this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed   !


















yikes, not much blood  flow  in an old brain !


ed.  check out the video which is also  here !


“ new studies suggest blood from young mice has rejuvenating effects on older mice, and may lead to new therapeutic approaches to age-related diseases in humans


this particular growth factor found in young mice's blood, known as GDF11, helps to regulate the aging process in brain and muscle tissue


the studies were based on procedures in which one young and old mouse are joined together by a single circulatory system ”


: o()
















magical realism,  lars von trier,  the opening  sequence  to melancholia


the music is by william emmanual bevan  (stage name burial)  which is different from the original soundtrack and having listened to both, i would say is much better ! :o)
















freedom of expression does not  extend  to covert threats !


my real life experience of this sort of thing is it stinks of drug culture and use !


god that can be violent ! :o(
















work can be a bummer for narrowing focus


big mistake to get too wrapped up in work ,  learnt that one the hard way  !  : o ) (
















work can be a bummer for narrowing focus


big mistake to get too wrapped up in work,  learnt that one the hard way  !  : o ) (
















work can be a bummer for narrowing focus


big mistake to get too wrapped up in work, learnt that one the hard way ! :o)(
















there's too much protein and iron in the paleo diet!
















yeah complete vegan is a little unusual, imo people do it to reduce their iron intake !


all the monasteries and zen centers I visited were vegetarian except for a tibetan place which actually had the best health of any of the places i visited !


I used to be anti vegetarian but the joke was on me because I definitely do better with less iron in my diet but I get my iron down by  donating  blood !


I think the poor diet combined with a lot of pre-existing health conditions in the people at zen centers broke the center/monastic system down, it's still there, but sorta limps along...........


vegetarianism used to be done much more intelligently
but now they just pile in the wheat flour ! :o()
















what zen is about is something you have to see through  yourself  ,  you are saying that's not so and all one has to do is repeat religious nonsense  (buddhist in your case ! :o(


ewk is just quoting old masters who have seen through this for themselves !


it's a lifetime's work and very very hard, you just want a shortcut ! :o(


when you are enlightened you can talk from your own experience and know the sutras and all that nonsense for the crap they are promulgated by mean minded half wits !


: o )
















“ have you really got results with the BCD and compendium? ”


my


reply


yeah i am   in very very good health ! 


quite weird in a way. i'm old enough that I see everyone falling away around me with health problems  : o (


sort

of


a time


warp !

:


o


(


)
















“ have you really got results with the BCD and compendium? ”


my


reply


yeah i am   in very very good health ! 


quite weird in a way. i'm old enough that I see everyone falling away around me with health problems :o(


sort

of


a time


warp !

:


o


(


)
















“ have you really got results with the BCD and compendium? ”


my


reply


yeah i am   in very very good health ! 


quite weird in a way. i'm old enough that I see everyone falling away around me with health problems :o(


sort

of


a time


warp !
















  soylent will kill you ! 


:o)(


the stupidity of the masses ! :o(


it's basically trying to simulate natural food in an insufficient and foreign way to what our biochemistry has been designed for and feeds malign biofilm/microbiome ! 
















  soylent   will  kill  you  !


: o ) (


the  stupidity  of  the  masses  !  : o (
















  soylent  will kill you !


:o)(


the stupidity of the masses ! :o(
















I have gut problems so i do the biofilm/microbiome carbohydrate   diet  and compendium supplement program !


The older version of the diet, the scd diet is  here


the  Houston  afp pep, no fenol, zyme prime and bromelain  enzymes are useful
they really help with digestion and also possibly weight loss!


I think without doing the above, I would have IBS, I do notice that most people in zen don't eat well enough to sustain the mental vigour needed for it !
















contrary to what you might think, when people juice vegetables
they doing themselves a lot of damage !


  their digestions must be a mess ! 
















contrary to what you might think, when people juice vegetables
they doing themslves a lot of damage !


their digestions are a mess !
















“ anyone who knows  dementia  knows they sound utterly reasonable for 10 minutes ! ”
















“ anyone who knows dementia knows they sound utterly reasonable for 10 minutes ! ”
















“ anyone who knows dementia knows they sound utterly reasonable for 10 minutes ”
















what you love


you


have


to


let


go


!

:


o


(


)
















what you love


you


have


to


let


go
















what you love ,  you have to let go
















what you love,  you have to let go
















what you love, you have to let go ! :o()
















“ does anyone actually practice daily meditation here on reddit zen or only debate and read lots of books ?  just curious ”


what you might better ask  since meditation makes so many narrow minded looneys ,  is  “ why doesn't it work ! ? ”
















“ does anyone actually practice daily meditation here on reddit zen or only debate and read lots of books ?  just curious ”


what you might better ask since meditation makes so many narrow minded looneys, is  “ why doesn't it work ! ? ”
















you need to read great  minds ,  not medicocre minds  !  : o )(
















you need to read great  minds ,  not medicocre minds ! :o)(
















you need to read great minds, not medicocre minds ! :o)(
















  meditation is recursive ,  basically you need a strong sense of    other  and to read   quality  for it not to become a destructive inward spiral !


for most, it becomes another drug !
















  meditation is recursive ,  basically you need a strong sense of    other  and to read   quality  for it not to become a destructive inward spiral !


for most, it becomes a drug !
















meditation is recursive, basically you need a strong sense of    other  and to read   quality  for it not to become a destructive inward spiral !


for most, it becomes a drug !
















meditation is recursive, basically you need a strong sense of   other  and to read   quality  for it not to become a destructive inward spiral !
















getting more thoughtful in my old age,  and maybe  saying less  !  :  o { . . . . , } . {  .  .  .
















i am getting more thoughtful in my old age,  and maybe  saying less ! : o{....,}.{ . . .
















i am getting more thoughtful in my old age ,  and maybe  saying less
















i am getting more thoughtful in my old age ,  and  maybe  saying  less
















i am getting more thoughtful in my old age ,  and  maybe  saying  less
















i am getting more thoughtful in my old age ,  and  maybe saying less
















i am getting more thoughtful in my old age and maybe saying less
















getting more thoughtful in my old age ,  and maybe saying less


r1p1
















getting more thoughtful in my old age ,  and maybe saying less


r1
















the world has four corners ,  where do you fit ?
















the world has four corners,  where do you fit ?
















the world has four corners, where do you fit?
















  there's two viewpoints of what zen is ! 


one  is   that it's relatively accessible and with  “practice”  a good understanding is attainable by anyone, and you can sort of muddle on in a satisfactory way by conforming to  practice  and listening to the teacher/roshi etc !


the  other   is that a true understanding is so extremely rare that it's more like one person in a generation who  “ gets it ” ,  like  99.99%  of the teachers and students would be better to improve their golf handicaps than murder what zen is really about the way they do..................


so when we look at the great masters of old like joshu and yunmen we are looking at people isolated in their time, the only ones with a good understanding berating the world for its stupidity which is pretty much how it comes across.................


that sort of understanding only comes from a degree of dysfunctionality and disengagement from life and the common human motivations that is not really available to  “ married with kids ”  and suburban zen..............


extended periods of celibacy and I would say a lifetime childlessness is needed to get that sort of focus...................


if you are celibate and really interested in what it's about you'll sort it out, wrong minded teachers etc will throw you for a while but you will veer back......................


if you are living the suburban life and  “ married with kids ”  however you'll never veer back because the dynamic is quite different and you will never go into the very strange spaces and states necessary because they are too personally destructive to you and your family


so this  meiji zen  that is current in the west is totally the wrong approach for most people who with their living situation need to take a/the   wisdom literature   viewpoint which is gaining a much better understanding of life and themselves in a very functional way.............


that it helps your life not hinders it whereas dysfunctional celibate which is truer but more insane and very unsafe is falling into the potholes and barely escaping...............
















  there's two viewpoints of what zen is ! 


one  is that it's relatively accessible and with  “practice”  a good understanding is attainable by anyone, and you can sort of muddle on in a satisfactory way by conforming to  practice  and listening to the teacher/roshi etc !


the  other  is   that a true understanding is so extremely rare that it's more like one person in a generation who  “ gets it ” ,  like  99.99%  of the teachers and students would be better to improve their golf handicaps than murder what zen is really about the way they do..................


so when we look at the great masters of old like joshu and yunmen we are looking at people isolated in their time, the only ones with a good understanding berating the world for its stupidity which is pretty much how it comes across.................


that sort of understanding only comes from a degree of dysfunctionality and disengagement from life and the common human motivations that is not really available to  “ married with kids ”  and suburban zen..............


extended periods of celibacy and I would say a lifetime childlessness is needed to get that sort of focus...................


if you are celibate and really interested in what it's about you'll sort it out, wrong minded teachers etc will throw you for a while but you will veer back......................


if you are living the suburban life and  “ married with kids ”  however you'll never veer back because the dynamic is quite different and you will never go into the very strange spaces and states necessary because they are too personally destructive to you and your family


so this  meiji zen  that is current in the west is totally the wrong approach for most people who with their living situation need to take a/the   wisdom literature   viewpoint which is gaining a much better understanding of life and themselves in a very functional way.............


that it helps your life not hinders it whereas dysfunctional celibate which is truer but more insane and very unsafe is falling into the potholes and barely escaping...............
















re:   staying at centers


the main things are food, health, getting a decent nights sleep and oh so most important, avoiding women !


ed.  avoiding women in the relationship/sexual sense  !  :  o  )  .  .  . { . , : !  {  .


sit on a vertical cushion or seiza and not lotus if you can !


don't assume the teacher/s know what they are on about !


if you are visiting centers it's important to avoid any romantic liaisons !


the harsh truth of zen is it is a celibate tradition and only works in that context !
















re:  staying at centers


the main things are food, health, getting a decent nights sleep and oh so most important, avoiding women !


ed.  avoiding women in the relationship/sexual sense ! : o ) . . .{ . ,: ! { .


sit on a vertical cushion or seiza and not lotus if you can !


don't assume the teacher/s know what they are on about !


if you are visiting centers it's important to avoid any romantic liaisons !


the harsh truth of zen is it is a celibate tradition and only works in that context !
















re:  staying at centers


the main things are food, health, getting a decent nights sleep and oh so most important, avoiding women !


ed.  avoiding women in the relationship/sexual sense ! :o). . .{ . ,: ! { .


sit on a vertical cushion or seiza and not lotus if you can !


don't assume the teacher/s know what they are on about !


if you are visiting centers it's important to avoid any romantic liaisons !


the harsh truth of zen is it is a celibate tradition and only works in that context !
















re:  staying at centers


the main things are food, health, getting a decent nights sleep and oh so most important, avoiding women !


sit on a vertical cushion or seiza and not lotus if you can !


don't assume the teacher/s know what they are on about !


if you are visiting centers it's important to avoid any romantic liaisons !


the harsh truth of zen is it is a celibate tradition and only works in that context !
















maybe you have low  thyroid  function if you are feeling fatigued


you can check your thyroid function by putting a couple of drops of topical iodine tincture on the underside of the wrist and seeing what that does to how you feel and your energy levels !


I use the gold cross iodine tincture, not all pharmacies have it !


povidine also has a fair whack of iodine in !


just be cautious, it is a poison


also you want to test your reaction with a very small amount just in case you have an autoimmunity problem and go a bit hyper :o) !
















i used to take a 1000 iu of vitamin D a day and I think I needed it, but have been donating blood for last couple of years to get my iron levels down


so you lose iron out of the liver, when this happens it really reduces your need for vitamin D, high iron levels in the liver oxidize the vitamin D !


so 1000iu sorta makes me a bit dopey and I now take a couple of drops  (250iu?)  out of those blackmores capsules a day !


I must say I don't think  vitamin  D gives more energy, sorta can be the opposite actually !


I take the blackmore's 1000iu, easily the best one on the market imo !


what I found with the others is that the vitamin D degrades because it doesn't have a preservative in which the blackmores does !


Daily vitamin D is the best way to take it !


I know it's quite fragile and really it needs a preservative and if the supplement doesn't have a preservative then degradation is something you might reasonably expect !


it may not even be as simple as a reduced amount, but toxic analogs formed


basically I have tried a lot of different D3 supplements and the blackmore's is the only one that has cut the ice to date, but that's my judgment and not any blood test !


and actually blood tests doesn't tell you any thing about wether there are any toxisterols or isomer issues !


it's an interesting molecule with very large gaps in knowledge about it


I have actually been able to make huge amounts of vitamin D2 by irridating  shiitake  mushrooms with a UVB  lamp  I built


you can ingest 100's of thousands of iu  (a guess)  by eating the mushrooms
and man does that knock you flat !


I do find that the blackmores in combination with strong sun  (summer !)  and maybe some irridated mushroom vit D occasionally and also my homemade UVB lamp works best !
















nada te turbe


nada te espante


the waves of the sea of life


rolling and crashing


i


am not


perturbed


i


am not


disturbed !
















nada te turbe


nada te espante


the waves of the sea of life


rolling and crashing


i


am not


perturbed or disturbed !
















nada te turbe


nada te espante


the waves of the sea


rolling and crashing


i


am not


perturbed


i


am not


disturbed !
















nada te turbe


nada te espante


the waves of the sea


rolling and crashing


i


am not


perturbed or disturbed !
















mystical christianity and Sufism correspond to zen !


zen is outside zen !
















mystical christianity and Sufism correspond to zen !



zen is outside zen  !
















mystical christianity and Sufism correspond to zen !



zen is outside zen !
















yeah  the borg  is an interesting human    paradigm  ! : 0 )(
















yeah  the borg  is an interesting human paradigm ! : o )(
















yeah the borg is an interesting human  paradigm  !
















health matters need results  and medicine is very good for some things like surgery and infectious diseases and very poor at other things like bowel conditions !


why medicine is so poor at the dietary side of things is it is too time intensive to get right, it just doesn't fit the medical time/cost structure !


simple dietary concepts take weeks and months of work to implement, if you were doing that on a medical charging basis you would be up hundreds of thousands of dollars just to start !


medicine is about money I am afraid ! :o(


you can't pretend with health............. viewpoints, doctrine..................anything............. imagination ! ................


nothing matters except what works and the USA is a good example of money and proxying creating some of the worst health in the world !


--------------


another problem with medicine and bowel conditions is it is still stuck in the 1960's !


people who take the medical route eventually end up with rather nasty operations
and are in a downward spiral !
















hypnotically sinister  !


buddhism, zen or  psychosis ?


or


all


three


!

:


o


)


(
















Pregnancy on Ulcerative Colitis  medications 


I'm am a 25 year old female with Ulcerative Colitis. I was diagnosied in Fall of 2012. I am currently taking Colazal  (Balsalazide)  Three pills, three times daily


My husband and I recently started to discuss having a family. My questions are.... Is it safe to take this medication while pregnant? If I take this medication while pregnant; will it harm the baby? What would happen to my colon/me if I did not take the medication while pregnant? Could I still breastfeed? Are there any other women out there who have gone through a pregnancy with this condition that could shed some insight to me...?


I know you're thinking...   “ Talk to your doctor! ”  I already did speak with my GI doctor, but I would like to hear opinions and experiences from others
Thanks for taking the time to read this


my


reply


I think the underlying condition is also a significant factor !


Anecdotal evidence like  this  is distressing to read !:o(


“ This is going to be a bit long but please bare with me.....I am in dire need of some help/answers. I am the mother of 3 young boys and 3 months after my 2nd son was born I was diagnosed with UC, at the time only 10 cm of my colon was in involved, 3 months later, I found out that I was pregnant with my 3rd son who will soon be 2 (Aug 6th). Before I knew that I was pregnant I was taking Colazal to keep my UC under control. I was very sick off and on during my pregnancy, at one time I was in the hospital for a couple of days to stop my labor from being so dehydrated. I continued to take the Colazal off and on throughout my pregnancy so that I wouldn't have early labor.


3 months after delivering my 3rd son, I went to see a new doctor, when he scoped me, he found that the UC had spread like wildfire throughout my entire colon, I was hospitalized and started treatment to get into remission. I tell you all of that to get to my question.......my son was born with a dimple just above his rectum (they thought that he may have Spina Bifida, after a MRI, we found that the dimple was closed), 2 months later he was hospitalized for a week with RSV, 2 months later we found out that he had trachia mylasia (which is a narrowing in the esophogus), which later corrected itself and he outgrew that. We have had multiple ear infections and our lastest discovery is that he has a develpmental delay, which is going to lead to years of therapy and a hard road ahead for us. Is there anyone else that took this drug while they were pregnant and if so have you had any medical issues at all with your child???


I have 2 perfectly heathly and very smart boys prior to my last pregnancy and I can't help but think that me taking this drug has contributed to some of the issues. I don't tell any of the women that are pregnant and taking this med to scare you, I am just in need of some answers and if I can prevent any mother from going thru what I have been thru, that is my goal ”
















I had a grade three acromioclavicular joint separation from splitting firewood and what I did was completely avoid any use of the joint to the extent possible !


I also took 1000iu of vitamin D3 a day for quite a quite which helped,
maybe it reduced the inflammation?


It was pretty improved in six months and in two years it's not really a problem,
except I avoid loading the joint !


I even built a homemade uvb  lamp  which I think helped !


--------------


for a 20 year old there may be some hope, but I had a grade three injury with the  “ bump ”  and I  was in my early fifties when it happened !


recovery really depends of the degree of injury, that is, is the joint permanently destabilized in which case the outcome will be like I have described since the joint moves in a different way as a result of the injury !


So I can't use the joint for any sort of heavy work basically !


but there's no pain and pretty well a full range of movement except it's not a good idea to use the arm above the shoulder much at all !
















the three treasures


buddha  ‑  a con


dharma  ‑  a con


sangha  ‑  a bunch of dumb  slit your throat for nothing arseholes ! :o( 
















the three treasures


buddha  ‑  a con


dharma  ‑  a con


sangha  ‑  a bunch of dumb slit your throat for nothing arseholes ! :o(


















Buddha  ‑  a con


Dharma  ‑  a con


sangha  ‑  a bunch of dumb slit your throat for nothing arseholes ! :o(
















the colman barks rumi translations are


shit  laced  candyfloss  !


if you read rumi in a literal translation you start to realize how shortchanged this nonsense is, very full of fine grained cross referenced allusions that possibly cannot ever be translated


barks's saccharine  shit  is obviously to the taste of some ! :o(


poor old colman, making the macdonald's of rumi he ought to have made some money but he didn't ! :o(
















you fuckwit, satori is another dream of the deluded !


you can't write/say anything without spewing your toxic venom every where ! :o(
















you fuckwit ,  satori  is another dream of the deluded !


you can't write/say anything without spewing your toxic venom every where ! :o(
















you fuckwit, satori is another dream of the deluded !


you can't write/say anything without spewing your toxic venom every where ! :o(
















when you are enlightened like me you get sick of the endless twits and arseholes trying to put it over ! :o(
















the    code   of   hammurabi


the


stele
















“ what was bodhidharma was doing silently gazing at a cave wall for nine years ? ”


going  irrevocably  stark  raving  bonkers/mad  !
















“ what was bodhidharma was doing silently gazing at a cave wall for nine years ? ”


going irrevocably stark raving bonkers/mad !
















“ what was bodhidharma was doing silently gazing at a cave wall for nine years ? ”


going irrevocably stark raving bonkers/mad !
















nisargadatta's transcribers/translators were notorious for altering what they wrote
to fit their own ideas !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


apparently this was also a huge problem with what we read supposedly of ramana as well !


and in zen with tiāntóng rújìng


all these idiots on web plastering around quotes of this and that like it's the holy grail, but often they are just quoting the views of the mediocre men who translate and transcribe, bankei is another one with this problem !


you see all the rumi quotes like it's a golden fart from god, but a lot of them are coleman banks's   “interpretations ”   if those farts are so golden why don't they line up at coleman banks door to suck his dick ?
















what is the observation that best fits with  “ reality ”


how do things actually occur ?
















tornadoflame   quotes   me and   asks


“ to abide in absolute awakening with no modification is suicidal ! ”


what is your take on this


what does he mean by no modification?


my


reply


in the end enlightenment is  “ literal death ”  so you are seeking the escape clauses !


that's what's meant by modification !


good question ! :o)(
















tornadoflame   quotes   me and   asks


“ to abide in absolute awakening with no modification is suicidal ! ”


what is your take on this


what does he mean by no modification?


my


reply


in the end enlightenment is  “ literal death ”  so you are seeking the escape clauses !


that's what's meant by modification !
















if you look at the ch'an stories


they seem very like a pope and acolytes  !  : o ) 


there's nothing wrong with that !
















if you look at the ch'an stories, they seem very like a pope and acolytes  !  : o )


there's nothing wrong with that !
















if you look at the ch'an stories, they seem very like a pope and acolytes ! :o)


there's nothing wrong with that !
















“  THAT ”   is  some  sort  of  dream  of  the  deluded  !
















“  THAT ”  is some sort of dream of the deluded !
















“ THAT ”  is some sort of dream of the deluded !
















zen is basically about enlightenment  and you are not enlightened or you would understand this


“ on your lump of red flesh is a true man without rank

who is always going in and out of the face of every one of you

those who have not yet proved him, look, look! ”


( ed.  from linji yixuan's discourse III )


so


what

are


you


doing?
















zen is basically about enlightenment  and you are not enlightened or you would understand this


“ on your lump of red flesh is a true man without rank

who is always going in and out of the face of every one of you

those who have not yet proved him, look, look! ”


so


what

are


you


doing?
















zen is basically about enlightenment and you are not enlightened or you would understand this


“ on your lump of red flesh is a true man without rank

who is always going in and out of the face of every one of you

those who have not yet proved him, look, look! ”


so


what

are


you


doing?
















rather neat, the replacement of a hard disk  actuator  arm without a special tool !
















my  updated  mumon's zen warnings


to obey the rules and regulations is to tie yourself without a rope


to act freely and without restraint is heresy and self destructive !


to be aware of the mind, making it pure and quiet, is the heresy of silent illumination


to not test your understanding is to fall into a hole you can't climb out of !


to abide in absolute awakening with no modification is suicidal !


moralizing on good and evil is being demonic !


to weight voynich over the sensible and intelligent
is to be imprisoned beneath two iron mountains


living in the moment is delusion


practicing concentration in quiet sitting is hubric stupidity !
















well basically what zen is about is self taught and you are always on your on !


99.9%  of what claims to be zen is bullshit  !  : o (
















well basically what zen is about is self taught and you are always on your on !


99.9%  of what claims to be zen is bullshit ! :o(
















the thing about zen ,  is each  “teacher”  is his own  “pope”  so to speak,
it's where the buck starts and stops


actually neo-advaita ,  non duality is the same except being female dominated,
the cattery is usually behind the scenes ! :o)


this is actually a strength because there is no overall governing body
with the imposition of some stupid dogma !


“ mu ”  so  to  speak  ! ?  : o ) (
















the thing about zen ,  is each  “teacher”  is his own  “pope”  so to speak,
it's where the buck starts and stops


actually neo-advaita ,  non duality is the same except being female dominated,
the cattery is usually behind the scenes ! :o)


this is actually a strength because there is no overall governing body
with the imposition of some stupid dogma !


“ mu ”  so to speak !? :o)(
















the thing about zen ,  is each  “teacher”  is his own  “pope”  so to speak,
it's where the buck starts and stops


actually neo-advaita ,  non duality is the same except being female dominated,
the cattery is usually behind the scenes ! :o)


this is actually a strength because there is no overall governing body
with the imposition of some stupid dogma !


“ mu ”  so to speak !?
















the true principle is a gate without existence !


how


do


you


pass


through


it  !  ?


ed.   the above is my translation of the first two lines of the preface to the mumonkan !


animal-asteroid  replies


“ the true principle is a gate without existence ”  is only the second half right?


also, the question of how to pass through it is in the next line ;)


my


reply


well in fact imo you can't translate the lines separately


so what I have written is the best capture I can do of the entire sense, making allowance for cultural difference, like western culture has no notion of Buddhism !


I write a bit of poetry and that is one of the best things I have written, so thanx for posting your translation  challenge  ! :o)


i also used  this  for a source !
















well you can play zen or be real zen...................
















why does zen attract so much pysch ward material?
















well if you do nothing but play computer games

it's going to leave you  unskilled  about life isn't it ! :o(
















well if you do nothing but play computer games

it's going to leave you  unskilled  about life isn't it ! :o(
















a ngeative pap test doesn't  mean  you don't have hpv !


it only detects precancerous cell changes as a result of one or more HPV types !
















the true principle is a gate without existence !


how


do


you


pass


through


it  !  ?


ed.   the above is my translation of the first two lines of the preface to the mumonkan !
















to the  fuckwit  selling  jed  mckenna  on reddit zen


mckenna is in fact  richard bach 


it's just someone playing a pretend game, they manufacture a  fake  enlightenment experience  (I am enlightened so I can tell you his is fake, very fake very very fake !)


you con artists just love the bullshit and love to sell it don't you ! :o(


--------------


god you're stupid aren't you !


didn't I tell you I am enlightened and know  fake  experiences from the real !


being enlightened I also know who jed mckenna really is !


go back and read my first  reply ,  it toasts jed mckenna and his crap, you can't understand it but don't accept that's it you who are at fault !


since I know who jed is i'm all for people buying his books, he has several divorces to pay for and needs the money and he has quite a bit of insight


but all the same it's only bullshit and actually what he regarded as his real enlightenment experience is different from the one he made up for the jed mckenna identity,
but even that was just makyo in zen terms !


to be fair there was something to his original enlightenment experience

which was a wall dissolved and he looked out onto a beautiful seascape !
















“ the unreal has no being


the real never ceases to be ”


jed mackenna is another useless bullshit artist ! :o)(


the unreal has being


the real ever ceases to be !


that's enlightenment not mckenna's bullshit ! :o(
















religion is always a screwball event,  you have to  untangle it   !  : o ) (
















religion is always a screwball event,  you have to  untangle it  !  :o)(
















religion is always a screwball event, you have to  untangle it  ! :o)(
















religion is always a screwball event, you have to untangle it ! :o)(
















imo, there is a considerable benefit  to getting several minutes of midday sun in winter ,  which i will do on windless or near windless fine days by standing naked out in the direct rays and rotating abit : o)


this is because there may be  a hormetic effect ,  just a tiny amount of damage to the skin that excites an immune response and also possibly the generation of sulphated cholesterol and sulphated vitamin D   (lol,  115 iu with 2 mins 45 seconds at 26 iu/min ?)


you really have to watch getting cold, wether you have a virus and wether you are getting too knocked about by it, like 5 minutes exposure really seems to make me off the next day, not quite sure what that was, maybe i had a virus ?
















death is an illusion !


but


then


so


is


life !

:


o


)


(
















death is an illusion !


but


then


so


is


life !

:


o


)
















death is an illusion !


but


then


so


is


life !


:  o  (  )
















death is an illusion !


but


then


so


is


life !


:  o  )  (
















death is an illusion !


but


then


so


is


life !
















death is an illusion
















edging   is


not a good idea, can really screw the urethral and prostate health up !


there's a protease  (which is a protein digesting enzyme)  in the prostate fluid !


you want it to spend as short a time in the urethral track
as possible or it starts to digest the urethral track !


this  “digestion”  makes for susceptibility to uti's !
















broke and bad health that's zen


:  o  (   .   .   .   .    ~
















broke and bad health that's zen


: o (
















broke and bad health that's zen


:o(
















broke and bad health that's zen
















zen is easily  the most broke  of any  “tradition”  so I guess it's always the poor needy cousin of buddhism which has always had a secret covert financial agenda as befits a continuity from buddhism's origins as a  merchant bank  !


in


other


words


it has always been about money


whatever


the


disguise


and


zen


is


about


losing money ! :o { .. , . . . :} (........... ¡
















zen is easily  the most broke  of any  “tradition”  so I guess it's always the poor needy cousin of buddhism which has always had a secret covert financial agenda as befits a continuity from buddhism's origins as a  merchant bank  !


in


other


words


it has always been about money


whatever


the


disguise


and


zen


is


about


losing money ! : o (..)
















zen is easily  the most broke  of any  “tradition”  so I guess it's always the poor needy cousin of buddhism which has always had a secret covert financial agenda as befits a continuity from buddhism's origins as a  merchant bank  !


in


other


words


it has always been about money


whatever


the


disguise


and


zen


is


about


losing money ! :o)(
















jimbo571   writes


I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings


don't worry,  my thoughts are just as useless as yours.


my


reply


right you're just another of these waste of time zenners !


I


don't


waste

my


time


and


neither


did


the


ancients


my thoughts are .........................


sitting on your arse dull deadheads pretending to zen
like yourself are fuckwits !
















yet you focus on me ,  why?


(ed.  the serial pest,  emergdoc )


I am disruptive to your worship of the false god of medicine


what you do is just a job, there is some absence of sanity or some sense of larger view of things in the rest of your life !


humans are just some sort of  ratshit species ,  when they go and they will,
the world will be a better place !
















thank you for a sensible  reply , so rare on reddit zen ! :o)


franz koun is an  apologist  !


in my travels the kwan um zen school was the one I liked most, relatively easy going and lacking the anal stupidity of the Japanese lineages !


however the teachers were limited and the only people I found with a good understanding were toni packer of the  springwater  center and george bowman !


that is the rest is pretty much stupidity and fraud !


what can I say ?


reddit is full of idiots trying to put this fraud over into the emptiness of cyberspace ! :o()


why they waste their lives like this, I do not know !


as you recognize, moving out of one's comfort zone is so instrumental to what this about, you might be interested in john moriarty , who despite some catholic floridity had a very good understanding !
















scaredy cat,  bradecat,  won't reddy cat  !  : o (


ed.  brad warner avoiding reddit zen !
















scaredy cat, bradecat, won't reddy cat ! :o(


ed.  brad warner avoiding reddit zen !
















scaredy cat, bradecat, won't reddy cat ! :o(
















“ and hopefully begin to live the lifestyle ”


lol zen is a long tradition of suicidal depressives without the courage to doff themselves ! :o)
















people who work in an emergency departments get a very limited view of health problems, normal people are concerned to avoid problems rather than end up there !
















“ but a single CT scan subjects the human  body  to between 150 and 1,100 times the radiation of a conventional x-ray, or around a year's worth of exposure to radiation from both natural and artificial sources in the environment ”


[...]  to conclusively determine the risk of low radiation doses and set new safety standards for CT radiation, researchers are beginning to abandon the atomic bomb survivor data and directly investigate the number of cancers among people who have received CT scans


about a dozen such studies from different countries examining rates of various cancers following CT scans will be published in the next few years ”


anybody with the slighest sense would be concerned at receiving an x ray dose 100 to 1000 times stronger than a dental xray !


---------------------------------------------


now this is from some   “medically orthodox”   (annuls of internal medicine)    studies


“  the second  study  projected that out of 29,000 future cancers  2 percent of all cancer diagnoses would result from CT scans performed in 2007


the type of cancer would vary depending on the area of the body undergoing the CT scan


The most commonly caused cancers are expected to be lung  (6,200 cases)  and colon  (3,500) ,  as well as leukemia  (2,800)


the older the person is at the time of exposure, the less the risk for cancer


rita redberg, md, editor of the archives of internal medicine,
wrote in an accompanying editorial that


in light of these data, physicians  (and their patients)  cannot be complacent about the hazards of radiation  ”


the moral is to avoid unecessary CT scans !


so the basic point is there are small but significant increases in cancer risk and the risk is cumulative and there seems to be a general consensus that CT scans are used too carelessly !


one day we will see measures of DNA damage as a result of a CT scan which is the real measure, a lot of damage must occur to translate into actual cancer !


so a  .2%  or  2%  increase in cancer risk, what does that translate to in terms of DNA damage ?
















when taking more than one medication,  the side effects can combine to give out of the normal side effect problems !
















when taking more than one medication, the side effects can combine to give out of the normal side effect problems !
















when you take a lot of medications, the side effects can combine to give out of the normal side effect problems !
















when the relative is the absolute


the sixth patriarch


transmitted to the 7th  patriarch


east to west


and west to east


humans are fools


without wisdom


no way, no patriarchs


midnight is bright and the tributary streams shine


things themselves are attachment


enlightenment is the illusion !


subjective and objective internally nest


and infinitely regress and out gress !


.


.


.


when you walk the way it walks on you


waste your time night and day on reddit ! :o)
















my  reply  to the   sandokai  !


when the relative is the absolute


the sixth patriarch


transmitted to the 7th  patriarch


east to west


and west to east


humans are fools


without wisdom


no way, no patriarchs


midnight is bright and the tributary streams shine


things themselves are attachment


enlightenment is the illusion !


subjective and objective internally nest


and infinitely regress and out gress !


.


.


.


when you walk the way it walks on you


waste your time night and day on reddit ! :o)
















if you meditate without talking to the great   minds  of the past you get very damaged mentally, you can see it here on reddit, but it's pretty much the same in real life zen,
zen centers and any religion !


some of the zen stories are also this talking to which ever zen master, I was thinking in fact that really the better stories or transcriptions have a truly poetic density, that is in fact they are poetry................


it's all the same problem, people grossly underestimate the difficulty of zen and will not extend themselves into areas and writing they do not understand !
















“ so what is the most ergonomic posture for zazen? ”


a lot depends on your weight, muscle type, body firmness etc !


also you're trying to keep the knees as unbent as possible
so there's circulation through them !


also zazen has different contexts like if you are sitting in a group or at a sesshin which puts some limits on what you can get away with !


basically I am fairly light built , but strong so putting a cushion vertically and sitting on it worked well for me making the leg bending angle acceptable !


all the places I sat, you could sit on a chair if you felt the need  (which included the monastery at mt. tremper) ,  some people make up their own seiza benches with comfy little padded cushions :o) .................


once you are freed of a restrictive social context then really you are better to just lie down or slouch in a chair,  there's absolutely no point in doing anything hard on the joints or restricting the circulation unnecessarily ! :o)


--------------


you really have to pay attention to your circulation and that imo precludes any sort of lotus or cross legged posture


also another thing is not to sit first thing in the morning because you have just had a night of quiescent circulation, much better just to lie in bed for half an hour !


I got a big shock when I was starting out in zen and someone I knew of, still quite young  (mid 40's?) ,  but with a reputation as sitting a lot had a stroke and died !


--------------


the one rule I take now is how does it impact my health in the long term !
















a person of sense would explore and persevere out of his confusion  !  :o)(
















a person of sense would explore and persevere out of his confusion ! :o)(
















a person of sense would explore and persevere out of his confusion !
















a person of sense would explore and persevere out of his confusion
















long term sitters  (ed. zazen)  get back, hip and knee problems and their brains are cardboard mush cause they never moved on from what should be a phase that does not last more than five or six years at the outside ! :o(


it should really be only be three years before you see that it has nothing more to offer you !
















ah, my serial pest  (ed.  dumb2nub)  !  I have my little copy and paste for you


sadly experience has shown you to be  a dull talentless retard  only interested in some senseless hubric self aggrandizement and there fore i will not being replying to you ! :o)
















ah, my serial pest  (ed.  dumb2nub)  !  I have my little copy and paste for you


sadly experience has shown you to be  a dull talentless retard  only interested in some senseless hubric self aggrandizement and there fore i will not being replying to you ! :o)
















ah, my serial pest  (ed.  dumb2nub)  !  I have my little copy and paste for you


sadly experience has shown you to be a dull talentless retard only interested in some senseless hubric self aggrandizement and there fore i will not being replying to you ! :o)
















reddit zen is full of drug addicts and otherwise schizophrenic zombies,
they like alan watts's cast of mind....................


lotus eating it's called !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


you can't shake them, they munch f o r e v e r . . . . .
















basically the  microvasculature  starts to get suboptimal I think !


so the  “ retinal fractal dimension ”  is a measure of the energy efficiency of the retinal  microvasculature network, which seem to mirror the state of affairs in the kidney somewhat !


interesting !
















today's sexual scene, from  reddit medical   (ed.  24/4/14)


exchanged oral sex with girl last friday


lips have been burning


did she give me herpes?


so i met a girl last friday


ended up back at my place, started kissing, and that let to us exchanging oral sex


about 2 days ago i woke up and my lips were burning


it's at both edges of my upper lip


at first i figured it was sunburnt or something but now i'm starting to get worried


no pain in my tongue or lower lip


it now looks like both edges of my upper might be starting to blister
(but not enough to take a picture to help diagnose)


what gives?


did she give me herpes?
















world uvb  maps ,  and the winners are peru, chile and tibet surprisingly !


“ for countries in the southern hemisphere, such as new zealand, the uvb radiation is up to fifty percent higher than in the countries in the northern hemisphere, such as germany ” 
















“ how many people in this world believe they are doing good ? ! ”


my


reply


very few don't and they are the only honest ones !


: o )(      : o()
















“ how many people in this world believe they are doing good ? ! ”


my


reply


very few don't and they are the only honest ones !
















in actual fact historical writings are generally superior to the current because of the very much wider net they cast in terms of informed people who know what they are talking about !?


however,  it's  (ed. zen/mysticism)  also  “ about ”  something and if you lose sight of the  “ about ”  then you are like some servant working for a master when you don't have to, rather one is the master !


with translation there's always a gap you are trying to jump, the more you know about what it's trying the say, the better you can jump that gap ! :o)(


if you'd ask me what zen is about I would say that the first version of my reply I had to scrap as unsatisfactory and I think this second version is satisfactory, first time we often get things wrong and the actual fact of the correction of that is in large part what zen is about ! :o)(


so you need to see yourself and work on that for corrections,
so you can't get away from that ! :o()
















i have been around a while in zen and seen the mistakes made, really 99% might as well play golf for all the progress they make, so certain of themselves and their being on the right track !


when you have insight, you can take a ball lobbed from any direction, it's  usually a bit disconcerting to see the zero rate of return catches, but that is just as it is ! :o(


reality and life is fundamentally insane, zen inside the boundaries is that fundamental insanity and the perennial mystical matter which is zen outside the boundaries and universal, is not ! :o)(
















now I read it  again ,  it's quite well done, what it does is contrast two different types of fake zen,  retrogressive/quietism versus a sort of phony rambunctiousness !


both zen and Confucianism are boundaries, what is without boundaries ?


you have to come from that spot to make sense of stuff,
you can't approach it through systems !


you are really in quite the wrong space though I am sure you will not listen to me, but basho, wang wei and sa'di are on the button in  a way most of zen is not !
















i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts !


: o) .  . } . . {
















i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts !


: o). .}.{
















i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts !
















i sometimes think women think men are stupider than they are and completely without interpersonal smarts
















it's great to see people understand and use the term  voynich ,  understanding this notion of bullshit crafted to look like it's profound and makes sense was totally necessary for me to walk out of the schizophrenic aspect of zen I SO picked up in my years of real life zen and john loori !
















the winds of time blow indignation into the rubbish heap where it belongs
















the winds of time blow indignation into the rubbish heap where it belongs !
















the winds of time blow  indignation  into the rubbish heap where it belongs ! :o)(
















melanoma/s can  itch  !
















melanoma can  itch  !
















never listened to nirvana before,  there's something to kurt cobain !


   unplugged in new york


where did you  sleep  last night


jesus doesn't want me for a  sunbeam
















maezumi roshi drowned drunk in the bath !


drinking, endless affairs ,  (and drugs !)  are not the way of the sages I am afraid !


abstinence is !


--------------


there's ikkyu, Dylan Thomas and charles bukowski,
but us less talented types have a different road to walk !
















maezumi roshi drowned drunk in the bath !


drinking, endless affairs ,  (and drugs !)  are not the way of the sages I am afraid !


abstinence is !
















“ retrogression is to go against our religion ”    quote   by mumon


yeah he's highlighting the heresy of  retrogression
which is actually ewk and his clone dumb2nub's position


completely minimalist and ineffectually deconstructive,
and actually it's also the error of soto zen ! ..................


zen is actually built around a true dai kensho experience
and then it takes 30 years to sort that out


there's no shortcuts ! :o)(


I find it fascinating that these heresies talked about one thousand years ago occur in exactly the same way today, the root cause of course is just sheer mental laziness ! :o(


--------------


I think that's a particularly good translation though I doubt we are seeing the full richness of his intended meaning !
















 salvador dali and gala in dalis paris studio in 1934


an  interesting  read !


i had looked at the photo, something half clicked but it wasn't until later in the article that it actually clicked !


“ [...]  cécile's mother gala, who left eluard to marry salvador dalí
and was also a muse to such figures as louis aragon and andré breton?


‘ after she met dalí in 1929, she was not interested in me any more ’
cécile was only eleven when gala abandoned both husband and daughter ”


this sort of stuff makes you weep,  she was a childhood friend of marina  tsvetaeva  !
















“ so I am going to cut my cat in half as an expression of ultimate truth, this is zen right? ”


what the story is about is ch'an was  celibate which is an exercise in detachment, yet here were the monks in these two dorms all bonding with the monastery cat !


you get the same in prisons, an animal is a big deal to the human breeding mind
deprived of it's natural breeding paradigm, but it's not the sort of detachment that what zen is about needs !


“suburban zen”  is caught and gored on the horns of this dilemma ! :o()
















an    exact description    of dai kensho !


truth is behind you


step back through thinking


to


what


is


there


!


:o)
















this is the whole point that just about everybody stops on, you need to go into what you don't understand or what even at first seems wrong to you


other wise    dai kensho   will remain a distant dream.................
















this is the whole point that just about everybody stops on, you need to go into what you don't understand or what even at first seems wrong to you


other wise dai kensho will remain a distant dream.................
















if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together
you might let some light in !


if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together
some light might get in !
















if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together you might let some light in !


if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together some light might get in !
















you're  (ed.  dota2nub on reddit zen)  the worst sort of religious scumbag, very anti anything creative or artistic because   that shows    your threadbare copying  plagiarism and plastering of some sort of claimed secret know ledge that you can't express  UP


creativity can express it which is why you react so strongly to anything real,
the rubbish of course you quite like...............


--------------


you are like ewk, you are claiming some secret inexpressible knowledge..............


but the reality is you are just an upyourself idiot without any creative expressive talent ! ?


i don't seek you, but you seek me, does that try and tell you something?


if you weren't so busy sewing the façade together some light might get in !
















satori   doesn't  really  exist ,  it's  a  nonsense  term  !
















satori   doesn't really exist,  it's a nonsense term  !
















satori  doesn't really exist, it's a nonsense term !
















you love the image,  that's all you love and will never abandon it  !  : o (
















you love the image,  that's all you love and will never abandon it ! :o(
















you love the image,  that's all you love and will never abandon it  !
















you love the image,  that's all you love and will never abandon it !
















you love the image,  that's all you love and will never abandon it
















you love the image, that's all you love and will never abandon it
















“ when meeting a man in a narrow path,  halt a pace and give way to him


never monopolize a delicious dish,  but give a portion of it to another


for such compromise is the only safe way of going through the world ”


yeah I liked  that
















“ when meeting a man in a narrow path, halt a pace and give way to him


never monopolize a delicious dish, but give a portion of it to another


for such compromise is the only safe way of going through the world ”


yeah I liked  that
















well like for this  reply  I went through your posts a bit to see what you are asking.............


you can go through  mine  to see what I am saying ....................


nobody does the work, they all pretend and gabble on reddit zen ! :o)


--------------


there you are, a post from 2 days ago, an exact description of dai kensho !


truth is behind you


step back through thinking


to


what


is


there


!


:o)
















well like for this reply I went through your posts a bit to see what you are asking.............


you can go through  mine  to see what I am saying ....................


nobody does the work, they all pretend and gabble on reddit zen ! :o)
















a poem by eileen


OLD LOVE


casual

but intense

relaxed

but exciting

a man of his word

who listens to mine

the possible

and the impossible

all in one

why do I dream

at this age

maybe that's all

there is


my


reply


old love


is


not


young

love


a faded dream


between the breaks


nothing


of


worth


can


occur !


:


o)


(
















solokuhhiro  asks


can zazen help overcoming addictions?


basically pc and everything about it  ( for example porn/games/occupation with intellecutal/philosophical/spiritual topics )  that substitute social life


my


reply


well zen had a lot of hermits so  “social life”  is not an issue per se !


in fact solitude is really where zen is at !


so the problem is not substituting games and porn for social life per se,
but they are toxic activities that demean you and crimp your life !


zazen causes joint damage, but getting an hour a day in quiet contemplation will really pay dividends !


also keep a diary or do writing of some sort, get that reflection !
















you are a   savant  !


I can see what you are complaining about, there's some recent research on how  “ forgetting ”  is an important part of brain function !


I think you are going to have to exclude as much of the unwanted contact/information as is practical !


that is, become somewhat solitary !


I find keeping files and making notes and writing is a big help to re-emphasizing the stuff that needs reemphasizing and working through !
















dersteppenwolf2   writes


based on a passage from dogen's shobogenzo :


the fish in his sea


knows the same infinity


the bird finds in sky


my


reply


the fish in his pee


knows the same sort of dimwittidty


as the


feathered brained


dogen clones ! :o(


dersteppenwolf2   replies


do you have anything to say for yourself besides criticizing other people?


my


reply


what sort of world do you live in where you expect to be complimented for writing wrong minded crap ?


the stories of the old masters are all about their criticism of the sort of vapid/twisted/disgusting nonsense of the type you write !


get real man !


dersteppenwolf2   replies  again


you don't consider dogen an  “old master”  ?


can there be a master you don't agree with?


I could go around criticizing people I disagree with all day, if I were so inclined


but do you have anything to offer besides criticism?


my


reply


dogen wasn't enlightened until his last years of life,
all the phonies fall for his bullshit....................


zen is sharpening by criticism, don't ask for quarter
because that's not the way one progresses !


informed criticism is the highest offering one can make ! :o)(
















dersteppenwolf2   writes


based on a passage from dogen's shobogenzo :


the fish in his sea


knows the same infinity


the bird finds in sky


my


reply


the fish in his pee


knows the same sort of dimwittidty


as the


feathered brained


dogen clones ! :o(
















flarpydarp  writes


wise is the man who


knowing much about the world


thinks he knows nothing


my


reply


stupid is the man


hubric to the nth degree


who writes this sort of shit ! :o)


flarpydarp  replies


using this meter


everything sounds pretentious


get off ma back yo!


my


reply


if you write clap trap, what do you expect ?


you are too defensive, don't you want to write better..........?


step away from the clichés !
















flarpydarp  writes


wise is the man who


knowing much about the world


thinks he knows nothing


my


reply


stupid is the man


hubric to the nth degree


who writes this sort of shit ! :o)
















erisianbuddhist  writes


truth is before you


if you say,  “ I think... ” ,  it's gone


thoughts are only ghosts


my


reply


truth is behind you


step back through thinking


to


what


is


there


!


:o)
















erisianbuddhist  writes


truth is before you


if you say,  “ I think... ” ,  it's gone


thoughts are only ghosts


my


reply


truth is behind you


step back through thinking


to


what


is


there


!
















I've done a vipassna retreat and quite liked it,  but they are a bit dumb,  dumber than zen which is saying something  !  : o ) . .. (


they are much more easy going,  zen is so anal  !  : o (
















I've done a vipassna retreat and quite liked it, but they are a bit dumb, dumber than zen which is saying something ! :o)(


they are much more easy going, zen is so anal ! :o(
















alexisflip  writes


wanting to write haiku


not knowing what to write


cars passing by


my


reply


not wanting to write


knowing


what to


write


no


cars


p


a


s


s


i


n


g


by


!


:


o


(  /


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alexisflip  writes


Wanting to write Haiku


not knowing what to write


cars passing by


my


reply


not wanting to write


knowing


what to


write


no


cars


p


a


s


s


I


n


g


by


!


:


o


( /


)
















today's just been a carbon  copy  of all the other days


12:00
















if men are  “ self-pitying ”  after a relationship breakup, i think it's because they are always surprised how how practical and ruthless women can be with an unsatisfactory   relationship ,  this is of course a naïveté on the part of men ! :o)(
















if men are  “ self-pitying ”  after a relationship breakup, i think it's because they are always surprised how how practical and ruthless women can be with an unsatisfactory relationship, this is of course a naïveté on the part of men ! :o)(
















life and teachers and zen  are all too sharded  to make the notion of  “having a teacher”  have any sense,  it's self taught and people have different strengths and weaknesses


this is speaking as one who has visited a lot of teachers......
















life and teachers and zen are all too sharded to make the notion of  “having a teacher”  have any sense, it's self taught and people have different strengths and weaknesses


this is speaking as one who has visited a lot of teachers......
















females are not women, but the continuity of an entity that has control over the perpetuation of the human species !
















knowledgeable


knowledge on the edge of being able ! :o)(
















knowledgeable


knowledge on the edge of being able !
















knowledgeable


knowledge on the edge of being able
















take my advice  (ed.  to a reddit askdocs doctor) ,  treat reddit as discussion and not a surgery interview and it's a lot less grief and way more helpful to the OP, who in the end makes his own judgments! :o)


what I think is also different now is you cannot assume that OP's can afford medical care, so they are forced to be more knowledgeable about their conditions and do some diagnosis themselves


that's the real big change imo !
















I find gp's really have very poor diagnostic skills as a consequence of seeing too many dissimilar conditions and it confuses things and leads to a lack of in depth understanding, specialists have a huge advantage !
















ah well,  life rolls on,  i am going to remain  celibate ,  women are a nightmare,  easier to do in one's late fifties of course ! :o)
















ah well, life rolls on, i am going to remain  celibate ,  women are a nightmare, easier to do in one's late fifties of course ! :o)
















emily dickinson has that complete understanding
of what is the essential  “ mystical mystery! ”


it really only comes  (with a few exceptions like Dylan Thomas)  to those who have lived substantial portions of their life celibate, which is actually the problem of modern/(meiji and post meiji)  zen


the suburban  “wife and kids”  zen is a degenerate schizophrenic fantasy !


in terms of zen one needs to understand that what it is about is  “ perennial ”  ie occurring with people and quality mysticism through history and is also very rarely understood, Emily Dickenson is one of those....................!


in that context zen is just a mistake like everything else !
















søren kierkegaard and  regine  olsen
















basically one needs some daily time to decompress, i usually just slouch in a chair and if the night is fine and not too cold spend sometime also out under the stars................. :o)


“ legs hurt, back hurts, head hurts, everything itches, wanted to give up zazen after 15 minutes  ‑  but kept sitting for 15 minutes more ”


if it hurts then you may be damaging your joints and in fact long term sitters usually develop joint problems in the knees and hips if they sit full or half lotus


honestly just slouching in a chair or lying on/in a bed is better


just about all zen centers and organizations will let you sit seiza
or on a vertical cushion.........!


you can call it prayer or contemplation, it's perennial to quality mysticism.................!


now you can understand what I have just written, but you will not understand what I am about to write and will ignore it with the usual disastrous consequences , get turned into some sort of zen equivalent of  this  .............................


ok the problem is this, when you start to contemplate/decompress whatever, is existing ruts will be dug deeper and you will soak up and imprint from your reading !


the average zen product is an arrogant stupid who is absolutely certain of their rightness while being very wrong...........


this is because they read what they understand which is alan watts, both suzukis and that sort of thing when the problem is their misguided understanding in the first place !


so they imprint with this rubbish....................


it is essential to read and try to work out the spiritual greats like Emily Dickinson or sa'di


my reading  list


these people will keep you sane, the vast majority of zen rubbish will only do for you what it does for others, which is make them rigid and stupid and partly insane..............


I am sure you are already  dissing  what I have said ! .........................


it's depressing, schizophrenics rule ! :o(
















“ romantic relationships are particularly important components of girl's identities and are, therefore, strongly  related  to how they feel about themselves  ‑  good or bad


as a result, relationships that diverge from what girls envision for themselves are especially damaging to their emotional well-being


a girl's risk of severe depression, thoughts of suicide, and suicide attempt increases the more her relationships diverge from what she had imagined


on the other hand, relationships are not as important to boy's identities


boys may be more likely to build their identities around sports or other extracurricular activities, so this could be why they are not affected by relationship inauthenticity ”
















my  reply  to a reddit questioner who wants confirmation/recognition he is on autistic spectrum


the world is weird, there's no relief from people being stupid arseholes basically !


I think you need some creative outlet to build your self esteem, doing something of quality artistically, like I write and you get an overall look at things that raises you above the stupidity of the masses !


leonardo da vinci, dante and einstein were all on autistic spectrum !


humans are a predatory pack animal that will always turn on outsiders !
















Bismuth  (ed.  in pepto bismol)  is extremely toxic, only it is very poorly absorbed !


they used to use mercury in the old days too ! :o)


a good article on the  problems


I have seen people who take a lot get severely affected mentally ! :o(
















UNBEARABLE   by   eileen prunster


oh god how is it possible

to love one another

so intensely

yet rub each other up the wrong way

no saving us

i want to dissipate into mist

invade your pores


my reply  quoting   w.b.  yeats


“ how many loved your moments of glad grace


and loved your beauty with love false or true


but one man loved the pilgrim soul in you


and loved the sorrows of your changing face ”


eileen's  reply


RECURSIVE


you morn me


in retrospect


and hurt me


in the present tense


my


reply


NON RECURSIVE


those


that


take


injury


F


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E


L


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n


j


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r


y
















“ how many loved your moments of glad grace


and loved your beauty with love false or true


but one man loved the pilgrim soul in you


and loved the sorrows of your changing face ”


by   w.b.  yeats
















practice is what all the idiots who will never get enlightened do,  it's because they pretend to be real which of course they call  “ practice ”
















practice is what all the idiots who will never get enlightened do, it's because they pretend to be real which of course they call  “ practice ”
















harm  is all to do with the emission strength which is the strength of the source
plus how close to the source


you can calculate or measure with a meter
















harm  is all to do with the emission strength
which is the strength of the source plus how close to the source


you can calculate or measure with a meter
















don't you feel an absolute fool for thinking that Buddhism is anything but a big fairy tale, Buddha never existed historically and neither did jesus !


religion is just one big psych ward ! :o)
















don't you feel an absolute fool for thinking that Buddhism is anything but a big fairy tale, Buddha never existed historically and neither did jesus !


buddhism is just one big psych ward ! :o)
















don't you feel an absolute fool for thinking that Buddhism is anything but a big fairy tale, Buddha never existed historically and neither did jesus !


just one big psych ward ! :o)
















meditation is for idiot children !
















life is a sharded mess,  it doesn't repair  or  get remedied  ?  !
















life is a sharded mess, it doesn't repair or get remedied ? !
















life is a sharded mess, it doesn't get repaired or remedied ? !


v3
















life is a sharded mess, it doesn't get repaired or remedied  !
















life is a sharded mess, it doesn't get repaired or remedied !


v2
















life is a sharded mess, it doesn't repair or get remedied


v1
















freaky, a pic of the 1989 hillsborough sesshin led by john loori,


top left  pic  on page 2 with me second from the right end of the bottom row


john loori 3rd from the bottom left


I almost walked out cause it was my first sesshin but actually it was a very comfortable sesshin with superb food cooked by a greek/Russian? orthodox couple !


oh to be young again ! :o)(
















the most important thing about meditation is you need to grow out of it
and if you don't do that within three or four years there is a problem !


--------------


i was just thinking that brad warner was a good example
of a person who has never outgrown meditation !


when you get properly enlightened it's got nothing else to teach you !


what zen is about is the classic alice and the red queen problem,
you have to move forward very quickly or else you fall back ! :o)
















the most important thing about meditation is you need to grow out of it
and if you don't do that in three or four years there is a problem !
















mikbrock  asks


“ does the mind have a basic plane of immanence?


and if so, can it be cognized? ”


my


reply


yes and no


mikbrock  replies


is that one dialetheia or answers to both my questions?


my


reply


same answer to both questions but a different meaning in each case !


you can actually say yes to the first one and no to the second as well !


those were intelligent question/s ! : o)..( . .. .(!) . . . . . .
















“ does the mind have a basic plane of immanence?


and if so, can it be cognized? ”


yes and no
















“ does the mind have a basic plane of immanence? ”


yes and no
















last night past  midnight  I was watching the evening star !
















last night past midnight I was watching the evening star !
















if i died now,  i'd be full of regret  for the unseen bush,  mountains,  hills
and clear clear streams
















if i died now, i'd be full of regret for the unseen bush, mountains, hills
and clear clear streams


audio
















buddha is a dream,  a meteorite flash,  a pornographic fantasy  !  :o)(
















buddha is a dream, a meteorite flash, a pornographic fantasy ! :o)(
















the road takes in you the wrong direction, how long before you find out if ever?
















the wrong road takes in you the wrong direction, how long before you find out if ever?
















osho was a clever bullshit artist !


you can see it from his talks, just nonsense basically, the sannyasins were just dumbells into a VERY promiscuous life style !


just one bizzare sexual circus with him as a cover, and his rolls royces
and his addiction to laughing gas.....................


read Emily  Dickinson  or the 7th zen  patriarch  and see the difference !
















 la gerbe (1953) by henri matisse


repetition


“ I wouldn't mind turning into a  vermilion  goldfish ”
















all that is meant by the last word  (ed.  in zen)  is people's inability to not have the last world as you often seen in the endless very long threads that occur here  (ed.  reddit zen)  !


1350  years and nothing has changed  !  :o)(


there's a lot of zen poems expressing the last word,  for instance this  one  of dogens !
















repaired my viewsonic VA2226w monitor almost exactly as per this  video ,  amazing
i couldn't have even opened the case without it ! :o)(
















it takes a big moron to defend what he hasn't looked at/ is not familiar with !
















it takes a big moron to defend what he what he hasn't looked at/ is not familiar with !
















pot fucked brain for  sure ,  you are selling bullshit for no commission !
















ewk I feel you are right about everyone else being wrong and you being right,
except that I am right and you and everyone else is wrong ! :o)
















the stupidity of mediocrities is e n d l e s s


the stupidities of mediocrities are e n d l e s s
















the stupidity of mediocrities is e n d l e s s


the stupidities of mediocrities are e n d l e s s
















lol, the most  zen  movie  where the world turns on  matchheads !


all the idiots chasing after milligrams of red phosphor and are arseholes to boot,
one of the biggest characteristics of zen !
















what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman   ?   !   .  !  :o(  :o)  :o(   !     .


v4
















what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman  ?  .


v3
















what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman ?


v2
















what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman ?
















what is the point of telling a madman he is mad ?
















what is the point of telling a madman he is a madman


v1
















creativity is really that communion with infinity !
















life is endless noise, what is the noise of living   ?   .


v3




















life is endless noise, what is the noise of living ?


v2
















life is endless noise, what is the noise of living


v1
















alan wilson watts needs taking with apinch of  salt  ! : o ()
















try and get some time away by yourself in an area of scenic natural beauty !
















vertexoflife  writes


a translation is not authentic


my


reply


the blue cliff record itself is a compilation, it's a mixed bag, I don't see any hard and fast ground of  “ authenticity ”  and both brothers worked well together to make a good translation !


“ authentic ”  means of undisputed origin and not a copy; genuine


it or its obverse are not meanings that apply to  “ translation ”


one speaks in terms of the accuracy or quality or even sympathy
of the translation with the source document


the source document may be called authentic, but really it's a mismatched meaning
when applied to the translation !


you are theorizing about translation without any practical experience and your whole tone is highly hubric and full of simplifications that do not bear out in reality !


you can gain as well as lose with translation !


a good translation can be a literary work in its own right and  “ genuine ”  in that respect, but again it's the necessity of some practical experience doing some translations to fully garner the dimensions that translations in fact move in !


I think you can say that a translation is authentic in terms of the translator, for instance a certain translation was authentic arthur  waley  for instance


--------------


a translation is an original work in its own right !


so this is what I am saying, it is creative writing and not a copy, not at the literary level anyway which is the context here !


--------------


the  stupidities  of  mediocrities  is  e n d l e s s


--------------


the  stupidity  of  mediocrities  is  e n d l e s s


the  stupidities  of  mediocrities  are  e n d l e s s
















“ I am a 31 year old teacher who has been on paxil/paroxetine for 2 years to treat my panic attacks


I tried to get off paxil 4 times and always experienced horrible side-effects that caused me to go back on my 30 mg daily dose of paxil


after gaining 60 pounds and getting rid of several doctors, I lucked out


I found a great doctor who, working with her psychiatrist friend,
helped me get off paxil in just 9 days


here’s the plan:


days 1-3 :   30 mg paxil/ 10mg prozac


day 4 :   20mg paxil/ 20mg prozac


day 5 :   10mg paxil/ 20mg prozac


days 6-9 :   0mg paxil/ 20mg prozac


I then stopped taking prozac.


I never thought this would work


I thought my doctor was being naive and I’d be back in there in 2 days
telling her to find another plan


I’d tried slow weaning before and was too sick to get out of bed at 25mg a day


I’m not saying this was easy, but it was nothing like I’d gone through any other time I tried quitting


I had no panic and almost no head zaps  ”
















amalgam fillings which are 50% mercury are a problem, but way best left until they become loose enough to come out with hardly any drilling !


there's a lot of mercury released in the removal process so as I say best left and replaced with ceramic or composite when they fall out !


amalgams emit mercury vapour and the placement of new  amalgam  fillings has been banned in Sweden, Norway and Denmark !
















dharmabumzz  writes


I define myself as an existentialist, as a progressive, as a psychotherapist, as a humanist, as a realist, as an idealist, as a social democrat, as a christian, as a taoist, as an atheist


why not also as a buddhist?


my


reply


as you get older, you see the desert in everything you do


enlightenment


dharmabumzz  replies 


desert? or dessert?


my


reply


lol  “ dessert ”  in your hedonistic dreams !


only when you go to eat it you discover it to be a mirage in the  “ desert ”  !
















as you get older, you see the desert in everything you do


enlightenment
















as you get older, you see the desert in everything you do


enlightenment
















“ however, by the age of 70 the  thymus  is just a tenth of the size in adolescents


this has a lot of impacts later in life, when the functionality of the immune system decreases with age and you become more vulnerable to infection and less responsive to vaccines ”
















good  quote  ewk, you can tell a wild fox  (mujushinkyo, songhill)  they are a wild fox, they just growl back..........................
















there is a growing awareness and recognition in the vital role of vitamin  K2  mk7 for better calcium utilization and metabolism for bone and heart health


vitamin K2 mk7 is known to activate the bone protein (osteocalcin) and the proteins in vasculature (matrix gla protein) leading to effective deposition of calcium on the bones and it's inhibition in the arteries


thus promoting bone and cardiovascular health
















you won't get to new York by walking to los angeles ! :o)(
















you won't get to new York by walking to los angeles !
















you won't get to new York by walking to los angeles
















the only tables to turn on reddit zen are using it to improve one's reasoning skills and understanding, are you doing that or just going in an endless stupid circle ?


















reddit zen seems to be anuses in place of an eye ! :o)


 "an apparition in the shape of a man having an eye in the place of his anus" by yosa buson from the buson youkai emaki (demon scroll)
















reddit zen is like getting in a spin drier, the moment you start to read
you are in for a ride................


the solution is.....................
















you are an anti creative moron  (ed. of mujushinkyo on reddit zen) ,  spewing the shtick and trying to trample down the real talent !
















zen is just a word in the public domain, you can make it mean anything you want to, but the  “ blue cliff record ”  translated by the cleary brothers is in the authentic tradition, as is han shan's poetry !
















for those who claim  “ zen is buddhism ” ,   there's no ground to stand on, Buddha was a tree shrine god who got morphed into something else by  ashoka's  need for a unifying religion for his empire !


in fact the archeological evidence suggests that the earliest buddhism was in fact a merchant bank network !


if there's anything that zen is defined by, it's the transmission   outside scriptures


you need to have had that transmission to know, you patently haven't since you cling to your imaginary ground of an historically existing Buddha and an endless bunch of rather voynichy bullshit  !  !  !


songhill  replies  and  quotes


教外別傳

jiào wài bié zhuàn

a special (separate)  transmission outside the teachings


my


reply


without that transmission you cling to quotes regardless of how right they are, I said outside the scriptures because that is correct and conveys the sense better, as for outside the teachings, I just don't like the phase at all !


you are leaning on the words of others because your own experience is just not there, I have the experience and words come complete and to the point as needed !


so it's a transmission  “ outside the scriptures ”  and that means you don't need to rely on words of others which in this case are such an unholy brew of a vast majority of outright crap with a little original sense that they are counterproductive/worse than useless ! :o(
















is writing a form of  formaldehyde  ?


“ there is something simultaneously fascinating and unsettling about the bottled specimens on display at the harvard museum of natural history, with so many creatures preserved in formaldehyde ”


the  marquise  of dai