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chronological order is from the bottom to the top of  the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed  !



“ what inspired the new question of 2nd patriarch ?

i missed that part of the saga ”

well its not clear that huineng ever met hongren, so maybe that makes huineng the first patriarch ?

the matter needs quite a bit of research that i am unlikely to ever get around to, to sort out meme from likely historical fact

There is zero historical evidence that Dogen went to China.  Period.

well there was evidence of a sponsor for the trip, dogen’s description of the stairwell of a chinese monastery which has recently been archaeologically verified, plus his own accounts of the trip which seem to match reasonably with what was possible

he does use sea imagery occasionally commensurate with one who has gone on a long sailing voyage

he was a celibate monastic deeply concerned with the truth of life and there is no reason to doubt his account of the journey

so he went to china and visited several monasteries and studied with rujing

however from dogen’s own account of rujing, rujing was so opposed to the notion of transmission that he would have never given it to dogen, dogen was in a competitive religious environment back in japan and must have felt the pressure for transmission verification so a document was forged

also he likely modified or  “ recreated ”  what rujing said to create an authority source for his own views

this of course increased the pressure for a transmission document, dogen was actually obsessed by these documents so the forgery is pretty fancy !

dogen is unabashedly visionary, people who come to r|zen mostly do so without any substantial real life experience so miss out on the fact that zen is visionary at its core, witness brad warner’s  bridge experience  which promoted him to being gudo nishijima's leading heir

suburban materialism can’t accommodate the visionary in any way hence the disrupting effect on ewk’s buji plans

you can, if you know what you are looking for see the visionary in the tang and song records, but generally i would say its sort of filtered out for whatever reason   .   .   .

people just want to blab words forever, but for the visionary to flourish you need large amounts of solitary contemplation time and the suburban materialists don’t want to bite this !

zen is the transmission outside the scriptures and all people want to do is discuss scriptures

go figure !

jesus was never there in the first place, like buddha, another bad soap opera !

a religious education when young screws you up

there’s more of god in a walk by yourself on the beach than all the infinite eons of religion and their huge weight of a stinking mass of humanity !

there’s more of god in a walk by yourself on the beach than all of christian belief

there’s more of god in a walk by yourself on the beach than all of christianity

experience   only   never happens as an experiencer and the experienced

the one thing i have found works really well with cat eye infections is some drops of colliodal silver

use on myself as well when i get an eye infection !

honestly mackowski, you are like ewk, pointless stupid

lots of marijauna smoking no research, stays demented !

lots of pot smoking no research, stays demented !

lots of smoking no research, stays demented !

jason who has been invited to the christmas party at his job is nervous about going

my  advice

well treat it as business, getting to know people, it will help you with pay rises when the time comes

jason’s reply

okay thanks for the advice

hui’ke met sengcan when sengcan  (who had leprosy)  came to him asking for absolution from the bad karma from past lives that he was punished with leprosy for

hui’ke said fuck off i don’t want to get leprosy

another zen legend was born !

jason writes that he thinks he is looking yellow

my  reply

whites of the eyes ?

jason’s  reply

they get darker after working but not like yellow like they used to get when i would be doing pizza delivery

my  reply

yellow is a sign of poor bilirubin processing, hence liver function

that would fit with your father having severe liver problems and not yet being chronically alcoholic, he’s just way further along the liver damage curve for the amount of drinking he is doing

sunlight on the skin helps hugely with the processing of bilirubin

viruses would exacerbate the problem

jaundice is a bad thing because it really fucks the brain, the question is the degree of course !

yeah all the fine particulates you were breathing in the traffic stuffs the liver

you are like me, a bad combination of our parents genetics with the saving grace of a certain very rare type of intelligence that also doesn’t mesh too well with this world !

getting a bit of aerobic exercise may help, flush the liver with blood under high pressure

i do a jog for a couple of minutes to warm up, then really push for a minute or two to get the aeorobic benefit, but the air needs to be warm, its summer here, maybe you could do press-ups or something ?

jason  replies

i fell on my elbow five years ago playing soccer on hardwood floors, when i do a press-up my elbow clicks but doesn’t hurt

my  reply

wow, my elbow does the same thing

 what about running up and down stairs ?

i really would avoid gyms !

the whole problem with r|zen is everyone taking easy opinions or views that mesh with their ideas of what zen is without doing any of the substantial research needed, the days, weeks and months to start to sort quite simple ideas out

eg, ewk and his  “ dōgen didn’t go to china ”  he just took the title of steven heine’s book as his basis without realising the title was a hook and in fact steven heine was strongly of the view eihei dōgen did go to china but some of the later soto legend is pure embellishment !

“ global workspace theory ”  is the modern thinking on conciousness, you don’t see it mentioned much in the media, but there is a lot of quality science going into it !

“ The primary  functional role  of consciousness is to allow a  ‘ blackboard ’  architecture to operate in the brain, in order to integrate, provide access, and coordinate the functioning of very large numbers of specialized networks that otherwise operate autonomously ”

“ the theory suggests  a fleeting  memory capacity that enables access between brain functions that are otherwise separate ”

men are fools, running through the various hoops their women put them through

socratic dialogue is like playing chess in semantic space

unless everything rejects you, you are not seeing it properly

what’s the point of telling some-one with dementia they are demented ?

the waves of dementia  rushing up  the pebbly beach of stupidity

i never liked lolita, insipid, as it turns out the story  was originally  salvador dali’s !

‘ pale fire ’  was not much either, what gave ADA its bite was the way he drew from his early life as a wealthy upper class russian !

we are doing a socratic dialogue basically

zen is a fusion of greek philosophy and buddhism so actually socrates and plato are more foundational to zen than bodhidharma !

jason found 190 grams of double heavy cream selling for $7 and wondered if that was a bad price ?

my

r e p l y

i think i am doing better on ordinary cream which is very good quality here at least until the pasture dries out more

its important not to overdo saturated fats as when incorporated into cell membranes they pack too closely and make the membrane stiff whereas unsaturated fats  have kinks  in their structures that keep them flexible !

also watch out for excessive amounts of canola oil, the equivalent of two tablespoons a day for humans for mice  induced  alzheimer’s !

it makes me wonder if the epidemic of alzheimer’s now occurring is in part due to to the very large amounts of canola oil some people can consume on a daily basis

why is it only extremely boring people do AMA’s on r|zen ?

pompous, self-important ass type boring !

lightning can occur without us hearing thunder because atmospheric conditions can  deflect  the sound upwards or away from us

also some strokes can have smaller channel volumes and distance matters !

“ thunder lasts longer than lightning because of the time that it takes for the sound to travel from different parts of the lightning channel ”

you cannot  “ master ”  zen

full stop !

Perhaps master is an overstatement.  Become familiar with

zen is not a thing, how can you become familiar with it ?

an april poem by jason

walking down a trail towards the water

clouds are spread across a light blue sky

birds hop along the trail too, red from the cardinals and blue from the bluejays

my view of things are changing

ewk, the mismatch between what i say and your replies astounds me sometimes !

you have a deep disrespect of people and their time !

the mismatch between what i say and your replies astounds me sometimes !

you have a deep disrespect of people and their time !

half an hours meditation a day would do you good, you will begin to ask the  “ why ”  of what you do

ewk, half an hours meditation a day would do you good, you will begin to ask the  “ why ”  of what you do on r|zen !

if you have two different translations of the same work and they differ in substance then obviously you have a problem you can see !

if you have two different translations of the same work and they don’t differ in substance then you may have a problem you can’t see !

the general tang and song dynasty and later dissing of scriptures  (ed. zen)  is an implicit critique of translations as a lot of the scriptures were translations !

you’ve boxed him  (ed. ewk)  in a corner and he runs away and will post elsewhere tomorrow like nothing ever happened

so he never corrects and this is what makes him mad as he missionizes an insanely incorrect universe !

try rewriting if something seems unsatisfactory

often when i write a comment reply, the first attempt is not so good so i try again !

you never read the mumonkan, you only read a translators opinion of what it said, i don’t know why people are unable to grasp this !

coleman barks sickly sentimental  “ re-interpretations ”  of rumi have acquired cult status, rumi is actually a bit brutal, more accurately translated he isn’t so popular !

similarly zen translators translate through the filter of late 20th century culture and memes, i have had a bit of a fiddle with translating dogen and nagarjuna, what they say bears no resemblance to what was said they say !

nagarjuna staggered me, he is much more spare than the translations which seem to have de rigueur floridity added as the part of some inane tradition or other !

damn you’re right

time to start chinese lessons i guess ? :/

its not a simple as that, you need to do philological work as well, chinese is just the version of chinese now !

i think this is why zen disses scripture so much, same problem then as now, you just get interpretation through the current cultural filters

what zen says is  “ find out for yourself ”  its that simple, but people seem to want to spend all their time wading through voynich then using that nonsense to posture with!

then we die and its all over !

you are making claims for a certainty of translation that is not possible

with a lot of philological work you can make a better translation

zen attracts idiots, not the least of whom are the translators

no philology, all pure projection !

three hundred years is a long time in the meaning of a word !

next time you come around, everything is different

jason writes

james invited me to the company christmas party, probably be good to go just to be introduced to people

i told him how i saw my mother go into  “ heaven ” ,  that vision and he told me he had a dream of his mother in a hallway and he opened the door to his mother in a white dress with her happy   .   .   he invites her in during the dream but she just says she can’t and she has to go, he says he hugged her and it felt very real

he’s religious too and he went to a local church here and he asked a priest what should he do when people ask where his  “ wife ”  is, the priest got very surprised at his being gay and went online to look at  “ gay conversion camps ”  with him, that he should divorce his husband and drop his volunteer service which involved working with kids

hostile, arrogant, stupid, the big three

hostile  arrogant  stupid, the big three

hostile arrogant stupid, the big three

“ what is a zen master ? ”

divided by buddha

r|zen

they promote sitting but never sit

they promote reading but can’t tell voynich from the authentic

they promote enlightenment but have no valid enlightenment experiences

what they do however is rabidly insist on their own versions of armchair zen !

the only useful thing to say about seated meditation is breathe through belly expansion rather than chest expansion !

and don’t fuck your joints !

you also need to have good circulation !

people’s religion is all proxy, some sort of badge they can wear without having to be consistent with their lives

usual crap from thomas cleary, he is NOT enlightened but thinks he is !

the enlightenment experience is not conveyable, you can write and read until the cows come home, but you will still be completely in the dark !

it can’t be  “ manufactured ”  or pretended to !

eva braun was jewish and had jewish friends, she was one fucked up bitch !

your father has progressing cirrhosis of the liver and is still drinking

most alcoholics have bailed at this point, even by alcoholic standards your father is being abnormal

°       °       °       °       °       °       °       °       °

the problem with hepatic encephalopathy is the incipient dementia, insanity even

your father should get a referral to liver specialist  “ heptologist ”

he continuing to drink given his likely liver problems is straight out mentally ill at this point, mentally ill people just don’t reason straight

i think your father has got worse quite recently, its strange territory and you are being rapidly propelled into the adult world

jason  writes

it was nice to be working in a place with five employees and not too many customers, also my first job in the winter that will be warm  .   .   but the clients are pretty much all  “ cat people ”  which was strange as a lot of them had more than ten cats in their house

a stray cat came in at the end of the day with a woman and her daughter who had eight cats, the cat was feral and when james tried to grab it it leaped out and ran around the examination room, he had to sedate it while we examined where its strange smell was coming from

it had a large infection in its mouth, james only had to lightly tug a tooth for it to come out  .   .   blood tests on the cat showed  “ cat aids ”  which is contagious to other cats through saliva

it was such a bad smell and after working from 8:15am to it now being 6:30pm i was feeling nauseous

it was covered with flea dirt, no fleas though cuz apparently fleas  “ abandon ship ”  when the host is too ill

my  comments

cats with aids can shed toxoplasmosis, be careful !

you don’t want toxoplasmosis, it fucks the brain, it would pay to read up about !

there’s a  heap of stuff  that can be transmitted from cats to humans, because you see sick cats  (ed.  works at a vet’s specialising in cats)  its something to be aware of

that link downplays the problems with toxoplasmosis imo, an  immune deficient  cat could well have toxo in bodily fluids imo

“ james’s brother was some sort of sociopath who did a lot of drugs in the late 60’s, he ended up dying along with his mother and father

he would kill his pets ”

yeah serial killers do that

another manic idiot

another hypomanic idiot

ewky stupy

the police are the thin line between civil disorder and order

real life gurus think they are doing you a favour if they give you 5 seconds of their time

they have more important things to do, wife, family, income, sex parties   .   .   .

real life zen masters think they are doing you a favour if they give you 5 seconds of their time

they have more important things to do, wife, family, income, sex parties   .   .   .

you’re just another empty headed hack who can’t handle whatever shows his bizarre ideas up !

Bro.Chill.

Bro.Chill.

 yourself you arrant hypocrite !

is there something in the formation of the universe and its laws that ensures its continuity and the possibility of supporting life ?

ewky twisity of the truth !

three monks were travelling down a road

how many buddhas to make a zen master asked the first

how many zen masters to make a buddha replied the second

the third became thoughtful and never posted on r|zen again !

three monks were travelling down a road

how many buddhas to make a zen master asked the first

how many zen masters to make a buddha replied the second

the third became thoughtful and said nothing

three monks were travelling down a road

how many buddhas to make a zen master asked the first

how many zen masters to make a buddha replied the second

the third was silent and never posted on r|zen again !

three monks were travelling down a road

how many buddhas to make a zen master asked the first

how many zen masters to make a buddha replied the second

the third was silent

how many buddhas to make a zen master ?

how many zen masters to make a buddha ?

how many buddhas to make a zen master

how many zen masters to make a buddha

the mystical way ,  success rejects you ,  failure accepts you

the mystical way, success rejects you, failure accepts you

there is nothing worse than a mangled intelligence, it gets you into trouble more stupid people have the sense to avoid   ! 

there is nothing worse than a mangled intelligence, it gets you into trouble more stupid people have the sense to avoid

ewk, your version of zen denies enlightenment, you lacking such an experience i can’t convey it for you !

your version of zen denies enlightenment, lacking such an experience i can’t convey it for you !

my being the patriarch is just the outward formality of zen’s tradition of mind to mind transmission !

quite a good  article  on simone weil, i have grown to appreciate her !

i find it interesting you do this  animated bullshit  when jaggi vasudev has quite good  videos  live

you are the usual rediculous  “ priest ”  selling the guru, why ?

what good does it do you, he’s still alive !

huh, he had this ghastly  statue  made !

they obviously have plenty of money why don’t you get any of it ?

you’re a pathetic mouse selling bullshit for free aren’t you ?

jesus christ

inherent

in-here

the thing about retrospection is you have to look at the whole picture, you can’t change one part of it

i’m almost literally a professional gamer.  i’m also probably one of the more aggressive users on r|zen

do you think games cause aggression, or is it that aggressive types are attracted to games ?

i have found with a lot of things that the problem is not what you actually do, but what you could have done more usefully with the time !

people post on r|zen, but they don’t do things that actually relate to zen like contemplative time and  quality reading  !

zen is meaningless without the contemplative time, if you don’t do it you will just remain a non-negotiable madman like ewk is !

the bottom line with games imo is you are not putting time into these other areas in terms of zen

so you’re saying that gaming detracts from more productive uses of time ?

productivity towards what?  you’re suggesting an end goal, what is it ?

well in terms of zen, to develop an understanding of what it is about and its various equivalents

you have to be able to refute the world in a coherent and effective way since it will do nothing but tell you you are wrong

there you are ,  the only person in the world who has it right and everyone else has it wrong, that takes a lot of work and is really only possible from a celibate perspective

why go forwards when you can go backwards  ?

why go forwards when you can go backwards ?

why go forwards when you can go backwards

the usual course of progression with people like your father is to drink for ten more years then be practically dead, stop drinking and be a huge burden on his caregivers for the rest of what can be a surprisingly long life

do you find the moon phase messing with your sleep ?

yeah, bright moons affect the circadian rhythm, even not so bright !

“ you let me know when you are ready to talk about what zen masters teach ”

to paraphrase huangpo, there’s no masters of zen !

i would say you are caught in treating a literary construct as more real than it is !

“ perceived hostility on r|zen ”

its gamers who only know how to interact by non-negotiable aggression

r|zen has a very disproportionate number of gamers who really take the shooting paradigm for their behavior there

there’s a total lack of reasoning and philosophical discursive skills and ability to research

the research i have seen on the effect of games is that the violence doesn’t overflow into real life, but in my view the problems i list above do !

in the cases where zen masters ask “ where have you come from ? ” ,  what do you think that means ?

its a standard philosophical trope, nothing uniquely zen about it and is a sort of pun meaning literally where do you come from and philosophically the recursive nature of you defining you

the standard meme in zen is the  “ enlightened ”  master throwing this trope to the  “ dumb ”  monk who gets caught with the literal meaning  (where has one come from geographically)  but the master wants some sort of demonstration on handling the recursive aspect and hence the usual dialogue with the uncomprehending monk

the best way to handle it is to give a literal answer that duals with the recursion

like where i live there’s a place called  “ nowhere else ”

so if i visited some zen master in the hills here and i came from   “ nowhere else ” i would be able to answer  “ nowhere else ”

contrived of course, but who knows how real these dialogues were ?

ok, she’s  a genius ,  i suddenly noticed that she had no sheet music, its shocking !

stalin was a genius murderer, revolutionary russia was where that sort of thing did well

ewk  battles  trolls, nobody ever dies, they keep coming back !

they couldn’t put jesus in a shooter game could they ,  be hell to pay and such fun to mow down the twelve disciples

the games have their boundaries, violence to bodies is permitted, but not the ideas of the sheep !

attente de dieu/ waiting for god by simone weil, published 1950

en attendant godot/ waiting for godot by samuel beckett first performed in 1952

their acquaintance has never been authenticated, but it may be  presumed

we live in a world where a little wrong minded reading is thought to give an adequate skill

we live in a world where a little reading is thought to give an adequate skill

what character do you hallucinate you are in final fantasy XV

final fantasy XV is a hallucination of sorts

what zen master played final fantasy XV ?

what zen master played final fantasy XV

why don’t you prioritize doing research over playing final fantasy XV ?

why don’t you prioritize doing research over playing final fantasy XV

in the area of spiritual or mystical endeavour, you can never entirely get away from people, you could climb an unnamed peak and there will still be a feral there, throwing snowballs at you

i minded my mind

but i didn’t mind my mind

oh mind

No mind ?  No matter !  No matter ?  Never mind !

nattering mind, no natter, never natter !

one day i’ll learn not to speak to madmen

not yet though

in the capitalism versus socialism debate the necessity of secret police under socialism is often ignored

you’re a talentless hack, spewing your stupidity in an attempt to convince yourself you are something

you’re a talentless hack ewk, spewing your stupidity in an attempt to convince yourself you are something

i minded my mind

but i didn’t mind my mind

oh mind


i minded my mind

but i didn’t mind my mind

oh mind !

you are an arbiter of honesty ?

No

you are an arbiter of honesty ?

the crazy says the sane are crazy  ?

the crazy says the sane are crazy ?

the crazy says the sane are crazy

“ it’s incredible how when you look through rose colored glasses, all the red flags  .  .  .   just look like flags ”

this one of the issues with the net, its not real life and supports fantasies that have no relation to reality !

this one of the issues with r|zen, its not real life and supports fantasies that have no relation to reality !


from chapter 28 of eihei dogen’s shobogenzo

we do not know how many rounds of birth and death we have already spent returning again and again to various useless delusions, even while possessing this wisdom

it is like rocks covering up a jewel  :  the jewel is unaware that it is covered up by rocks and the rocks are unaware that they are covering up a jewel

when human beings recognize this jewel, they seize upon it

this is not something that the jewel expectantly awaits nor is it something that the rocks have been waiting for, and it does not depend on a spiritual awakening on the part of the rocks nor is it something that the jewel thinks about

that is to say, even though a human being and wisdom are unaware of each other, the way is invariably overheard by the person’s wisdom

my  re-transaltion

since we are the universe, the jewel is us and we are the jewel

since we are not the universe the jewel is not us and we are not the jewel

being the universe and not the universe invariably overhear each other !

what is/are the common ground and differences between zen and buddhism ?

most western zen is  “ zen buddhism ”  so you raise the interesting question of going against the grain of a public domain meaning of the word !

you can compare the very buddhist rochester zen center with the  breakaway group  led by toni packer

springwater is definitely not buddhist, but i would say there’s some ambiguity about it being zen, stylistically its quite soto without the ceremonies or accoutrements and even effectively has the   “ teachers approved by toni ”  ie transmission system

so i would say zen readily decouples from buddhism and in actual fact if you look at the old zen records, a lot of what is said is a deconstruction of buddhism !

its a basically like any form of mysticism, they exist in a cultural religious milieu so have to accommodate to some extent, in christian mysticism failure to do so could get you burnt at the stake, a concern that john of the cross and theresa of avila struggled with and giordano bruno got caught by,  a horrendously ghastly death in his case

went downstairs and he looks pathetic drunk

cirrohsis of the liver is irreversible

your father is committing a bizarre suicide that will bankrupt him and be the most severe care burden on the family possible

you should make him get an MRI of his liver, he won’t be able to argue then

who are you ?

i’m me

who are you ?

who are you ?

i’m me

who are you ?

who are you ?

i’m me

who are you ?

who are you ?

i’m me

who are you ?

you are the universe

just sitting on the porch

listening to the rain

the cat snuggled into the doorway

this is the universe

existential angst of a sea snail  :  if my chances of surviving from an egg are only one in a thousand, why am i here ?

you seem extraordinarily self-confident for one so ignorant

“ yet, as lilian pizzichini rightly says  writing  was rhys’s true partner

it is possible that rhys never fully realised this, or didn’t want to realise it, perhaps  :   the path of the artist is often by necessity a lonely one, and rhys drank not to feel lonely ”

‘ i think if i had to choose, i’d rather  be happy  than write ’

oddly i started to fantasize having a child with her while listening to her voice !

disturbing

juno’s photo of jupiter  taken  19,000 kilometers from the top of jupiter’s clouds

one day master deshan said to the community ,  “ as soon as you ask, you’ve missed it.  if you refrain from asking ,  you’ve also missed it ”

then a monk came forward and made a bow.  the master hit him.  the monk said, “ i haven’t even asked anything yet.  why did you hit me ? ”

the master said ,  “ what difference would it make if i’d waited until you spoke ? ”

my correction

one day master deshan said to the community  “ as soon as you ask, you’ve missed it ”

the monk asked

“ what have i missed ”

 deshan disappeared !

i went to springwater because of toni packer, i have never gone back

oily glassy sea

roiling all about me

glassy oily sea

roiling all about me

i make a drink for myself by adding 75ml of coconut water to a glass of water, boil up to sterilize the coconut water and drink that

these guys are really  quite sophisticated ,  its interesting !

being a dropout gives the time for attention to a side of life more conventional people don’t think about !

a better version of this  meme  is as follows

an indian king got wind of a famous ascetic travelling through his kingdom and sent food for a feast as well as several attractive young women to seduce him

the feast was duly set up but the women failed to seduce him

when asked about it his only comment was  ‘ i only felt fear, eating with tigers ’ 

if i talk i talk

if i write i write

never shall the two meet

if i talk i talk

if i write i write

the two shall never meet


if i talk i talk

if i write i write

the two shall meet

i am not happy with the way my life has gone and what i have done at all, i never had this concern when younger   .    .

if only   .   .   .

paul mccartney is  a good  75 ,  there must be something to being vegetarian !

very wealthy people have the problem that medical people settle on them like flies and do a lot of iaotrogenic stuff, paul seems to have escaped this !

language has two zones,   oral  and oral and writing

oral and writing is a very different space

language has two zones, oral and oral and writing

oral and writing is a very different space

if you have liver damage from alcohol abuse

“ the mildest form of  hepatic encephalopathy  is difficult to detect clinically, but may be demonstrated on neuropsychological testing.  it is experienced as forgetfulness, mild confusion, and irritability ”

would scare the shit out of me, but not everyone apparently !

its just some nonsense  story , it has no more meaning than that other story, jesus’s crucifixion !

how stupid can you get ?

endless self important fools dribbling their brains out in commentary !

how stupid can you get ?

lol, what  real women  do ! : o)

hmm,  shot  on iphone !

i never thought i would arrive at later middle age and have so much grief about my life

seeing somethings and blind to others

like a lot of things that are unsatisfactory, the way they are at the moment is often what works best !

the claim that there are trolls on r|zen is nonsense

proof  ?

“ trolls employ an empathic strategy of predicting and recognising the emotional suffering of their victims ”

way beyond the competence level there !

if you are like me, you get rejected for everything and that which doesn’t reject you is not doing you any favour !

“ some might be  longer  than ten miles, this is a good battle sancho ! ”

if he has to drink red wine is better, spirits are disastrous

honestly, looking for largeness of mind in religion is like looking for a waterfall in the sahara

honestly, looking for largeness of mind in zen is like looking for a waterfall in the sahara

slow movement  from alma deutscher’s new piano concerto

what i find fascinating is the way her descriptions of the creative process match what i find for writing

i have written poems that were dreamt and she too has dreamt music

she will be just mentally rambling around and then suddenly some music will appear, i find a lot of homilies come that way

basically ideas appear spontaneously, its never work to generate the material, all the work comes afterwards, in her case scoring which is a substantial process, mine is more trivial, editing and writing up

she waves around her special skipping rope and  melodies  pour into her head !

it has opened my eyes quite a bit, i have never come across any writer who writes the way i write, that is  things just pop out complete and i write then down without making any changes, any difficulties usually come from me not remembering 100% what first came out

other writers seem to be much more constructive, building everything and modifying it for what suits best

“ ice has gripped her soul ”

rather  moving

when i was younger i’ve been so short of money i was vomiting with the stress, i didn’t even know that could happen !

the problem with jobs is there is huge surplus of unskilled labour, don’t beat yourself up, its just too competitive

pizza delivery  (using own car)  effectively paying to deliver, for christ’s sake, they still get people !

just start to put skills in place !

zen is a literary construct that tries to bring the poetic imagination and insight into real life

it fails because of the idiocy !

zen is a literary construct that tries to bring the poetic imagination and insight into real life

it fails because of the idiocy

the talentless sheep

run

the

place

the talentless sheep

run

the

place

the talentless sheep

run

the

place

derivative clichéd crap is always welcome to the talentless

derivative clichéd crap is always welcome to the religious

derivative clichéd crap is always welcome on r|zen !

life is full of the talentless unimaginative who get quite snarly when its pointed out to them

religion is full of the talentless unimaginative who get quite snarly when its pointed out to them

zen is full of the talentless unimaginative who get quite snarly when its pointed out to them

jason  writes

about that psychotic at the marijuana anonymous meeting

the meeting was at an old church and as we were talking after the meeting these was some dust floating through the air and he says  “ those could be drones for all we know with the nanotechnology the government has ”

jason  writes

rina sent me a video of herself putting a blue pill on her tongue, think it was xanax, then downing one of those small liquor bottles

dave, the leech on r|zen who can’t even give himself to himself

one who can’t even give himself to himself

“ do you naturally have good posture or do you adjust yourself ? ”

i don’t think about it, just keep reasonably fit and don’t have unnecessary upper body weight

i never expected to have so much grief in my post 50 years

i never exepcted to take so much grief from my later life

as we know, pathology is non-negotiable

there’s too much of my own blood on the woodpile of r|zen

too much of my own blood on the woodpile of r|zen

your  reply  is dogmatic and lacking specifics

your reply is dogmatic and lacking specifics

a monk asked joshu  :  what is the true dharmakāya of the buddha ?

the master replied  :  is there anything else you don’t like ?

my  commentary

i think its a criticism of the black and white thinking of there being some superior doctrine that one understands or adheres to and that’s it, but in fact the superior doctrine is simply mining very low grade ore for the rest of your life for the very infrequent diamonds

its a perspective only the celibate can understand !

°       °       °       °       °       °       °       °       °

elsewhere, somebody asked the same question and joshu replied  :  the nirmanakāya

“ but i’m not asking about the nirmanakāya ”

joshu replied  :  just pay attention to the nirmanakāya

the difference in meaning between nirmanakāya and dharmakāya matches joshu’s negative and positive replies

with the insane, the open door swings back and forth but they never go through !

I’m better than you because I don’t measure better and worse

because i don’t measure better or worse i’m not worse than you and certainly better !

alma deustscher  penetrates  the interior logic to come up with something new !

to be a zen patriarch is to penetrate that logic and then what is said will flow, those repeating the endless clichés and hackneyed themes are a malign tumour on the breast of intelligence

alma  playing  mozart piano concerto K.246, with the cadenza composed by herself

anything new is full of unseen problems

jason, there’s a huge energy in not having a girlfriend, you have the focus and undistracted attention to do things  !

there’s a huge energy in not having a girlfriend, you have the focus and undistracted attention to do things  !

ewk, actually you lie so much and actually it can be such an effective obfuscating technique that people copy you !

actually you lie so much and actually it can be such an effective obfuscating technique that people copy you !

we don’t live long enough to figure the mystical truth out by ourselves so reading   quality  is essential !

my personal experience is most zen writing is so badly translated and transcribed that its meaningless and i had to come from outside zen e.g. emily dickinson to understand it and to understand authentic zen truly you have to correct what is written

the big thing i got when i first started zen was weekly sits with the local zen society and a yearly week long retreat

without that silence you can’t progress which is the situation here on r|zen, people frothing meaningless for ev er

you really are not listening to me about how you don’t need these places  (ed.  centers like springwater)  or gurus like lisa

you don’t need another problem that has to be unwound

one of the points of insanity is the sheer senselessness of what they do

How did you end up at r|zen ?

for ten thousand past lives i was very very bad, mass murder, killed spiders that sort of thing

buddha personally intervened and sent me to the r|zen hell

where’s your compassion shakya ?

some people you can only make sense of in terms of pathology, you can’t take extremes of sanity

the celibate buddhist traditions were a threat to the nationalist meiji government in japan so they passed an edict in 1872 allowing priests to marry

that is why zen is so bound up in the japanese atrocities in china and more generally in world war two, they promoted duplicitous nonsense like  “ the sword that kills is the sword that gives life ” 

the modern form of japanese zen is also a creation by the meiji government

the zen greats are all celibate, not this modern sex maniac trash !

the real zen is a celibate tradition, married with kids or in relationship just creates a meaningless distortion !

Is there anything up with the White Plum Asangha, or are they ok ?

its founder taizan maezumi drowned drunk in the bath, his speciality was screwing underage female students thats why joko beck left, he was screwing her daughter

its just a bunch of hubric retards

dave defends the white plum asanga from my accusation of being in a war criminal lineage

I know someone who went with Bernie Glassman to Auschwitz.  They hold retreats where they meditate on the train tracks.  They also go to Palestine and meditate on the border walls.  Whatever that sangha is doing,  it’s a far cry from supporting Japanese nationalism and war

my reply

he’s going to reincarnate all the murdered jews, well i hope he starts with kafka’s sisters first !

i have done translations and think you actually have to do them to understand the problems

the majority of zen lineages today include war criminals

to have a lineage with people like hakuun yasutani in who was an out and out ideologue for state sponsored murder is beyond apologism i am afraid

its also means that what is perceived as zen in the west is so toxic it can’t be dealt with safely !

ewk the avatar untrammeled by any notion of personal consistency babbles on again

i don’t know why people don’t get this, but if you read something in translation, you are reading the translators opinions and biases and its also intrinsic to the semantically dense use of language which is what zen is that ,  like poems, they are not really translatable

so everyone spends their days arguing over voynich !

what zen is about is always your own personal discovery and not really conveyable

the  nestorian stele

rather fascinating the way it was buried during a purge in 845 then rediscovered about 1624

the most important  “ zen texts ”  are your own observations

the most important  “ zen text ”  is your own observation

jason  writes

i need to be meditating more but like acquiring skills i haven’t got into the groove just yet, sorry for bringing you into my thoughts but the writing helps

my  reply

well writing really is meditating, just processing everything

i really don’t think there is any groove for anything, except fresh brain sugars get you through a certain amount of material

this is all programming  is about

turing-completeness is a property indicating that certain  (typically, most)  programming languages are fully general

according to the  church-turing thesis  (a physics principle with substantial empirical evidence) ,  every computation which can be physically carried out, even in principle, can be expressed and implemented in a turing-complete language


in the mental health arena there’s two forms of mental illness, the therapists, practitioners and psychiatrists and then there’s the clients

don’t go on to make  the same  mistake again, it might seem like it couldn’t happen but we have very constant patterns in our lives  !

language is some sort of handle on recursion, so my writing and poetry is language itself, what is written defines the language !

“ abundant childhood exposure to a language with  layered sentences  practically guarantees their mastery ”

virginia woolf’s  view

ambiguity  in sir henry neville

i have a strong hardware background in computers and electronics, it kills me that i wasted my time arguing with the likes of sepehr and ewk in the early days of bitcoin when i could have been mining, worst mistake of my life !

ewk  asks

haven’t you told people repeatedly in this forum  (ed. r|zen)  that you hallucinated you were the 7th patriarch  .  .  .   and that you think it is legitimate ?

my

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i had a vision with the 6th patriarch

maybe he was the first as he may not have ever met hongren

so in terms of the zen tradition, since that is mind to mind transmission, that makes me his heir and as far as my research has shown he had no enlightened successors which makes me the 7th or 2nd patriarch

a lot of the stories about him are mythical and who knows how much of the platform sutra is actually representative of him, but he was an historical person !

that that vision is real identity with the ultimate is what conventional people like yourself have trouble with !

what you like about the tang and early song records is the visionary aspect is filtered out for whatever reason, once you get into more detailed records like dogen, miaozong and hakuin, it comes to the fore as the basis of zen and even to this day soto and rinzai zen base their lineages on manufactured dai kensho experiences in imitation of their founders !

you yourself with your famous  “ tree ”  experience did the same, only even you could see it didn’t hold water, so dropped it in favour of ultra rationalist suburban buji !

get some real life experience and see if you remain of the same opinion

ewk speculates that i have spent zero time in real life zen

i have spent years travelling and staying in various centers, mostly zen, studied with john loori and kwan um zen and was a member of a local zen sitting group

had quite a good time with it in general !

ewk, what gave me the biggest insight into you was you were pushing the zen nun master  miaozong ,  then when i told you she had a visionary experience as a child you dropped her immediately !

that’s also your beef with dogen, your suburban materialism can’t handle a reality including the visionary !

having spent time in real life zen, i have slowly come to the conclusion its all a cult

you can compare zen with a breakaway group like  springwater  which is not a cult

i think what makes zen cults is the teachers and doctrines are beyond criticism so are basically crazy and stay that way !

from what i read of the historical reality of dogen is he was open minded and certainly not a cultist

very old  origins  to relatively modern fairy tales !

buddha is a badly written character in a soap !

only complete morons think he is otherwise !

carbon dioxide levels significantly impact  sleep quality

sea level rise is  not uniform

there’s something very uneven about jim carey, ask cathriona white  !

grammar is a fiction

this is what i have noticed, when you start something new, in many respects you are starting  from scratch

explanations fail

ewk, you keep repeating shit and repeat it so often you start to think its really so

you keep repeating shit and repeat it so often you start to think its really so

you are like ewk, you thinking your saying  “ incorrect ”  makes it incorrect, but really that’s your schizophrenia speaking !

what can i say ?

what i write is prose_poetry and therefore the syntax and grammar is malleable and subservient to the highly condensed semantics

people in zen only know zen writing through translations and therefore miss this not reading the originals because its not translatable !

zeiss make better rifle scopes than nikon

i can’t compensate for low reading age, you have to crimp the beauty and subtlety of the meaning too much !

i am not a journalist !

emily dickinson wrote to people with a high reading age so her letters are also poetic, why not look them up ?

look at joshu’s dialogues, they are very recursive and hit several bases at once, that’s what i mean by  “ high reading age ”  and since he may have been illiterate, its more a dovetailing complexity of mind that i mean !

blogspot doesn’t work that well as a message board

it surprised me that i found after opening  zen mystical ,  that it quickly became infested with the most toxic posters from r|zen and i had to ban just about everyone

i really don’t want to be involved in the endless stupid arguments that go on, if people want to do that then why not open a subreddit on your own account rather than waste my time with the endless idiocies that the arguments of people seem to think a useful way to pass the time !

the bottom line is you people don’t interest me any more and i am not sure you ever did, i have better things to do and would rather talk to myself than you, its way more productive !

look its all just dunning-kruger syndrome, idiot tards thinking they know better than anyone else

mormons, 7th day adventists, episcopalians, jehovah’s witnesses, zen, its all the same

none can explore their own errors

jason  asks

have you ever gone to a chiropractor ?

i have bad posture and i wonder if that would help

my  reply

why not research posture on the net and see what you can do for yourself ?

direct manipulation as per chiropractory could be dangerous, however i have no experience of it

my own joint problems have resolved themselves over several years with vitamin D and avoiding aggravating the joints  (acj and lower back pain) ,  i think scar tissue forms in a productive way

posture is a different problem that i am not sure how to address, but beware of making things worse, most exercises in my view are anti-helpful, but some maybe helpful !

there’s a million schizophrenics claming enlightenment, its a meaningless term

abrasive, aggressive, hypomanic and manic, you know what i am talking about don’t you ewk  !

eileen, i loved you and you savaged me

eileen i loved you and you savaged me

Care to speak to your enlightenment experience as best you can ?

What’s the before and after so to speak ?

disaster before and disaster after is the unpalatable truth, i don’t know why people are so keen on it ! ?

oh audience you are difficult people, a little mad talked to by a madman !

ed.  impromptu words by charles bukowski at a reading !

oh audience you are difficult people, a little mad talked to by a madman !

armchair whatever, arrogant and comfortable

armchair zennists, arrogant and comfortable

i gather the use of hau-tous is a bad thing

well its just like taking any short saying to garner something or someway of looking that is a bit new to you like this from tennesse williams

“ the person most hurt by the truth being told is the person who tells it ”

some zen quotes are as good as that, but by and large most are garbled nonsense

the good zen stuff that survives is often a deconstruction of the cultural milieu of the zen of the time because it is always wrong

the beauty of voynich is you can read something into it for many lifetimes and that’s what happens   .   .

why pretend to insight you don’t have and no-one else thinks you have, beats me   .   .   .

tennesse williams wrote that the person most hurt by the truth being told is the person who told it !

tallulah  has never hesitated to speak what she feels to be the truth, no matter about the possible hurt to herself, because when you speak the truth it is you, the speaker, who is most likely to be hurt

tallulah is the strongest of all the hurt people i’ve ever known in my life.  and of hurt people i’ve known a remarkable number, including some i have hurt myself, and one of them is tallulah


an enlightenment experience is where everything turns inside out and you see that reality is a world within a world and not the true world

you know it, you can’t convince others of it and you will never believe it until it happens

most people in zen haven’t had a genuine enlightenment experience and therefore do not understand what a genuine enlightenment experience takes

i didn’t believe it before it happened

hau-tous can only be pushed by people who it hasn’t happened to

most people in zen haven’t had a genuine enlightenment experience and therefore do not understand what a genuine enlightenment experience takes

seasonal affective disorder is a confluence of poor diet, lack of exercise and poor light spectrum and circadian rythmn management

the concept of hau-tou is flawed and just the usual zen voynich for idiots

i am not very good at  recognising faces ,  i should look at the nose more ?

hua-tous are promoted by people who can’t conceive of a paragraph, let alone a book

publishing on the insanely cheap !

hua-tous are promoted by people who can’t conceive of a paragraph, let alone a book

drug use leaves footprints of brain damage, its not hard to work out you have brain damage  !

drug use leaves footprints of brain damage, its not hard to work out you have brain damage !

drug use leaves footprints of brain damage, its not hard to work out you have brain damage

unlike you i have never taken a drug in my life, don’t even drink tea or coffee !

you can’t handle reality ?

dreaming bullshit is what you want ?

i take people trying to con me seriously !

eckhart is very wealthy, i hope he’s cutting you a slice for your missionizing efforts or are you a born again sucker ?

con artists are never attached to the fact they are con artists which is why they are so personable !

sepehr, you are on a tangent to the subject matter that interests me, i’m really feeling like i’m dealing with the  sharks  so will close this message board to further comments

i really feel the public discussion aspect is a waste of time and people like you are just inconsiderate arseholes who use my time for their own benefit and just waste mine !

what’s really telling about you, is you do not address the points i raise with you in my reply, but rave on in some projection of your own which is schizophrenic, i am not here to correct the mentally ill !

look at eckhart tv and see how mentally ill he and his  “ devotees ”  really are

eckhart tolle is a diseased mentally crippled con artist raking in the deserving idiots  !

tolle is a diseased mentally crippled con artist raking in the deserving idiots !

tolle is a diseased mentally crippled con artist raking in the deserving idiots

sepehr, you kill people by taking their time to no purpose

death  its hall of splitting light, a cover for history

death its hall of splitting light, a cover for history

death in its hall of splitting light, a cover for history

death in the hall of splitting light, a cover for history

zen and history

one sees  “ senior officials ”  a lot in the dialogues and  here  is one in the song who actually sounds like the head of the secret police !

what is a life  ?

the opening up of new problems and the endless correction of old ones

nessun dorma , the famous aria from the last act of the unfinished opera  turandot  composed by giacomo puccini before his  death

a very moving  rendition  by the angelicus celtis choir from south wales

hmm puccini  had a  complicated  life !

photos  of giulia and doria manfredi

that’s a real  defensive  tower, tiny slits for shooting arrows from

the tower is in northern portugal and spain is behind the mountain in the background

jason  writes

the marijuana anonymous meeting was interesting, some people there with over ten years being marijuana free  .  .   i got a chip for being three months free

then after the meeting i spoke to someone who ended up revealing to me that he was released from institutionalization in august, he has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder I  with psychotic tendencies or something like that

he has an idea of making  “ pregnant lives matter ”  stickers with another attendee because he says it is logical that the only life that really matters above everyone else’s is a pregnant woman’s

i asked if he spoke about that with his neurologist and he said, no he hasn’t, forty two years old, abused hard drugs since sixteen, now he does food delivery he opened up a decent amount and it started as schizophrenic thinking and then more sane

my

r e p l y

“ it is logical that the only life that really matters above everyone else’s is a pregnant woman's  ”

yeah that’s psychotic and they then use it to visit violence on those who don’t conform

sepher, you really are another sanctimonious millennial arsehole !

you really are another sanctimonious millennial arsehole !

you really are another sanctimonious millennial arsehole

the endless queensland outback

drone  footage  of the carmichael mine location three fifths the way down the page

there is a compartmentalized  insensitivity  of immune cells to active vitamin D in the joints of those with rheumatoid arthritis due to chronic inflammation, a different sort of vicious circle !

I found her hanging there with the notebook and engagement ring on the counter

she was blue by this stage

funny how the word  “ blue ”  hits one !

reddit

you can’t beat a neuronally depleted cortex !

“ the maturing neurons were abundantly developed in the subcortical regions, but were  depleted  from the schizophrenia cortex ”

ewk, the man who pushes scripture in a religion that warns against scripture

daolin supposedly lived until age eighty-four, a very old age in those days !

the case  looks like an autobiography that really only can have come from him

what stands out about him is he was a very long lived monk from the age of twenty-one and anti-scriptualist

this sort of slow developing long lived celibate is in my view the essence of zen as the understanding developed can only be attained in this way !

the tree as described sounds quite liveable

when you look at your daughter you see half yourself and half the mother and you think

i am too afraid to even offer an opinion

when you look at your daughter you see half yourself and half the mother and you think  “ i am too afraid to even offer an opinion ”

life is a bitter experience and the bitterness never stops

my life is a bitter experience and the bitterness never stops

i think religious education when very young messes with your head too much, you are taught to respect deceptive malign shit as true when it is designed to suit some malign purpose not in the individual’s interests !

in this modern world we can know when and how we are going to die well ahead of time !

nina riggs

pyschotropic meds have very bad long term side effects !

you use the word  “ medical ”  but my experience and observation is psychiatrists do not regard themselves as having a duty of care for the health of a patient, only the amelioration of psychiatric symptoms, i have known several people multiplely medded so badly they became chronically disabled

the extent to which people don’t read my replies amazes me !

charles bukowski uses language in the real zen understanding way, the zen records are just translators opinions of what is often misrecorded or voynich in the first place, you only want fantasies you project onto   .   .

jason  writes

my brother is going to his wife’s aunt’s house for thanksgiving

i’ve never met those people so i’m not going

my  reply

 a good christmas day for me is not seeing anyone and no traffic !

you don’t want help, you want validation of your screwed up way of interacting with the world !

is your best compliment worth a tin of shit ?

you’re another  “ zen uncorrectable ”  !

avoidant, sly, all the usual !

why so bent on fooling yourself  ?

why so bent on fooling yourself ?

why so bent on fooling yourself

“ What are the feelings and thoughts that precipitate this rage ? ”

what is the rage that precipitates the thoughts and feelings ?

religion is really magical realism pretending its realism  !

religion is really magical realism pretending its realism !

religion is really magical realism pretending its realism

i found the youtube videos of st. peter’s basilica fascinating, the huge scale of it

i don’t know how the catholic church pays for the maintenance

videos of venice also give a good idea of what its like to be there !

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times change, once venice was a major mediterranean naval power and an Ottoman fleet was parked in the harbour and leonardo da vinci tried to work out a way to sink them, his ideas and experimentation with diving bells was never taken up !

religion is the dull pretending they are something different !

zen is the dull pretending they are something different !

tung-shan said to ewk  :  you know your form of tang and song dynasty zen is magical realism ?

ewk stood there with his mouth wide open !

tung-shan said to ewk  :  you know your tang and song dynasty zen is a form of magical realism ?

ewk stood there with his mouth wide open !

“ Looking at a postcard isn’t the same as visiting Rome ”

you haven’t visited rome have you !

the you can be a perception like the body, its not that meaningful

mark lehner  sphinx obsessive

striding  sphinx, 845-712 BCE  (brooklyn museum)

from this  article

the point of motorcycle riding is  the instability

oddly i have done an awful lot of motorcycle riding, in the end its too dangerous i decided, one mistake and you’re over

i think microwaves are ok except for fats and oils

anything with high water content is fine for microwaving

jason recounts to  scotty kilmer  his adventures with the scofflaw raphael !

i’d like to tell you how buying a used car for the first time went for me

the man who sold me the car was a scofflaw, he was the ex manager of a used car shop that bought totaled cars and would repair them to sell, here are  his charges

of course i did not know this when buying the car, only when i was test driving the vehicle and he was in the passenger seat and i let go of the steering wheel for it to veer left did he mention  “ oh its been in an accident, it was nothing really i was going 35mph and hit a deer ”

the whole time he played off that it was his own car since he bought it new and that the accident was very minor, and if you check the original ad  (here’s  a link  to an album i made of the original ad)  the ad states the car is  “ clean ”

only after signing the title and trying to register the car at motor vehicles did i realize something was amiss, after i bought a carfax and saw that the car was totaled and that it now stated it had 200,000 miles instead of the 58,000 the seller was advertising  .   .   still not sure if there was an engine swap or something

i rushed back to his house to get my money back but he said he spent it already.  somehow he got the title to state one owner, don’t know how.  he also folded the title perfectly over where the it states the car’s condition as  “  SALVAGE/REBUILT ”

the man was very skilled at deception and i just happened to be one of his victims.  he was almost hypnotic and i got unlucky

what i learned from this encounter was to take more time buying a used car, to be very wary of car’s being advertised without a license plate, and that craigslist and facebook marketplaces are full of dealers, ex dealers, and wannabe dealers

luckily the car has been doing pretty well, i haven’t had a problem with it since i’ve been using it for about four months, and i was even doing some pizza delivery with the car

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i updated album showing the ad stating the title is  “ clean ”  and the backseats which worried me that the car might have more miles than what was stated

another lesson was that many people selling a car do lower the miles !

my  comment

its nice of scotty to reply, a real person unlike the myriads of fakes !

scotty thought that winding the odometer back was an offense enabling suing but in my opinion the problem is the time and money a court case would take, raphael knows that, he is a   “ scofflaw ” ,  basically knows that the law don’t do anything for minor cases

a lot of chinese poetry is quite medieval, very different culture and values !

it takes philology to sort those semantics out but there are almost zero academics in that area !

reddit zen is premised on a supposed ability to create a version of zen outside the public domain !

the way the world works it can’t be done and if r|zen posters only realised this they would be more open and not manically bent on sustaining their own highly hubric and misguided version of zen !

its obvious if you have any real life zen experience that there’s not much hope and this of course is why r|zen posters so strenuously resist getting any real life zen experience

i can write it and it seems simple enough to me, but no-one gets it, the manic/hypomanic scream ahead, rattling banshees they are !

everyone is at a job, only because they don’t have a better offer somewhere else

jesus, it takes a day to shop in town  (plus my walk/time on the beach)  then a day to decompress, packaway !

digtial multimeters are cheap, it pays to look at the battery voltage measuring across the battery terminals when the car starts normally so you know what the voltage drop looks like, a failed battery will drop further and its actually the best test of the battery condition you can do !

make sure the meter is set to the right voltage before placing the probes on the terminals, if its on   “ current ”  you can blow the meter !

the beginning of a poem by kuei-shan/ isan reiyū taken from  “ the five houses of zen ”  by thomas cleary

this illusory body

this house of dreams

appearances in emptiness

there has never been a beginning

 how could an end be determined ?

appearing here, disappearing there

rising and sinking

worn and exhausted

never able to escape the cycle

 when will there ever be rest ?

my  reply

life is an illusion

dreaming house, house

of

dreams

why do we so try to mold the world to our image ?

why do we so try to mold the world to our image

what zen master tried to mold the world to his image ?

what zen master tried to mold the world to his image

what could be more useless

than the advertising on the back of a supermarket receipt ?

what could be more useless than the advertising on the back of a supermarket receipt ?

what could be more useless than the advertising on the back of a supermarket receipt

the religious are the  “ uncorrectable ”  dead set on  “ correcting ”  others !

life is the  “ uncorrectable ”  dead set on  “ correcting ”  others !

r|zen is the  “ uncorrectable ”  dead set on  “ correcting ”  others !

the uncorrectable clueless  !

the uncorrectable clueless !

the uncorrectable clueless

if the death was crazy, then the life was crazy too !

if the death was crazy, then the life was crazy too

if you don’t know how to swim you and your daughter can drown

kobun had the opportunity to learn in the usa

he’s just another zen fuck-up

screwed up steve jobs as well

recent archaeological evidence shows that eihei dogen’s descriptions of chinese monastery interior layout are accurate whereas previously they had been supposed to be inaccurate, steven heine’s opinion comes from before this new evidence

we know dogen never got transmission from tiāntóng  because he was strongly opposed to the transmission system

that’s not to say rújìng didn’t  “ approve ”  of him or his visionary experiences !

a poem by tekkan from lucein stryk’s translation  “ zen poetry : let the spring breeze enter ”

no mind, no buddha, no being

bones of the void are scattered

why should the golden lion

seek out the foxes lair ?

my  replies

when you are sick of the claptrap

your own void coheres

 not much to say is there ?

when you are sick of the claptrap

your own void coheres

 not much more to say is there ?

if you have to be right, there is no possibility of correctablity

if i have a problem there’s something wrong with the way i am looking at things

the world is not correctable and neither are people !

the world is not correctable and neither are people

love involves changing the boundary conditions, it also involves changing them between life   and death

a good  documentary  on virginia woolf

What is your addiction ?

i suppose i am a recovering verjuiceolic (coal river) !

salvator mundi

$450 million  (25% to  the auctioneers )

attribution  not  100% certain, brought for  $10,000  in  2005 !

when i look at the painting it lacks leonardo’s lyricism, too flat facing to the painter, drapery too linear and lacking folds and detail

i’m not here to argue with you, you have a problem and reject my advice

what can i say ?

you can’t see you have things wrong !

borderline personality disorder ?

you claim i have not spoken to your problem !

but i wrote

“ r|meditation is composed mainly of ex addicts and despite the schizophrenia, most seem to find meditation a help, it promotes the sort of self awareness necessary in dealing with an addiction ! ” 

you are proxying into verbal bullshit as an escape from dealing with your issues when in fact some meditation would help !

see meditation helps you see the i as per your initial quote from the diamond sutra  (  “ I have not attained anything ”  )  which enables you to get a handle on deconstructing the heroin addiction

well, he claimed to  “ meditiate regularly ” 

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you are not seeing how your default circuit runs so per se you are getting the meditation wrong !

zen itself is not an ideology, but a clarifying process of understanding how the world works and its relation to  “ infinity ” 

as i said, you seem unable to address getting things very very wrong to a quite schizophrenic degree !

zen, a long journey i wish i had never begun !

zen, a long journey i wish i had never begun

you addicts are self absorbed arseholes

recovery begins when you start to see that and act to ameliorate it !

you addicts are self absorbed arseholes

recovery begins when you start to see that and start to moderate it !

you addicts are self absorbed arseholes

zen is when you start to see it and act on it !

r|meditation is composed mainly of ex addicts and despite the schizophrenia, most seem to find meditation a help, it promotes the sort of self awareness necessary in dealing with an addiction !

zen is the transmission outside scriptures !

the dogenists make dogen as scripture

the song and tangists make the song and tang records as scripture

the rinzai-ists make koans as scripture

no wonder true enlightenment is only twenty or so over the 1300 years of zen !

that’s life, all that energy towards the inversion of intention and effect

ewk, you are not correctable

you lack the facility

you are not correctable

you lack the facility

you are not correctable, you lack the facility

south american backbacking  trip

the lost city of  kuelap

the problem is, they don’t take correction, but any attention negative or postive as justifying their worth and only use it to feed their hubricity !

the problem is, they don’t take correction, but any attention given as their right and only use it to feed their hubricity !

religion only looks a big deal if you don’t read literature or poetry

a commentary on larry eigner’s poem  bookshelf

zen only looks a big deal if you don’t read literature or poetry

i’d say their real problem is a lot of  chainsaw use ,  it fucks the nerves, a known problem here in the antipodes

Troll can’t write sonnets, too ashamed to admit it

“ a sonnet has 14 fourteen lines and is written in iambic pentameter.  each line  has ten syllables ”

not ashamed, but yes, pass !

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the record of tung-shan  section  nineteen

the master  (dongshan aka tung-shan)  went to ching-chao to pay his respects to the monk hsing-p’ing

hsing-p’ing said  :  you shouldn’t honor an old dotard

the master replied  :  i honor one who is not an old dotard

hsing-p’ing stated  :  those who are not old dotards don’t accept honoring

the master replied  :  neither do they obstruct it

my  reworking

tung-shan went to pay his respects to hsing-p’ing

on receiving these hsing-p’ing said  :  i am not respectable

 tung-shan was stunned !

the brittle man with a mask

cannot cope

with what he is tasked


the brittle man with a mask

cannot cope with

what he is tasked

a brittle man with a mask

cannot cope with

what he is tasked

a lucretius quote  (de rerum natura, 5.198–9)

had god designed the world, it would not be

a world so frail and faulty as we see

the bard

babbles his inane nonsense

neither fully insane nor stupid

he

just

burbles

on

the  retard

babbles his insane nonsense

neither fully insane or stupid

he

just

burbles

on

the tard

babbles his insane nonsense

neither fully insane nor stupid

he

just

burbles

on

the tard

babbles his insane nonsense

neither fully insane or stupid

he

just

burbles

on

when people push bullshit ,  there’s always a hidden agenda !

when people push bullshit ,  there’s always a hidden agenda

when people like yourself push bullshit ,  there’s always a hidden agenda !

when people push bullshit like yourself, there’s always a hidden agenda !

jason  writes

not giving a fuck is a  desirable  trait

in certain contexts anyway

my  reply

 another rule that doesn’t work ?

we are all clay oxen going to the sea !

we are all clay oxen going to the sea

i’m a clay ox struggling with every other clay ox i can see  !

ed.  number  23

i’m a clay ox struggling with every other clay ox i can see

there’s one clay ox struggling with every other clay ox it can see  here  !

guns trump knives, if you pull a knife you better be sure they don’t have a gun because they will use it on you !

knives can be grabbed off you as well !

robbery is mostly a business, handle it carefully and you will avoid injury !

there is nothing more dangerous than a damaged woman  !

there is nothing more dangerous than a damaged woman

there is nothing worse than damaged women  !

there is nothing worse than damaged women !

there is nothing worse than damaged women

you seem to project the acquisition of skills that take years to achieve competence !

one of the problems with using a knife for self defence is if your opponent has a transmissible by blood disease which would be much more likely than normal, especially in a place like new york !

i have never had a life circumstance where the use of a knife or gun in self defense would have been useful or justified, once i was king hit on a wellington street as a youth, not knocked out fortunately, but i had the sense not to chase after the villain so as not exacerbate the concussion or be attacked again

accosting some burglars at 1:30am four or five months ago, three big strong young men, the exchange was surprisingly verbal, they were just pros on drugs, i accosted them before they took anything so they had nothing to lose by just walking then driving away which they did

knife use is deeply embedded in hispanic culture culture and made the life of the french during their occupation of spain  hell ,  but i don’t think its a  “ go to ”  in today’s life !

most the knife defense videos on the web say its not a practical form of self defense !

jason  writes

growing up and going to portugal every year i think i developed a good sense of how cultures can differ

even with a four hour car drive from here  (ed. long island)  to the cambridge zen center i could see a difference

my  reply

yeah i felt really at home in boston, more english, new york is a strange and dangerous place !

jason’s reply

yes it is dangerous and i’ve grown up in the strange culture, doesn’t mean i like it but i’m way better adapted than someone coming from somewhere else

my  reply

i stayed in rochester for a day or so and walked through a black area without feeling unsafe at all, yet i got mugged at grand central terminal in new york !

jason  replies

upstate new york and downstate new york are two different places, long island has tried several times to split from the rest of the state

then there’s  chiraq

i think grown women frightened c.s lewis

well they frighten anyone, even other grown women !

i think grown women frightened c.s lewis

my reworking of a  dialogue  between Hsing-p’ing and Tung-shan

T  :  so how do zen masters go about things ?

H  :  there’s no zen masters

T  :  you’re wasting my time

H  :  you’re a waste of time

 T  :  now we’re getting somewhere !

more than anything we are like quantum computers rather than combinatorial logic with intrinsic uncertainty and outcomes the truth of which is unknown and needs testing by observation and experimentation

more than anything we are like quantum computers rather than combinatorial logic with intrinsic uncertainty and outcomes the truth of which is unknown and needs testing

i was thinking religion is a silver chair

ewk, its sad to see a tenth rate mind cut down to twentieth rate by dementia

your level of confusion grows by the day !

sad to see a tenth rate mind cut down to twentieth rate by dementia

your level of confusion grows by the day !

zen is all about the removal to visionary space

narnia

I    II

more happens than you can know !

when men get supplements and diet right their smell will be attractive to women, otherwise you will have body odour from poor metabolic processing of microbiome toxins

charles darwin plagiarized the concept of evolution !

I     II

the notion of  great doubt  in zen is crazy nonsense

jason  writes

i’m going to go tomorrow to zmm’s affiliate here on long island

the dharma talk will be done by hojin, and after the morning session there will be a knitter’s meeting which will probably be a lot of women

what does a zen center have to offer me ?  just real life zen experience

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the problem is that you will pick up stuff you have to spend the rest of your life deconstructing

zen was an issue with me because of the time and sincerity i put into it, you don’t have that problem, but seem to insist on recreating it for yourself !

same with the proposed involvement with lisa cairns, a whole load of bullshit taken on board with no benefit

your real life needs are getting up to speed with things like central heating repair, a job etc !

the other issue with zen is all the viral shedding people

the positive is they do have useful places to stay which could be handy

zen mountain monastery is in the stages of collapse

actually there is another positive which is social upskilling dealing with people

the magician’s nephew

the woods  between  the worlds

a c.s lewis quote

i have found a desire within myself that no experience in this world can satisfy; the most probable explanation is that i was made for another world

you are completely projecting and present absolutely no evidence at all !

you are completely projecting and present absolutely no evidence at all

answers unravel as well !

answers unravel as well

huh, c. s. lewis lifted  “ tash ”  from the hindu deity  garuda  !

a good  article  on elephant sentinence

Nevermind, I think I have found the answer

answers unravel !

answers unravel !

answers unravel

What do you mean when you say schizophrenic ?

people project without trying to tally the projection with reality, something reddit greatly facilitates

the solution is a simple as extended observation, testing and research but this is quite beyond people apparently !

schizophrenia is not just mental illness but a category of human cognitive traits

why does everyone want to talk to me ?

all the nut cases with their crazy ideas and abuse !

the question is too bald, you need to give some background  !

the question is too bald, you need to give some background !

the question is too bald, you need to give some background

you are not seeing a puzzle where you should be seeing one !

you are not seeing a puzzle where you should be seeing one

jason doesn’t see himself manipulating or pushing people to buy things  (ed. sales jobs)

you don’t have to do that, present the facts and let people decide for themselves

you are very closed minded, i used to be like that but the world is more open to us than we/i think !

the problem with drug use is brain damage !

i use this board  (ed. r|zen)  for writing material and to make me think about things

if the people there were less stupid or crazy they wouldn’t be prepared to create such a tableaux to my advantage !

I’d point out that you’re in here  (ed. r|zen pyschward)  with us

fair comment and it has always worried me ! : o(

i don’t think women know what they are  looking for  half the time !

anyone who can talk to me longer than five minutes is ravingly autistic

going to boarding school at too young an age is disasterously emotionally traumatic !

that happened to me, i think i shut down !

going to boarding school at too young an age is disasterously emotionally traumatic !

a charles bukowski quote

Somebody asked me  :  “ What do you do ? How do you write, create ? ”  You don’t, I told them.  You don’t try

That’s very important  :   not to try, either for Cadillacs, creation or immortality.  You wait, and if nothing happens, you wait some more

Its like a bug high on the wall.  You wait for it to come to you

When it gets close enough you reach out, slap out and kill it

Or if you like its looks, you make a pet out of it

don’t try

 don’t   try

actually charles was a great trier, women, drink, writing, life   .   .

the breakdown of the  “ i ”  needs to be coherent for enlightenment, the world is awash with incoherent breakdown !

young  =  limited experience of life i am afraid !

enlightenment is a form of coherent suicide !

i don’t recommend it !

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enlightenment is a form of coherent suicide !

i don’t recommend it !

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enlightenment is a form of coherent suicide !

layman pang claimed to leave birth-and-death, except he didn’t and he proxied those events though his wife and children

go crayman pang !

layman pang claimed to leave birth-and-death, except he didn’t and he proxied that event though his wife and children

go crayman pang !

layman pang claimed to leave birth-and-death, except he didn’t and he proxied that event though his wife and children

its not the  end of the world ,  you have always related to her as your daughter and she, you, her father and she sounds a healthy well balanced child

it could be a lot worse and good relationship with her father is so important to girls, why not just back off and let things settle

what has changed except some idea you have ?

the laṅkāvatāra and śūraṅgama sūtras, so far from having  “ cogent metaphysical frameworks ”  are insane rambling stupidity !

a monk asked ewk ,    “ what is wordless speaking ”

ewk was dumbstruck, but he recovered and posted more nonsense !

some-one else asks

why are you talking ?

my reply

because i’m speaking of the  “ wordless ”

a monk asked ewk ,    “ what is wordless speaking ”

ewk was dumbstruck, but he recovered and posted more nonsense !

a rather amazing  combination  without any weak points ! exceptional !

when you read crap, meditation will just ingrain the crap

buddha wasn’t enlightened

why people push  soap opera scripts  i don’t know !

on case forty-four, of thomas cleary’s  translation  of the book of serenity, xingyang’s  “ garuda ”

the meaning may well be lost forever short of very comprehensive philological work !

you have a set of legendary associations in a very alien medieval culture that are not known to us, the translator has taken a stab, but who knows what is really going on, if there was much sense in the first place which there is often not

however projecting nonsense onto voynich is exactly what zen and religion is about   .   .

you may find some terms are approximations by the translator and the original text used quite different terms that don’t seem to translate

and actually the monk won !

the master wasn’t enlightened at all !

occasionally one gets a glimpse of one’s life in all its pathetic emptiness

its really very shattering


yesterday i drove around, first to a farm a bit before kindred for vegetables, they only had beetroot, red cabbage and eggs, i passed on the eggs because the poultry drinking water was off an old glavanized roof and that can have high levels of lead in the zinc and actually having eaten those eggs for a while earlier, i didn’t feel quite right on them  .  .  .

cabbage i don’t find so digestible, though maybe i should have taken one, but i only took the beetroot, then driving past some houses with gardens so outstanding as to be surreal i turned back and walked past them   .   .   glimpsing what i could, i wanted to go in, but of course you can’t, a beautiful day and they were at their best, a wet spring now going dry   .   .

then i called in further up the road for duck eggs

some-one bought them all yesterday and left an order for more, they were really something those eggs   .   .

needless to say, i was disappointed !

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yesterday i drove around, first to a farm a bit before kindred for vegetables, they only had beetroot, red cabbage and eggs, i passed on the eggs because the poultry drinking water was off an old glavanized roof and that can have high levels of lead in the zinc and actually having eaten those eggs for a while earlier, i didn’t feel quite right on them  .  .  .

cabbage i don’t find so digestible, though maybe i should have taken one, but i only took the beetroot, then driving past some houses with gardens so outstanding as to be surreal i turned back and walked past them   .   .   glimpsing what i could, i wanted to go in, but of course you can’t, a beautiful day and they were at their best, a wet spring now going dry   .   .

then i called in further up the road for duck eggs

some-one bought them all yesterday and left an order for more, they were really something those eggs   .   .

its impossible to judge a life because there’s no preset intention as to the way it should be

its impossible to judge a life because there’s no preset intention

buddhism is some crappy  ‘ insight ’  system that then tries to get around the fact its a system by saying there’s nothing

but its still a system

 that is the essence of  “ buji ”  !


these are six of the main points against the historical reality of buddha

1.  the stories are completely unreal and not true to what happened historically to  “ prophets ”

2.  the earliest buddhism was actually a merchant bank, interestingly the knights templar also performed that function ,  unfortunately for them their wealth became a target of king philip the fourth of france and the church

3.  the very earliest buddhism had no personage called buddha

4.  the lowest level of excavation at lumbini was a tree shrine, ie buddha was a tree shrine god which is what you might expect

5.  functionally you can see  “ buddhism ”  is an historical wiki with bits added as late as the eleventh century

6.  buddha being the son of royalty is somewhat cribbed from the persian emperors, the name is taken from the murdered, but popular emperor gaumata

i can’t save you from your reading age  !

i can’t save you from your reading age !

i can’t save you from your reading age

you’re another schizophrenic unable to take anyone except themselves seriously

what is a shameless person ?

one, who not being able to add, never sees the sums !

buddha is a bad fantasy made by unemployable scriptwriters  !

buddha is a bad fantasy made by unemployable scriptwriters !

buddha is a bad fantasy made by unemployable scriptwriters

in an employment interview, you are in competition with people you can’t see

you don’t really think buddha is anything except a bad soap opera ?

you don’t really think buddha is anything except a bad soap opera

religions are the failed attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

religions are a failed attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

religion is the failed attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

religion is a failed attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

buddhism is the failed attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

buddhism is a failed attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

buddhism is an attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

chapter 22  of the diamond sutra

chapter of whatever of more fictitious bullshit by ancient con artist  “ its hard to believe people swallow this bullshit ”

what i was  saying  is that if you question the authorship of the text, that is buddha is some religious soap opera equivalent, that is, its just some random historical nonsense the why would you think it means anything ?

its so bad as not to warrant discussion except as some sort of meta about what buddhism is

systems versus real insight is an old saw and the worthwhile masters say insight

most of the koans i read on r|zen i feel are wrong and i generally post a corrected version, this bit of the diamond sutra was such arrant bullshit its not correctable and my criticism was at a more abstract level

buddhism is a failed attempt to make the process of solipsist insight into a system !

vivian maier ,  reconstructing  a life

properly understood, there’s no such thing as a beginner  !

properly understood, there’s no such thing as a beginner !

properly understood, there’s no such thing as a beginner

Is Zen complicated ?

you rearrange things so they are simpler and more handable

dunning kruger

doesn’t

get

its

 dunning-kruger !

: o(

friend_lord pens the following poem on  this thread

Flowing older and younger

Time spirals down the drain

The timeline splits in one

point

length

not

 measurable !

my

r e p l y

flowing older and younger

jerky jumps, time

never

spiraled

measuring length

claiming its not length or measuring

the usual story

the record of tung-shan  section  twelve

yün-yen, addressed the assembly saying  :  there is a a son in a certain household who always answers whatever is asked

dongshan came forward and asked  :  how big a library does the house have ?

yün-yen said  :  not a single word

dongshan then asked  :  how does he know so much ?

day or night, he never sleeps  replied yün-yen

is it all right to ask him a question ? asked dongshan

he could answer, but he won’t  said yün-yen

my

r e p l y

answer or no answer

fool’s gold

the cretins bandy

thinking

they have

real

meaning

obviously, vitamin D is  important  for tooth pulp health !

the problem with working with old people and the ill is viruses

the spiritual scene seems to have fragmented away from religions into many independent teachers with small audiences, presumably with different flavours of insanity and dementia !

with the internet you don’t need a large religion with its publicity arm !

you actually have to do stuff to see how it will turn out, you  (ed. jason)  are living in an insane world of your projections about the future and as we know it turned out that zakaj became a millionaire, not my projection at all !

jason  writes

my friend in a groupchat starts telling about how his girlfriend will occasionally talk to her  ex-boyfriend and he’s getting angry

i  (ed. jason)  say

if she’s a good girl she’ll dump you before cheating on you

he responds with a couple laughing emojis and then asks

what if she’s a bad girl ?

i  respond

she’ll cheat on you and give you an std, now that’s not very funny

two thirds the way down the page is the most wonderfully  strange  thing i have ever seen

“ the excavation yielded the discovery of the second largest gold signet ring known in the aegean world, which shows five elaborately dressed female figures gathered by a seaside shrine ”

very minoan, such a different but alive world !

the  pylos  combat  agate

my re-translation of eihei dogen’s  uji

manic moods high and low

super competent and incompetent

stone and flesh

nothing is time being


things that will never be done

rewrite the  first chapter  of eihei dogen’s shobogenzo in scientology terminology

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Ha, smuggled out of Trementina Base !

“ Also, you should keep in mind that even though, from the first, we are in no way lacking in our ability to be a thetan and ever have the necessary tech available to us for our delight and use, suppressives cannot believe this, and so they become habituated to needlessly giving rise to enturbulating thoughts and personal opinions, chasing after these as if they were something real and, stumbling, they sadly fall off the bridge

By their relying on these thoughts and opinions, many and varied are the counter intentions they create.  Do not immerse yourself in entheta or get stuck on pondering over valence or the reactive mind, or speculating on a supreme being, the seventh or eight dynamic, or on whether xenu has existence or not. By following thoughts and opinions like these, you will be unable to consider the correct pathway for training in and practicing scientology

Even so, when, at this very moment, in compliance with auditing, you let go of everything and earnestly take a security check, you will go beyond the boundaries set by any concern that you may have had over being on course.  Uninvolved with whether the bridge is mundane or a big win, you will at once be strolling about in realms of beingness, as you delight in moving from pre-clear to clear.  How can those who are caught in the nets and snares of verbal tech possibly be equal to an operating thetan ? ”


solitude

there’s something seeps into the soul over a while

i can’t say what it is

solitude, there’s something seeps into the soul over a while

i can’t say what it is

are you a talker who can’t produce ! ?

you are a talker who can’t produce !

are you a talker who can’t produce ! ?

or are you a talker who can’t produce ! ?

i was amazed to read the extent to which nixon was responsible for disrupting initial peace talks with north vietnam, like the junior bush he should have been executed !

both traitors of the first water !


my enlightenment poem

going backwards and forwards the doors swing open

the walls dissolve

how

long

an aeon or

two

then things

 reform !

i just wrote that now, was thinking about tung-shan’s

one metal pin holds a pair of locks

the paths for the pin found, its function mysteriously simultaneous

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the metal locks pull each other like meshes of a net

page 66 of the record of tung-shan

since it hasn’t happened to you  (ed. ewk) ,  it will seem strange !

nixonthecrook  comments

this is really good

its a lot of work, isn’t it ?

my  reply

one has to go sideways !

drsoinso thought the poem was awful

my

r e p l y

i write a lot of poetry and there’s one thing i have learnt ,  if i am going to criticize a poem i write a poem in reply

backwards forwards the doors swung

nothing

dissolved

the very energy you are putting forth the viewpoint is destroying you

the very energy you are putting forth the viewpoint with is destroying you

the very energy you are putting forth this viewpoint with is destroying you

tony attwood

we’re breeding chooks, roosters hens and chicks !

we’re breeding chooks, roosters hens and chicks

hypomania burns out the brain, microdose lithium  (i am not suggesting psychiatric doses)  detunes the brain a bit to avoid that

alzheimers and hypomania are quite commonly co-morbid i am afraid, i made my  suggestion  !

ewk, you claim you nailed me, but in reality, who got nailed ?

you claim you nailed me, but in reality, who got nailed ?

my restatement of tung-shan’s  (powell page 66)  three types of  defilements

1.  being involved in circular repetitive views

2.  being unable to break out of one’s habitual value system

3.  churning badly thought out crap

william powell’s translation of the second item is good

the second is defiled emotions

this is said to be entrapment in preferences and repulsions, thus having one’s perspective become one-sided and rigid

ewk, zen is just a construct like everything else, you are fighting phantoms !

zen is just a construct like everything else, you are fighting phantoms !

i made quite a reasonable comment that you seem utterly unable to respond to as a real person

why get tangled in battle combat that can go nowhere ?

a review of  fun home  by lorianne disabato

“ changing my major to joan ”  sung  by abby corrigan

contemplative thinking is an important part of zen  !

contemplative thinking is an important part of zen !

contemplative thinking is an important part of zen

the only valid meditation method is  “ shikanatza ”  which truely understood is   “ instructionless ”  but you can take it as just observing your thoughts, though its not quite that

counting or watching the breath is for the crazies to make crazier and believe me there’s a lot of that ! : o)

religion is a tar baby !

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don’t think you won’t be caught, you already are, it has been evolutionarily designed into the brain !

religion is a tar baby !

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zen is a tar baby !

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the ancient egyptians thought that the heart was the seat of thought and didn’t have any use for the brain

see, they are just ideas except the modern one happens to be functionally correct, the other not, but all the same they are both ideas

its dunning-kruger syndrome, the unenlightened cannot understand they are unenlightened !

r|zen is really a projection of contemporary philosophical motifs and not what zen is about  at  all

you don’t accept you are unenlightened and there is a difference between  “ enlightened ”  and  “ unenlightened ”

when the dogma matches your own

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when the dogma matches your own

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when the dogma matches your own

d

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when the dogma matches your own

disaster

a fayan quote

where there are no words, i forcefully speak out; where there is no dogma, i strongly uphold certain principles

my re-working into something meaningful

where there are claims for wordlessness, how did they make the claim ?

where there is a claim for the absence of dogma, isn’t that a dogma ?

my reply on being queried about what i meant

i really don’t understand how a person with translation experience like yourself  (ed. grass_skirt)  has no epistemological uncertainly about the entity  “ fayan ”  what he actually said, what the transcription was and what the translation is !

what you quoted is actually voynich so i have devoynichated it !

basically the presentation of zen we see is voynich

if you want to read something non voynichated read emily dickinson

there is nothing new about this craziness, witness the millions of theological man-hours put into christian texts, all voynich without redemption in the first place

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some of the disputes and doctrinal positions on r|zen and in real life contemporary zen are as as old as zen itself, fayan is making a specific critique of two pseudo zen doctrines, silent illumination and  “ buji ”  though since no-one meditates  here  you don’t really get  “ silent illumination ”  which however is alive and well in contemporary soto zen

r|zen is of course all  “ buji ”

i think  “ silent illumination ”  is like retirement for alzheimery monks

religion is a flytrap for posturing idiots !

religion is a flytrap for posturing idiots

zen is a flytrap for posturing idiots !

zen is a flytrap for posturing idiots

why did emily dickinson want her poems destroyed ?

pissed off at the attitude of the world ?

alts always destroy a message board, seen it happen on plenty of other message boards, it favours sniping and deceit because you can’t keep track of a person and what they say !

R|zen is always destroyed between the insanity ,  alts ,  this  ,  and moderator censorship against any real zen

a continually unpocketing falaise pocket so to speak

according to geoffrey chaucer  (who had battle experience and was taken prisoner then ransomed)  this is pretty  realistic ,  combat consisted of a lot of bashing on the head !

bipolar people’s brains burn out

 what they should do is look at  lithium water  !

how does it feel to be constitutionally inane ?

how does it feel to be constitutionally inane

no matter what you do, everything becomes unbalanced

fawlty towers then the  entrapment  of the falaise pocket

still unbalanced

no matter what you do, everything becomes unbalanced

behind the scenes  of fawlty towers, sophsticated and intelligent !

there’s the real zen and there’s the fake zen, publicly we only ever see the fake zen, even the translations and transcriptions are fake, the real zen sees life as truely insane, that’s too uncomfortable for normality and imo only really viewable from the celibate perspective

everything is insane and you are living insanity, its very destructive   .    .  !

my visionary experience with the 6th patriarch was more real/significant than what we call reality

we are not talking hallucinations, we are talking visionary insight that sucks you into it then spits you out !

ddrsee asks  (referring to ewk)

 seriously, why do you think he’s under my skin ?

my

r e p l y

you are not comfortable being another inmate in a psychward ?

i’m not either !

the lines blurr, believe me !

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ddrsee  replies

u|ewk is burning in his own hell of stupidity and clinging, we may as well let him know

my

r e p l y

well he’s bipolar, really he is mentally ill and there’s some sort of encroaching dementia as well, not unusual in that sort of continually manic bipolar

he’s quite aware of being bipolar and probably the dementia

r|zen is probably some sort of useful therapy for him and helps keep him out of real world trouble

btw real life zen has a lot of insanity in as well

jason  writes

i’m going to my brother’s house tomorrow

i don’t know how to explain to him that i don’t like how he treats me but i’ll basically say that and hopefully he gets it

my father is going with me and maybe i’ll bring up the drinking thing again   .   .   it seems like he and his wife are basically done

my

r e p l y

family should stick together and not damage each other

your father’s drinking has cost him a sensible woman

he will lose more if he keeps it up

neither of them will  “ get it ”

from the Record of Tung-shan

Later the Master asked this monk  :  What other teachings does Ta-tz’u have ?

The monk replied  :  Once, when addressing the assembly, he said  —  To talk about ten feet is not as good as accomplishing a foot.  To talk about a foot is not as good as accomplishing an inch

I wouldn’t have said it that way opined the Master

How would you have said it, Ho-shang ?  asked the monk

People talk about what they cannot do and do what cannot be talked about replied the Master

my

r e p l y

accomplished foot is evanescent, and an inch

what are these fools blathering about ?

i do know what i’m on about

i do know and i don’t know what i am on about

i do know what i’m on about

i do know and i don’t know

what i am on about

i do know what i’m on about

i do and don’t know what i am on about

i do know what i’m on about

i do and i don’t know what i am on about

the moon, a bright hard ball of

light

the land below

just cold and lit

in the moonlight

the moon, a bright hard ball of

light

the land below

just cold and lit

in the moonlight

a full moon, a bright hard ball of

light

the land below

just cold and lit

in the moonlight


a full moon, a bright hard ball of

light

the land below

just cold and lit

in the moonlight

a bald full moon

shining down

nothing really

to

say

a bald full moon

shining down

nothing really

to

say

a bald full moon

shining down

nothing really

to

say

a bald full moon

shining down

nothing really to say

the brain default circuit which is the daydreaming and contemplative mode is the earliest affected   by alzheimer’s  !

could this explain the schizophrenia of a lot of meditators and r|meditation ?

full of the drug and alcohol brain damaged ?

gudo nishijima did a lot of meditation in his last alzheimery years !

the brain function most apparent in meditation also shows alzheimer’s the earliest, i think this cuts both ways, those with dysfunctional default networks may find it difficult to meditate and those who do meditate with awol default mode networks will not effectively  “ contemplate ”

jason  writes

roasted cashews give me a stomach ache

my  reply

basically i don’t eat nuts at all

jason  writes

i can also stretch that i’ve worked at my brother’s company

i do work there just not in the office but instead soccer training

my  reply

why not be honest about the soccer training, its a skill that may match some employers needs

you seem to be dishonest to your own disadvantage

you are good with people so a customer service job would suit

jason  opines

for these dead end jobs i can say on my resume i graduated college and they wouldn’t second guess

my

r e p l y

the truth is better bent than outright lied about, with the net its easy to check on people now, remember us tracking down that scofflaw ?

what they are looking for with dead end jobs is no drug use, reliability, physical health and robustness, the ability to do as you are told and competence, not educational attainments

the truth is better bent than outright lied about

the truth is better bent than outright lied

what i have noticed with ewk is when he is forced to be real he just drops the thread and pops up somewhere else like nothing happened

that is actually schizophrenia, that always turning away from life’s crunch points, rather typical of people in zen and i don’t exclude myself ! :o(

ewk, why not tell us about your experience within the mental health system ?

it seems an odd blend of naivety and experience, quite characteristic of those who have been within it in my observation !

you seem to think being within it is a natural state, i assure you its not !

a good post by brad warner on zen and parenting

basically meditation gives a needed  self awareness  and default mode processing

takes you out of the bad circles in your life ?

posting nonsense on r|zen would be a bad circle ?

emily dickinson’s last words

i have not died

sanity appears mentally ill to the mentally ill  !

sanity appears mentally ill to the mentally ill !

sanity appears mentally ill to the mentally ill

a monk asked  :  what does it mean to say  that which enters through the door is nothing precious ?

dongshan replied  :  it would be better to disregard that

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a monk asked  :  what does it mean to say  that which enters through the door is nothing precious ?

the 7th/2nd patriarch replied

what does it mean ?

and kicked them both back to the 9th century !

jason has an interest in blackjack and wonders about playing $10 hands after practicing on a free site and doing well

my

r e p l y

good dealers can move cards in and out of the deck without you being able to see

a free site might bias the odds in your favour as a deliberate ploy to get you playing real life

the guy who shot all those people in las vagas had been losing significant amounts of money gambling since 2015, but churning enough dough to get freebie accomodation etc

he had made his money years earlier in real estate

i do wonder if its actually money laundering that keeps the gambling industry afloat

as far as i can see its almost impossible to beat the house !

when the greenland ice sheets melt  completely , they will have added another seven and a half meters to the world’s sea level !

if their reading age is sub par, so will their writing age be

 “ Why did the First Patriarch come from the West ? ”

the usual reason

 what’s that ?

 trouble at home !

so emily dickinson wasn’t a hermit at all and her  social circle  was the servants rather than the gentry !

dihya  a model for  ayesha ?

physical pain i would say is undeniably  life destroying  and there is no possibility of redeeming it with meaning

havi carel

ewk, why do you think trying to control a subreddit through constant hassling of posters has any point ?

the only point of posting is to explore and develop and work through what you know and various ideas and experiences

as it is you function as some sort of beta reader for me, i’m not complaining !

to just paste without crediting the author or translator is disrespectful to them !

jason  writes

problems with the portuguese diet are they eat a lot of potatoes and bread, not a lot of vegetables and the most common vegetable at least where i was was cabbage, and they eat desserts way more often like its not uncommon to have dessert at least once a day

i walked away from portugal with a strong sugar addiction

i had cream in portugal and it was good, even though it came in a box unrefrigerated  .   .   milk came the same way

when i was making cheese in massachuetts i learned about pasteurizing milk with ultra high temperatures and slower heating techniques, the farm i worked at used the slow process and the milk definitely tasted better from it

ewk, you have this huge issue with not looking at what upsets you !

things look a certain way to you because they never can change since you refuse to look at what doesn’t fit !

this is despite you not fitting conventional life at all, how pathetic, wannabe suburbane normalites !

jason  asks

do you ever eat/use butter ?

my  reply

i don’t really use butter, rather animal fat or EVOO  (taking care not to have the temperature above 139° celsius)  for frying and cream otherwise, cream i feel is nutritionally superior to butter

looking at what you don’t want to see, or disrupts your view of things is the  “ mystical path ”  and part of life actually

birds of a feather may flock together, but that doesn’t make everything they do identical !

birds of a feather may flock together, but that doesn’t make everything they do identical

go across to r|meditation to see how meditation reinforces insanity !

zishou miaozong had a visionary experience as a child !

beata grant has had a  mystical experience  looking at buddha statues

feeling left out ewk ?

well you don’t do any real work like the rest of r|zen, just churning stupidity like it means something  !

the magpies and ravens here are really smart in a human way !

the magpies and ravens here are really smart in a human way

muhammad is the central character in a paedophile fantasy

is this going to get me killed ?

i don’t think so  !

muhammad is the central character in a paedophile fantasy

taking testosterone can cause long term health problems

its not good to keep animals with health problems around

especially cats

its not good to keep animals with health problems around

from case 29 of  ‘ zen echoes ’  by beata grant

xuefeng knocked on wushi’s door

“ who is it ? ”  wushi inquired

“ the son of the haemaphrodite phoenix ”  replied xuefeng

“ what are you up to ? ”  asked wushi.  “ i have come to chew on old guan ”

wushi opened up the door and grabbing hold of xuefeng said,  “ speak ! speak ! ”

when xuefeng hesitated, wushi kicked him out and closed the door

afterward, xuefeng instructed the assembly, saying,  “ at that time if i had been able to enter the gate of old guan, what would you bunch of gobblers of dregs have to grope for ? ”

wikipedia says the chinese phoenix is made up of the beak of a rooster, the face of a swallow, the forehead of a fowl, the neck of a snake, the breast of a goose, the back of a tortoise, the hindquarters of a stag and the tail of a fish

miaozong’s verse on the case

the full-grown son of the feathered and winged phoenix

happened to get it all wrong there below old guan’s gate

in the still silence, he suddenly remembered an old debt

and returning to say goodbye, tried to take advantage

my  replies

i would have just shut the door on xuefeng !

he sunk himself on his first words !

basically xuefeng was claiming enlightenment and wushi didn’t approve !

xuefeng says himself he was not enlightened at the time !

dunno that miaozong’s verse is translated correctly !

buddhism is a literary construct, that’s easier to see than in zen because  “ the buddha ”  etc is a sort of spiritual soap opera and obviously scripted

zen however has real people, joshu, the sixth patriarch, miaozong, baochi, zukui, ziyong chengru, dogen etc

i think there’s them as people and then there’s the shared literary basis and actually the shared literary basis is what’s known as zen

of course they also have become the shared literary basis

zen is not a religion but personal discovery, people from a christian, especially protestant cultural background have a hard time with the  “ non doctrinality ”  of the zen records and literature !


the blinds once lifted

reveal a view

surreal in its absoluteness

 why is it we wish for the days before they were lifted ?

zen is a literary construct !

same with christianity and muhammadism !

endless arguing and murder over words, unbelievable !

zen is a literary construct !

same with christianity and muhammadism !

zen is a literary construct !

zen is a literary construct


i’ll be crying bloody water  till i die

the great grand children of georg von trapp and his first wife, agathe whitehead

racing is a con game run by the trainers and jockeys

everyone else is a sucker

racing is a con game run by the trainers and jockeys

flu vaccines have an intrinsic flaw in the manufacturing process most likely explaining the H3N2 virus  prevalence  this year

adolf hitler, who killed so many men had a cushy ,  behind  the front line job in WWI !

huh, pinocchio is a relatively  modern story 

A monk once asked :  Since all dharmas are void, the nature of consciousness must  .  .  etc

“ A monk ”

“ A ”

 the rest passed me by !

what does   ‘ epistomological modesty ’  mean ?

a surprising uncertainty of outcome compared to what we think might happen !

what does   ‘ epistomological modesty ’  mean ?

what does   ‘ epistomological modesty ’  mean

i wish you weren’t mad ewk, but that’s just my wish

its a sign of the insane, they argue with the insane

i’ve gone to some remote places

everywhere is remote

i wondered why i hadn’t heard of  brandon dewilde  at all, but he was killed aged thirty in a car accident, nothing to suggest that fate in store except some dissociation !

he played  joey  in  ‘ shane ’

nothing new about harvey weinstein, the look on seventeen years old laurie peter’s face is  priceless


a quote from pages 42 and 43 of beata grant’s  “ zen echoes ”

there’s a woman in samadhi, sitting near the buddha.  manjusri asks buddha why she gets to sit there.  the buddha asks manjusri to bring her out of samadhi.  manjusri fails and a bodhisattva named not-clear succeeds where manjusri  (who is higher in the pantheon than not-clear)  had failed

chan master miaozong’s ode

gold is not bartered for gold

nor water washed with water

there is no two to be transformed into one

 how can there be a not-clear and a manjusri ?

 how can one scratch through one’s boot soles ?

my  reply

actually, that’s a really good koan and highlights the difference between buddhism and zen and actually most zen and the tiny amount of authentic zen today

the buddhist story is the conventional view of enlightenment and quite wrong, maiozong’s is the enlightened view

the feet weren’t there so why suffer boot soles ?

gold is bartered for gold and water filtered with water

two is the absence of one and not-clear mates with manjusri !

there’s an  (attractive, large breasted young)  woman in samadhi, sitting near the buddha.  manjusri asks buddha why she gets to sit there

fail manjusri !

: o (

the net, endless overwriting of ourselves by other people’s lives

the endless overwriting of ourselves by other people’s lives

jason discusses his father’s drinking with him

i said it was starting to become a problem and that his wife would leave him for it and he said  “ its not starting to become a problem ”  and i said we were his family so we would know better than his friends and he didn’t have a response

he has an extreme liking for his friends

my  comment

 very well said !

do not be stuck in concepts

and your words will flash like lightning

zukui  jifu

i never found ted hughes’ poetry that interesting

the enlightened ch’an nuns zukui jifu and ziyong chengru, the poems by ziyong on page 174 are good !

good  book ,  there are other nuns too !

Dogen didn’t study with Rujing

i have researched this and there’s no question in my mind that dogen went to china and studied with rujing

however rujing did not give him lineage transmission as he  (rujing)  was dead against it and dogen’s rather swanky lineage document is forged, probably by dogen and one of his monks !

dogen was in a very competitive religious environment and may have felt that was needed, its not necessarily invalid and doesn’t reflect badly on him in any way !

i do know that recent research has validated his description of the stairway of a chinese monastery , his description had been previously assumed to be wrong

he wasn’t a working monk, he was upper class and had a sponsor and so likely had a lot of free time in the monasteries and other places he stayed

dogen wrote chinese, some of his works are in chinese, and imported chinese buddhist texts were studied in the chinese in japan !

a Hajime Nakamura quote or puke, which ever way you look at it !

Dogen is critical of the Zen Buddhism of China.  He chooses from the Chinese Zen Buddhism only those elements which he thinks will suit his own standpoint.  The words of a Chinese Zen Buddhist, Yao-shan  (751–834) contains the phrase  “ at a certain time ”

Dogen interprets this phrase unjustifiably as  “ Being Time ”  and comments as follows  “ So-called  ‘ Being Time ’ means that time already is being and all being is time ” 

From this free-wheeling comment, Dogen goes on to develop his unique philosophy of time, according to which the ever-changing, incessant temporal flux is identified with ultimate being itself

my

r e p l y

its not that there’s flux, but the supposed entity itself is flux

there is no time in which things change or may be static, but that change itself is time

time doesn’t exist, or rather is a cretinous construct

i really think that a lot of dogen is not a translation of him at all, but projections by the translators

alcohol ,  pot or what ?

alcohol, pot or what ?

alcohol, pot or what

i’ve seen middle aged people  “ commit suicide ”  with drink

that’s what they are doing

they don’t understand why

i’ve seen middle aged people like him  “ commit suicide ”  with drink

that’s what he’s doing

he doesn’t understand why

no-one should ever get drunk more than once or twice in their lives  !

no-one should ever get drunk more than once or twice in their lives !

no-one should ever get drunk more than once or twice in their lives

theologians are the biggest nutcases around

roaring schizophrenics actually

theologians are the biggest nutcases around

its an odd thing, unbeknown to ourselves, to become a different person

its an odd thing, unbeknowst to ourselves, to become a different person

its an odd thing, to become a different person unbeknown to ourselves

its an odd thing, to become a different person unbeknowest to ourselves

life will absorb all the projection we can give it

the crazy moth got drawn into the sane man’s flame to be beaten again

 who got eaten ?

the crazy moth got drawn into the sane man’s flame to be beaten again !

the crazy moth got drawn into the sane man’s flame to be beaten again

something is bad not because its bad, its bad for  reasons

what are those reasons ?

something is bad not because its bad, its bad for  ‘ reasons ’

what are those reasons ?

how many nice summers days in a life ?

ten, fifteen, twenty

is it being less than it should be ?

on the surface of the world, women are beholden to men

in reality men are the servants of women

in christian terms  that’s  theology and as crazy !

“ in christian terms, theology isn’t crazy ” 

if christian churches didn’t believe some doctrine was crazy, then they wouldn’t schism and they always seem to schism, there have been times when the catholic church had two popes for instance, one in avignon and one in rome, let alone major schisms like the roman, orthodox and protestant churches

zen runs the full gamut of strongly religious like the rochester zen center which is buddhist, to its own schism, toni packer and the springwater center which is completely non denominational

but in theory zen doesn’t have a theology though in practice it does !

interestingly the major schism in christianity occurred very early and the losing party got all traces wiped out, that was a gnostic or allegorical jesus versus versus an historically real one, the latter won because if you can impart an historical belief in the founder, then the religion is self validating and the usual  “ there’s no divine justice ”  issues are countered by the supposed historical existence of the messenger of god or whatever

buddhism is also dependent on the supposed historical reality of shakyamuni who is fact when seen truly is a just a very boring novel character mouthing sententious nonsense !

funnily enough peter was an historical person, like paul and james, all leaders of a very anti-temple jewish cult !

paul was on the road to damascus to persecute this cult on behalf of the temple cult, but he changed sides ! : o)

if today seems mad, previous times were as mad or madder ! : o)(

pontius pilate was also historical, an ignorant rather shallow brutal type from what little can be gleaned about him, not like portrayed in the gospels at all !

the golden rule is do you have a better use for your time ?

the golden rule is do you have a better use for your time

its not very readable, you have a grossly inflated opinion of your verbal competence and understanding

r|zen is just  ’tarded cripples throwing their sticks at each other !


you can consume yourself in  ‘ good deeds ’ ,  but they are irrelevant

you can consume yourself in good deeds, but they are irrelvant

the humourless on reddit who think themselves funny

standdown comedians

the humourless on reddit who think themselves funny

markdown comedians

people who use pot to anaesthetize themselves during traumatic experiences such as a relationship problem or the death of some-one close discredit themselves to their life experience as they void the recognition of something essential, failure  .   .

everyone talks on the web, no-one  ‘ does ’  !

everyone talks on the web, no-one  ‘ does ’

everyone talks on the web, no-one does

ewk, you’re a hypocrite and stupid arsehole and crazy crazy to boot   .   .   .

you are in your  “ kindly uncle psychiatrist ”  persona at the moment, it was a bit of a revelation to see your  “ the only poems are sonnets ”  school teacher persona earlier

anyway your little shrivelled arsehole self at the center of all the personas, so afraid to come out and be yourself   .   .

unfortunately for you, dull witted ’tard is not a persona !

ewk, you’re a hypocrite and stupid arsehole and crazy crazy to boot   .   .   .

you’re a hypocrite and stupid arsehole and crazy crazy to boot   .   .   .

listen beneath the moon to the  pipa  on the river

its player spilling out her guts for others to hear

at heavens edge she bemoans the lack of a confidante

turning another song about the sorrows of years gone by

a poem by the seventeenth century chinese zen nun baochi jizong page  66

ewk, nothing dents a real crazy like you does it ?

the mistake is to think you are open to reason, all you are open to is how great you are !

nothing dents a real crazy like you does it ?

the mistake is to think you are open to reason, all you are open to is how great you are !

what do  you  say ?

zen is just like christianity, everyone preaching the words of another because they are intellectually and spiritually bankrupt, why not think about your complete lack of understanding despite your years of supposed practice !

you are not going to hear me, but its all crap  (ed. the zen records)  unless you are enlightened by an inner understanding you don’t have, unbelievable !

ewk, your reply is your usual obnoxious avoidance

your reply is your usual obnoxious avoidance

if its my opinion it must be right

life is full of giant fuck-ups we can never be reconciled to

why is it like this ?

our lives are full of giant fuck-ups we can never be reconciled to

why is it like this ?

our lives are full of giant fuck-ups we can never be reconciled to

ewk, you are cripplingly ill-informed !

you are cripplingly ill-informed !

you are cripplingly ill-informed

“ silent illumination ”  is heterodox, how bullshit gets carried over fifty generations is beyond me, people devoting their lives to crap, i have come to believe in blind idiocy !

the hook turns outward

the man with the outwards turning hook

doesn’t

catch

anything

the hook turns outward

the man with the outwards turning hook doesn’t catch anything

in christian terms zen academics write theology and its as crazy !

in christian terms zen academics write theology and its as crazy

“ every time somebody corrects you ”

ewk, this is your insanity, you think saying makes it so !

you  “ meta ”  something as right or wrong but you never go into any detail why

“ every time somebody corrects you ”

this is your insanity, you think saying makes it so !

you  “ meta ”  something as right or wrong but you never go into any detail why

“ the hook turns inwards ”

the fakes get caught

this

is

too

hard for

them

to

bite

the truth of a poem

the insane

cannot handle

the inward hook pierces them


miaozong’s  versification  of jiashan’s awakening

on the limitless misty waves, a leaf of a boat

the line at the end of the pole bobs up and down

 if the hook is three inches short, what will you say ?

the golden-scaled fish will secretly nod their heads

my  reply

the river’s waves

limitless in the mist

the hook turns inwards

what is the weirdest thing in the world ?

its staring us right in the eyes

all

the time

male and female

we accept it as the reality, but its not so

what is the weirdest thing in the world ?

its staring us right in the eyes

all

the time

male and female

we each accept it as the reality, but its not so

what is the weirdest thing in the world ?

its staring us right in the eyes

all

the time

male and female

this is going to sound a bit weird, but there’s some books that can transport you into a different life space ,  northhanger abbey  is one of them !

the mad, logic and conciliation are outside their sphere

the mad, logic and conciliation outside their sphere

life, the insane stupid

life, the stupid insane

zen, the stupid insane

r|zen, the stupid insane

to the insane i say, go away why do i have to suffer your own insanity on top of my own problems ?

the sheer dull stupidity of the mentally insane is eye opening !

the sheer dull stupidity of the mentally insane is eye opening

my one bit of life advice  “ sitback and let others take the damage ”

its an odd business the mating game, you spend the rest of your life with a stranger, for better or worse as the oath says

men never understand the community of women they revolve around

its an odd business the mating game, you spend the rest of your life with a stranger, for better or worse

men never understand the community of women they revolve around