


women


it's


mortifying !



mp3
















dogen


maybe


there's


nothing


to


understand


just


an


endless


spacy


wackiness



mp3
















sex


is


just

a


staging


post


to


a


BABY !



mp3
















an


old


tired


man


who


doesn't


want


to


be


alive !



mp3
















an


old


tired


man


who


doesn't


want


to


be


alive



mp3
















an


old



tired


man


who


doesn't


want


to


be


alive !



mp3
















it


surprised


me


that


that


was


a

bit

painful


to


say !



mp3



(ed. just below)
















i


don't


think


men


ever


properly


grow


up


without


involvement


with


a


woman




and


then




the


children !



mp3
















you are making the fundamental advaita mistake, that is speaking in terms of abatement, but not from the seeing and feeling of brahman


there is some-one there to suffer, it's just that there can be an identity in that, the point of identity is not a removal of suffering but it's synchronicity with brahman !


i think the way to understand it, is in the abatement something appears


 lisa cairns deleted my reply  so i wrote


lol, will you remove this reply/comment as well ? you may feel that what i wrote threatens your status as a teacher but in fact it only promotes you !


she


 deleted that comment as well !
















how ridiculous that one can spend one's life believing and doing this sort of  crap
















now


this


guy

made


me


think

a


bit


he's


still


the


eight


year


old


with


adultsexuality


sorta

a


ghastly/sleazy


peter


pan


knocking


off


all

the


fairies


the


rings


and


teddy


bears


on


the


bed


he


never


wanted


to


and


has


never


grown


up


and


is

now


looking


for


what


cannot

be


recovered !
















who


you


are


you


have


this


pattern


of


habits


abilities


and


disabilities


you


need


to


deconstruct


yourself


abit


and


reform !
















who


you


are


you


have


this


pattern


of


habits


abilities


and


disabilities


you


need


to


deconstruct


yourself


abit


and


reform !
















man, you can't be more spaced out than  this !


clark hays


all you can do is walk away from people like this, fucking pretenders lacking the personal modesty for even an inkling of their inadequacy to pass through their brain !
















you


have


to


keep


going


relentlessly


forward !



mp3
















you


have


to


keep


going


relentlessly


forward



mp3
















mysterion is a good example of the degree of brain damage that is inducted by open heart surgery, there's a definite before and after effect in his posting, much more fragmented and dissonant after and giving the style of posts he now makes


cortical deoxygenation  study


his  blog


you have to be so careful of these forums like the hardcore zen blog (and the advaita buddha at the gas pump), infested by the literally brain damaged, and what's wrong with brad warner i do not know, except a brain scan of his i saw was indicative of some serious issue


mysterion's aortic valve stenosis would have been avoidable with adequate sun on the skin and vitamin D and adequate dietary vitamin K both of which reverse calcification


careless of his health and careless of the reader's brain and time, don't be fooled by the trap these forums represent!
















that's


what


writing


is


that


unfolding


from


infinity



mp3
















humans are  copiers,  not innovators !
















why


do


men


want


women


so


much


christ


you


have


got


to


be


crazy !



mp3
















why


do


men


want


women


so


much


christ


you


have


got


to


be


crazy !



mp3
















well, the latest research is showing that the  condition  is more systemic affecting the whole optic nerve and the visual centers in the brain, the brain also has some control over the eye pressure so i don't think the simple mechanical explanation holds up
















rick, i was going to ask don't you get depressed doing all that work for an unappreciative audience?


then


i


thought


life's


like


that


anyway !
















the hardcore

zen


blog,

who plays each other for suckers more, brad warner or the commenters ?



brad warner like he is writing/talking anything except half worked/baked garbage


the commenters like they represent a financially viable audience


look brad


they


only


suck


money


blood


and


your

life


ersatz mosquitoes with a toxic contagious virus that lot !
















you guys don't seem to understand english, so i'm just going to stick to poems and homilies !
















some

of


the


best


works


of


art


are


actually


cartoons !



hieronymous bosch, and also to some extent, salvador dali are also very cartoon like


dunno about leonardo da vinci, i think what he says is more in the depth of the painting, or the unity of the painting with itself !



mp3
















love


without


a


window


a


full


moon


rising


in


the


east


through


the


clouds


rainbow


hues !



mp3
















why


is


a


parody


so


effective?


because

it's


a


uniting


of


art



with


what


it


is


criticizing !



mp3
















why


is


a


parody


so


effective?


because

it's


a


uniting


of


art


with


what


it


is


criticizing !



mp3
















why


is


parody


so


effective?


because

it's


a


unitization


of


art


and


what


it's


criticizing !



mp3
















when


timelessness


occurs


we


need


to


stop


for


it


and


maybe


give


up


something !



mp3
















when


timelessness


occurs


we


need


to


stop


for


it


and


maybe


give


up


something !


for


it



mp3
















the


weirdness


of


reaching


55


and then


waiting


round


to


die !



mp3
















the


weirdness


of


reaching


55


and


waiting


round


to


die !



mp3
















the


weirdness


of


reaching


55


and then


waiting


around


to


die !



mp3
















though you act like you know there can't be more, that is, stuck in some unchanging rut of repetiton and ceaseless regurgitation, you lack the wholeness that comes from the fundamental enlightenment experience
















if


you've


had


the


fundamental


enlightenment


experience


you


know



there


can't


be


more !



mp3
















if


you've


had


the


fundamental


enlightenment


experience


you


know


there


can't


be


more !


:


o


)
















everything


looks


normal


until


you


get


to


the


abnormal!



mp3
















what


the


net's


really


good


at


is


sustaining


dissident


opinions

what


it's


also


good


at is sucking time endlessly  : o )
















what


the


net's


really


good


at


is


sustaining


dissident


opinions



mp3
















to


ye


who


i


criticize


public


criticism


is


part


of


the


new


order


of


things


shape


up !


or


better


yet


reply !
















to


ye


who


i


criticize


public


criticism


is


the


new


order


of


things


shape


up !


or


better


yet


reply !



mp3
















 evening  in the moremi game reserve, botswana
















lol, someone posting this  link  on the hardcore zen blog  : o )


it's the hardcore zen blog all over !


very


   clever !

















i'm


always


on


that


edge


of


incompetence


clawing


it's


way


out


to


competence !



mp3
















you


can


say


some


words


but


what

do


they


actually


mean ?



mp3
















you


can


say


a


word


but


what


does


it


actually


mean ?



mp3
















i'm


now


a


famous


i


mean


infamous


uh


i


mean


completely


unkown


author !


:


o


)



mp3
















i'm


now


a


famous


i


mean


infamous


i


mean


completely


unkown


author !


:


o


)



mp3
















ok


is


a


 concept


a


   concept ?



mp3
















ok


is


a


concept


a


concept ?



mp3
















it's a well written and hopefully humorous  satire


it's sorta gentle and harsh at the same time


men can be discerning, dan's no fool, he picked it just like that, silly bitch and silly bastard
















chuckee writes :



alabaster goddess


in a summer dress


dancing shadow


through love’s window




my


reply:




alabaster goddess


a


paranormal


demon


love


is


not


a


window !




my reply:  (2nd rendering)




alabaster goddess


a


paranormal


demon


love


is


not


a


   window !


















rick (ed. batgp) you may have noticed a groundswell of opinion for an interview with scarlett johannson!


can i suggest interviews with attractive yoga teachers ?


look what richard miller  gets !   (ed. video 1/4 way down page)


AND (the big bonus)


parody  by DAN !


have you had a parody by dan? well richard miller is easy meat, maybe you could be alittle less subtle? anyway obviously a spaced out interview with some yoga honey will go along way to earning your very own parody


you


could


even


interview


dan !

















this stuff is brilliant,  de-programming  therapy for advaita
















brad warner, you haven't had a genuine enlightenment experience ! you are not 7th patriarch approved !


10 or 28 years of zazen , what has it done for you except make you stupid, rigid and schizophrenic, christ look at fred and mysterion, bed fellows in insanity !


zen teachers are the truth and worst advertisment for zazen ever !


do yourself a favour and look to your talents like your very good visual artistic skills to make a living cause the zen thing has flopped and if your blog is not telling you that, what will?


if you are real you will reply here, but like the rest you are pretenders, burrito zen


why are you back in akron? F C S, if that's not a destructive nostalgia, what is?


this is the last time i am going to attempt to assist you, what i wrote might seem hostile but i am being a help to you !


i am not posting on your blog, but you are free to post  here  and unlike your blog, there is no censorship, why not be helped?


it's because you lack the basic enlightenment experience and don't know what it entails !


look who posts on your blog....... rigid unimaginative nuts ! who posts on the 7th patriarch blog? almost nobody, what more can i say ?
















the


mental


vacuum


that


advaita


represents


is


too


much !



mp3
















the


mental


vacuum


that


advaita


represents


too


much !



mp3
















i


could


say


we


are


purls


in


the


stream


but


it's


the


stream


that


matters !



mp3
















you


can


face


them


off


for

a

while


but


they


still


get


you
















the


big


problem


with


religion


is


it


deforms


people


out


of


their


natural


shape !


:


o


)


(
















the


big


problem


with


religion


and


zen


is


it


deforms


people


out


of


their


natural


shape !


:


o


)


(
















look


whatever


i


do


is


  hell !
















look


whatever


i


do


is


hell !
















women


they


are


the


robots


who


have


been


entrusted


with


the


survival


of


the


species !


:


o


)


(
















i


think


that


the


only


thing


that


has


saved


me


from


being


consumed


by


the


maw


of


zen


and


advaita


is


my


own


creative


writing


some


certainty


of


integrity


and


self


assurance


to


bulwark


against


the


cretinous


onslaught !
















shugen


you


have


inherited


the


“ mantle ”


of


john


daido


loori


but


does


it


fit?
















it


is


very


destructive


for


men


to

be


treated


badly


by


other


men !
















marianne faithful  summer  nights
















chuckee


why


don't


you


write


your


own?


“i sing in the language of the heart, it's an invented language that i've had for a very long time. i believe i started singing in it when i was about 12. roughly that time. and i believed that i was speaking to god when i sang in that language.”   lisa gerrard


richness compared to poverty?


if you don't understand what i am saying, please give it time !?


poorer sound quality but the  video  of a perfomance of sacrifice by lisa gerrard and pieter bourke


hildegarde von bingen  kyrie  eleison


kyrie eleison means “lord have mercy”
















dried


flowers


in


a


small


vase


from


the


fresh


it


both


loses


 something


and


 intensifies


   something !
















all


the

emptiness


i


am


is


floating


round
















all


the

emptiness


i


am


is


floating


round
















the


mode


of


the


sixth


patriarch's


transmission


to


me


is


patriarchal


and


i


am


electing


to


continue


it



mp3
















the


characteristic


of


the


patriarchy


is



a single


unitary


line


of


transmission


and


since


that's


been


re-established


i


am


going


to


continue


it !



mp3
















it's


funny

i


don't


think


i


could


go


back       (ed. springwater center)


and


live


the

way


i


lived


there


last


time


i


think


i


could


i


think


i


would



mp3
















i'm


a


simple


soul,


flattery


works  : o )
















in spain they had a tradition of everybody, including women being able to use a knife lethally and that's what buggered napoleon when he tried to rule it


soldiers were always being knifed in the street


takes all the fun out of rape, pillage and plunder
















well i have learnt to use google searches a lot, it really pays dividends


i notice if i'm thinking about a subject, it pays to do a search
















just a half thought gone ..............



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