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where


does


a

university


arts


education


lead ?



being


able


to


write


for


a


content farm ?
















the


second


rate


avoids


maims


and


kills


the


first


rate
















it's


always


a

very


toxic


event


when


philosophers


get


involved


in


politics
















people


not


wanting


contact


with


you


when


logically


they


should



can



be



very



much



to



your


advantage !
















academics


are


mentally


retarded
















this


winter


the


endless


rain



: o )
















the


poisonous


pinholes


i


like


that


line


of


mandelstam


never read it anywhere else


he's


a


genius




no.  11
















a


contradiction


when


i


die


the


world


will


continue


and


cease


to


exist




now


i


am


laughing !
















with


shares


it's


difficult


to


compete


with


the


fundamentally


advantaged


viewpoint


that



insiders


those


working


for


the


companies


and


those

familar


with

the


industry


have
















in


todays


society


most


people


don't


know


who


their

great


grand


parents


are


sometimes


they


don't


even


know


who


their


parents


are


: o )
















the


ultimate


blog



and


no-one


reads


it


: o )
















american


arts


degrees


mean


less


than


nothing


selective


for


mental


retardation



actually
















the search engines are getting swamped by content farms


they will have to put better artifical intelligence in them
















when


a



cat


looks


at


you


and


licks


around


its


mouth


or


on


its nose


you


don't


have


to


ask


what


it


is


thinking !
















eileen writes :


it's been my experience that charismatic people of either sex miss out on something intellectual




my


comment




part


of

their


brain


wiring

must


detract


from


cognitive


function


and


go


into


charisma


evolutionarily


you


can


see


why


it


exists !
















just looking at the dried leaves on my desk and realising they are from your garden


: o )
















most humans have second rate brains and part of being second rate is preferring the second rate
















when


you


get


older


you


can


spend


your


life


investigating


your


ills


on


the


net


sacro -


iliac


joint


polycythemia


vera


endless


fun




i


might


smile


but


i'm


not


laughing
















the


law

of


contradiction


fails


because


all


meaning


is


recursive
















i


am

a


bit


mad


at


times


i


can


see


it
















when


you


have


what


 some-one


else


wants


they


will


kill


you

to


get


it
















stalin


your


fists


crush


like


diamond


clubs !
















anne


sexton


more


charisma


than


sense
















you


can


read


Stephen


king


or


you


can


read


Heraclitus
















avoidance


of


lifes

issues


is


hardwired
















there's


no


reconciliation


at


death


because


they


have


already


partly


died
















you


may


not


appreciate


heraclitus


to


start


but


you


will


after

a

while
















the


problem


with


the


net


is


the


same

a

s


the


problem


with


humanity


there's


not

a


great


level


out


there
















everything looks smooth until you apply the litmus paper of contradiction and then all hell breaks lose
















just


because

a


line


of


thought


has


been


around


for


thousands


of


years


doesn't


mean


it


is


right !
















fructose in drinks as a sweeting additive is absorbed extremely rapidly which overwhelms and screws the liver and pancreas (potentially diabetes) and gets converted/deposited in the liver and body as fat


enviromental toxins, the medical campaign against iodine, vaccine destruction and high soil selenium levels mean that there is ubiquitous low thyroid function in the usa so this makes them all SOOOOOOOOO stupid which is so apparent on the message boards



and also ruining wikipedia


the


average


middle

aged

american female is a low thyroid wreck
















it's


a

human


disease


to


think


appearance


is


the


same


as


reality
















the


human


brain


is


not


that


flexible


adolesence


is


when


the


last


major


changes


occur


and


a lot


of


them


are


negative
















there


must


be


a


more


fundamental


coherent


reality


than


physics
















time


warp
















there


must


be


something


to


ayn


rand


and


there


certainly


is
















having


written


this



i


have read


it


in


depth
















you


lot


live


your


little


suburban


lives


and


caged


lives


and


prison


and


poisoned

children
















the


american


bombing


of


hiroshima


and


nagasaki


was


one


of


the


most


intelligent


things


they


ever


did


they


didn't


bomb


tokyo


and


kept


the


leadership


intact


and

a

coherent


goverment


that


would


be


anti


soviet !
















in a case of


money versus truth


i'd


say


take


the

money


except


those

with


money


buy


the


world


to


conform


to


their


viewpoint and


live


and


die


mistaken
















there's


even


an


in

group


on


wikipedia


and


guess


where


i


am


the


out


group


as


usual
















if


you


want


to


get


out


of


something


you


have


to


take


a bit


of


what


you


have


given


back !
















there's


millions


of


the


mass


morons


yeah


in


terms


of


people


of


sense


there's


only


one


or


two


and


i


have


yet


to


find


the


other


one
















i


mightn't

have


come


around


for

a

hundred


years


me


and


the


net


=


philosophical


superman!
















battle


is


such


an


intrinsic


human


preparation



women


as


well
















people


have


a


very


limited


idea


of


what


infinity


is


they


think


its


something


to


do


with


sex


and


children


which


it


is


to


some


extent


tho


removed




but


of


itself


for


itself


in


itself


and


with


itself ?
















not


much


or



twice


zero !
















i


don't


notice


my


life


gets


any


less

insane

as


i


get


older



perhaps


more
















one


day


just


rolls


into


another


without


any


meaning
















the


process


of


aging


is


more


surreal


than


any


drug


trip
















meaning


evaporates
















all


that


work




one


generation


and


the

next


and


the


generation


after
















the


tragedy is


that


it's


actually those with the better brains


that get wasted by todays diet and lifestyle
















what


we


call


infinity


is


not


god
















education


teaches


us


the


purpose


of


life


is


to


be


stupid


its


a


form


of


extreme


violence
















plato


wittgenstein


aristotle


bloody


rubbish !




well


plato


not


quite



he


had


a

good


teacher !
















it's


unending



what



is



the



meaning



of



unending ?




it


doesn't


finish ?


but


it


does



it


doesn't


start


but


it


has ?


what ?
















there


is


no


notion


of


more


or


less


in


infinity
















leonardo


da


vinci's


mother


was


an


arab


slave
















this


work


is


like


a


novel


to


some


extent



i


don't


know


why


i


end


up


with


something


so


unique


and


idosyncratic !
















my


life


makes


me


cry
















nothing


ever


works


out
















style


what


you


are


saying


in

a


way


that


is


significant


unambiguous


and


in


a


minimum


of


words
















the


complete


and


incomplete


what


comes


together


and


what


falls


apart


the


sonorous


and


dissonant


the


song


of


the


one


that


it


always


sings







the above is my translation of heraclitus (B10)




Graspings: things whole and not whole, what is drawn together and what is drawn asunder, the harmonious and the discordant. The one is made up of all things, and all things issue from the one.
















a


spinning


top


skating


across


one

involvement


to


another
















women


wise


in


the


ways


of


love



but



not



how



the



world



works
















the


net


is


full


of


crazies

but


its


not


all

crazy
















infinity


is


a


process

not


an


end




maybe


it's


the


end
















i

gave


away


the


future


as


well


as


the


past !
















emily


dickinson


had


it


right




i


do


think


fame


ruins


peoples


characters
















what is of god is to stretch the boundaries and leaving behind what is shown to be false


that is what testing and observation shows to be false and not the moronic blather of the masses
















honey


is


sweet


and


sticky




you


can't


move


in


it !
















false beliefs


are


damaging


and


all


religion


is


con
















fragile fools this world i am afraid
















the


weakness


of


the


sheep


is


the


leader


is


not

a

sheep


but


a


wolf !
















byron


katie


is


one


smart


cookie
















the


whole


might


of


that


huge


war


machine


overwhelmed


by


two


singing


women
















there


are


some


limits


for


explanation


in


thinking


about


death
















if


i


keep


writing


at


this


rate


i'll


be

a

corpse


: o )
















if


you


look


beyond


that


like


what


is


beyond


that




beyond


sex


and


breeding ?
















very


good


soldiers


only


fight


when


they


have


too

















the


sun


nothing


but


particle


physics !
















schizophrenia


is


the


other


side


of


breeding
















a


good


poem


applies


to


all


situations
















what


does


quantum


mean?




unending


non -


resolution
















the


problem


with


education


is


you


put


your


best


hours


into


enhancing


the


lives


of


others


and


they


reward


the


way


humans


usually


do




do


i


have


to


say it ?




arseholes
















people


just


do


not


realize


this


and


that
















duelling


proves


nothing


except


one

man


is


the


better


shot


or


swordsman
















when


its


working


well


i


have

a

good


brain


i


suppose


it


always


was


good



just


not


fitting


that's


all !
















eileen asks :



y do u think some parrots are really responsive to humans and  music  and others not


i realize its a brain difference but there seems to b quite a difference between some even though they are the same species


some never act out of species and some seem almost human


even when u try to train some they just don't respond


some seem to have something extra





my


reply





i


think


parrots


and


crows




must


have


a


similar genetic brain


scrambling


mechanism

to


humans


that


creates


quite


a

diversity

in


behavior


in


siblings
















what


a


difference


an


hours


sleep


makes !
















it's


hard


to


get


that


people


so


different


can


have


the


odd


clue


or


quite


a


few

clues
















women


are


all


mad


as


hatters


ones


that

are


less


mad


are


a


bonus


: o )
















for


a

man


if


you


want


to


break


the


power


the


female


face


has


over


you




decompose it into its


elements


you


will

see


it


naturally


fragment into


its


features


which


are


usually


some


form


of


predation


and


heavy


set


stupidity
















a


certain


level


of


talent


rises


above


the


ranks

















stephen


mitchell


he


does


a


reasonable


translation


but


his


commentaries


are


shit


why


do


they


fall

prey


to


this


disease


stupidity


i


guess
















i


think


painting


is


an


inferior


medium


to


poetry

















the


net


has


some


special


problems



over-involvement


in


people


that


have


nothing


to


do


with


you



endless


material



fake



presentation



and



concealment
















GOD


theres


no


context


to


say


fake


or


real
















at


the


same


time


something


opens


up




another


thing


closes
















the


conclusions


are


upsetting


and


distressing




maybe


not



maybe


they


are .
















my brain


knows


more


than


i


do
















the


world


is


basically


mad




what


do


i


do ?




sanity


is


always


rejected


by


the


MAD


that's


why


they


are


mad
















it's


funny

how


you


can't


see

something


but


after


thinking


about


it


for


a


while


you


can
















it's


like


a


disease


this


putting


myself


at


the


service


of


others


who


are


inferior


in


ability


and


understanding




no


wonder


they


try


it


on,


it


works


so


well !
















i


never


realised


all


this


stuff


is


mobile


ready


: o )
















i


am


quite


mad


occasionally


i


get


glimpses


of


it
















the


trouble


is


if


you


ever


get


involved


with


any


spiritual


or


guru


or


religion

for


every hour




involved


it's


like


a


thousand


to


unwind


it




i


don't


know


why


this


is




they


use


the


same


mechanism's


as


love
















the


rules


of


war


are


there


is


no


reasoning


only


force !
















i


think


it's


better


to


be


poor


and


wise


than


wealthy


and


ignorant
















politicians


are


they


in


large


part

a

front


for

incompetent


bureaucracies ?




managees


rather than managers


so


to


speak ?
















i


think


i


am


going


to


have


put


he


volunteered


for


too


many


things


on


my


gravestone




except


there


will


be


no


gravestone
















its


important


to


realise


when


looking


at


spans


of


ten


fifteen


twenty


years


how


changed


things


are


not


just


particulars


but


the


whole


context


everything
















any


form


of


censorship


is


a

sign


of


massive


trouble




it


can


be


as


simple


as


replies


to


a


blog

not


making


it


past


moderation
















it's


very


hard


for


people


to


see


that


love


is


not


adequate




and


neither


is


lovelessness
















trying


to


bush


bash


oneself


out


of


a


previous


wrong


opinion !




for


instance


wikipedia


is


some


use


becomes


wikipedia


is

better


going


to


the


dogs

















some


child


progidies


can


be


technically


proficient


but


lacking


true


insight


and

creativity


which


shows

as


they


get


older
















are


your


ideas


about


god


wrong ?



no



well


we


don't


have

a


lot


to


say


to


each


other
















sometimes


you


have


to


work


out


you


are


ill


and


not


do


too


much
















why


are


people


so


rigid


and


stupid ?




you


think


i'm


joking


or


being


unpleasant ?
















i


think


men


have


on


average


more


children


than


women




or


used


to


with


the


higher


female


mortality


from


childbirth
















america


is


unaldulterated


silliness
















where


is


the


universe


apart


from


ourselves ?
















when


i


die


the


universe


ceases
















you're


on


the


cross




you


just


can't


see


it




when


you


see


yourself


on


the


cross




you


have


a


contempt


for

christianity
















america


is


a sickeningly


sentimental


culture
















i


think


the


church


did


quite


well


out


of


catherine


of


siena


john


of


the


cross


and


teresa


of

avila


because


they


were


compelled


to


swallow


the


jesus

bullshit


it


didn't


hurt


them


so


much


in


that


context


but today you


are


free

to


hold


different


views

and


opinions


since


no


inquisition


is


going


to


burn


you


at


the


stake


so


it


hurts


you


to


believe


the


jesus


bullshit !
















i


am


always


thinking


what


new


disaster


area


am


i


embarking


on ?
















you


can't

believe


something


as


true


that's


untrue


and


not


have


it



cloud


your


vision

















you


are


writing


across


the

centuries


you


are


not


writing


for


the


consumption


of


your


local


time
















well  shes  certainly good at telling people what they want to hear with more than a leavening of truth


sanity in a context of insanity which i suppose is the usual way



but


its


still


 insane
















i


think


at


a


certain


point


you


have


to

stop


looking


back


and


move


on
















the


moron


norms


how


can


they


see ?


distracted


with


this


and

that

brains


bent


to


breeding
















amber


is


an


intrusion


of


discontinuity
















the


nature


of


existance


itself


is


quite


discontinuous


we


meander


along

in


the


deceiving


and


comforting


tunnel


of


continuity
















reality


and


humans


and


all


animate


and


inanimate


are


a

continuous


subset


of


discontinuity
















the


overriding


aspect


of


the


web


is

it's


volunteer


nature




seos'


wikipedia


editing


writing


poetry


health


websites


: O (
















SEOs


parasites


how


they


make


any


money


i


don't


know


but


parasites


always


seem


to


live


quite


well


don't


they


children


for

instance


: o )




yet


another


flakey


net


business




just


part


of


the


horrific


tide


of


spam




content


farms




pardon


me


while


i


spew
















john


loori


didn't


understand


what


zen


was


about


george


bowman


does


a bit
















12


minis'


just


drove


by


the


world


of


sheep

















did


you


notice


lions


have


round


pupils !
















the


dead


sea


scrolls




a


testimony


to


the


eternal


insanity of


man !
















our optimism


about


the


human


race


is


very


deep


seated


experience

shows



it


is



not



justified
















everything


is


empty


in


terms


of


other


people
















there's so much learning in life


to even get to a spot


where you understand


things


a


bit
















the

problem


with


intelligent


design


is


that


a

lot


of


evolutionary


design


is


quite


unintelligent


like


mammals lack


photolyase


for


instance



intelligent


design


would


include


it


but


evolution


would


not


if


it


was


on


a


hereditary


branch that got cut off
















don't


worry


i


am


always


on


the


periphery !



even


with


my


family




being


at


the


center


would


kill


me
















it


never


hurts


to


be


thought


poor
















there's


no


real




something



and



nothing
















the


patheticness


of


public


taste !
















what


good's


a


belief ?
















their


rabidness


only


lasts


as


long


as


they


live !
















what


matters


what


doesn't


matter ?
















it's


funny


after


all


these


years


i


can


start


to


see


toni


packers


problems


and


short


comings !
















god


said


enjoy


me




don't


waste


your


time


with


the


ratbags
















sometimes


i


can't


quite


believe


myself !
















the


schizophrenia


of


what


i


do


makes


me


cry
















wikipedia


legalism


has


overtaken


what


it


is


about !
















hitler


and


wittgenstein


going


to


the


same


school


for


a


year


is


one


of


histories


more


extraordinary


co-incidences




they


knew


each


other


and


hitler


had


his


eyes


on


the


wittgenstein


family


fortune


when


he


invaded


austria


and


he


got


a fair


portion


of


it
















what


is


beauty ?




the


absence


of


me
















GOD


i


have


discovered


scripts


and


colour !




H E L P !
















in


the


end


a

lot


of


pushing


and


shoving


and


you


are


pushed


out




guess


what


you


can


walk


away


FREE

















why


do


people


take


such


a


short


term


view ?



evolutionarily


speaking


they


used


to


die


like


flies !




persistence


is


almost


something


that


happened


by


accident
















one


of


the


problems


as


you


get


older


is


you


tend


to


repeat


mistakes


which


is


why

diarying


helps
















the


struggle


to


survive




whats


that ?
















you


can


be


unintelligent


watch


tv


go


with


the


sheep




what


is


the


fate


of


the


sheep ?
















in


terms


of


what


zen


calls


kensho


it's


just


a little


sparkle


whereas


what


you


want


is

a

deep


falling


into


the


well


you


don't


get


that


deep


falling


unless


you


integrate


your


life


and


most


people


don't


can't


and


won't




and


live


like


dried


apples




i


am


only


writing


this


because


the


old


zen


law


seems


to


have


been


lost


and


replaced


by


something


called


meditation




where


is


the


spirit ?


vapourized


into


todays


airhead


generation


i


am


afraid




no


its


not


just


nostalgia


it's


vaccines


goitrogens


marginal


nutrition


and


brain

death


in


the


wrong


way !
















where's


todays


tennessee


williams ?




nowhere




destroyed


at


birth


by


vaccines ?
















great


art


disconcerts




the


modern


paradigm


is


disconcert


me


and


i'll


make


you


pay


for


it !
















michealangelo


gives


a

very


interesting


perspective


on


how


a


homosexual


sees


another


man
















well something can be done unconciously


then


an


explanation


has


to


be


formed




it's


work
















political satire


a dying art since i hardly ever see it any more


in the old days there used to be intelligent political cartoons


nowadays the cartoons are asinine


interesting how that side of things has downsized


all too subtle for the modern mindset
















julia


gillard


better


looking


than


helen


clark
















if


you


look


closely


a


lot


of


wikipedia


entries


are


empty



that


is



devoid


of


meaningful


content



because


they


are


effectively


censored
















if


you


think


some-ones


working


against


you


it


often


turns


out


subtlely


they


are


working


for


you
















it's


just

as


well


these


idiots


are


trashing


wikipedia




people


are


mentally


lazy


they


would


take


wikipedia


as


gospel
















with


irc


chat,

message


boards


and


wikipedia



it's


always


the


same


problem




those


who


who


seek


to


be

admins'


moderators


or


owners


are


least


able


to


act


judiciously


they


control

to


keep


their


own


piece


of


mind
















lapa ; catherine of siena's mother


  I think God has laid my soul athwart in my body, so it can't get out.




it


is


already


out

















you


are


not


convinced


of


it


if


you

were


convinced


of


it


why


would


you


try


to


tell


others ?
















sound  is  important  in  spanish, conveying  the  sense  of the  word


i


don't


think


that


translates


easily


if


at


all

















you


can


see


it


and


then


one


day


understand


it


irretrievably


and


that's


what


makes


the


difference




one


is


more


relaxed


about


dying


anyway


if


not


the


approach!
















there's no such thing as sanity


rather its a noncircular working through


the


process


of


 insanity
















i might say that men are cot cases but unfortunately for them they don't compare to women


they


are


not


on


the


same


level

















you can't expect and any living person to be balanced


balance only comes from to and fro



back


and


forth


up


and


down


in


and


out


it's


what


settles


in


the


end

















wikipedia


is


a

nightmare


it


really


helps


to

have


been


in



a


few


editing


fights


to


see


that


and


to


have


been


very


unfairly


squelched


by some


idiot


admin


and


then


you


will


understand

the


limitations


of


it !
















the


great


failure


of


windows


7


is


the


lack


of


intuition




by


contrast


google


chrome


is


intuitive !
















meditation


just


makes


you


schizophrenic
















narrow


deep


deficits


generally


reflect


wider


deficits
















you


may

like


the


intellectual


life


but


there's


no


money


in


it

and


poverty


is


the


sequitur
















everyone


is


constantly


telling


you


how


they


are


better


than


you
















i


think

one


of


the


things


about


the


middle


ages


is


that


technology


was


static


and


there


where


huge


population


pressures


on


limited agricultural


land


hence


the


constant


warfare !




they


were


locked


into


certain


ratios


of


manual


labour


and


agricultural


output


so


that


even


the


black


death


had a limited effect on


reducing


war


since


the


other


side


of


the


equation,


that


of


manual


labour


was


reduced
















women

are


a


cot


case
















i


think


as


an


adult


there


are


alot


of


things


you


will


not


spend


enough


time


on


unless


you


work


on


them
















wikipedia


is


over


prim


and


like


the


over -


prim



has


a

pornographic


hole
















the


weirdness


of


a


viral


lull




not


feeling


sick !
















she


writes


poems


but


will


she


write


a


dairy


next ?
















they


are


just


little

demons


little


bastards


these


young


wikipedia


editors !
















death


i


am


here


and


then


i


am


no


longer


here




is



that



sensible ?
















when


people


have


control


over


you



they


behave


like



crucifying


little


shits




which


when


you


think


about


it




is


logical




they


always

put


their


needs


first
















people


are


remarkably


tolerant


of


16


year

olds


because


they


mirror


their


own


stupidity


17


less


so


at


18


its


good-bye !
















there


is


more


to


life


than


your


rigid


atheist


medical


political


correctness

outlook



yes !
















i


always


imagine


people


are


halfway


reasonable


but


they


never


are